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That fire is none other than self-love. You see, I never truly loved myself. I am just an average guy from a middle-class background- what’s there to love? I was nobody special, just a face amongst the crowd, a number within a statistic.
But i forgot something. I am loved by my friends and family. I am loved by God, who chose to forgive me of my wickedness. Even though I am nothing but a poor broken wretched fool, God has chosen to grant me his grace and mercy - protecting me from std scares, giving me a peace of mind when I was at my lowest, and linking me up with a caring support group.
I was so loved, but I simply refused to see it.
I now understand that the first step is to love myself first. Yes, i am an average bloke. But i am a unique individual with a unique story who has his own dreams and aspirations. I owe it to myself to live the best life possible. I owe it to myself, to pass on the goodness that has been shown to me and help others who are suffering. I owe it to myself, to be happy and live a meaningful purposeful life.
Yes,I have made many mistakes. But there is no shame and condemnation in my story. Only grace, mercy, forgiveness and compassion.
You see, without self-love, I did not have the self-respect and dignity to walk away from this lifestyle. I saw the destruction it had brought me, but I did not love myself enough to truly quit.
I thought that I deserved all this pain and suffering. That is was normal for an average guy like me to fall into vice.
I was in pain and suffering, but did not love myself enough to pull myself out of this bottomless pit.
I always gaves excuses on why I could not quit. I am a young and horny male. Addiction cant be controlled. Its a mental disorder that makes me compulsively act out. But I finally realised that it was all lies. There has always been a ladder out of this dark pit. But I was simply hiding in a corner, pretending not to see it. I grew comfortable in the shadow of darkness, afraid to step out into the light. As plato once said, “the greatest tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light”. [2/3]
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Make no mistake, this lifestyle has caused immense destruction to my life. I now objectify women/have unrealistic expectations of sex. I have no doubt that my experiences will have negative effects on my intimacy with my future partner.
But what has happened has happened, and I have to reap what I have sowed. The time for my healing journey has begun, and my conviction to start afresh has never been stronger. I feel like a brand new person, completely born again from the crucible of pain and suffering. The fire within me has never been stronger. Even in the depths of winter, there is an invincible summer within me that can never die.
I will not fail. I will not fall. I refuse to live my life on bended knees. It is only at a man’s lowest that he truly sees himself for what he really is. And I can see it as clear as day. I am a fighter to the very bitter end.
To all the bros who have crossed paths with me, though we may have had our disagreements, i wish you all the best.
And to my cynics who tried to bring me down, just remember this. History will repeat itself, and young bros will stumble onto this forum asking for advice to quit. You can be as cynical as you want, but do me one last favour- remember to wax lyrical about my story.
It is living proof that there are no impossibilities in life. Only men who are lacking in will, courage and imagination. There are no shackles in life, only the ones you impose upon your own mind.
Oh, and I finally realise why some bros here are so quick to dissuade me from quitting. Because they were once like me, in my exact shoes. But they failed. Seeing me succeed simply reminds them of their failures. I am like a mirror to them - exposing all of their flaws, weaknesses and failures; reminding them of what they could have become if they chose to fight the good fight.
My journey has been treacherous but it has just begun. But though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil.
Signing out,
Regretfulman
A man of regrets, and a hopeful future.
[Closing word]
My account will be here for the next 48 hours for the final AMA. Afterwards i will be deactivating it.(still dont know how, someone teach me pls).
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Originally Posted by
WILHD
Christians in a nutshell. I don’t need to add more.
From what ive read from your previous posts, you seem to have a lot of hate, insecurity, brokenness,bitterness and contempt.
I dont know who hurt you/what painful life experience you been through, but i hope you find the peace you need one day.
All the best bro
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Originally Posted by
faketobey
Your attitude of just wishing the worse for people just only makes you even less mature than you try to make yourself out to be. Let me educate your pagan wanna christian ass , God even forgave Judas when he sold him out to the romans. Yes you stand here only a man with little life experience judging those who have been here longer than you have. 1 i dont raw and i do not see FL. 2. I have a mistress. End of story.
What the fuck are you even rabbling on about? Im referring to naka,not you. Unless this is a clone account?
And im not judging bros who choose to stay. I couldnt give a fucking damn what internet strangers choose to do. Go read my post again. Im wishing all bros the best.
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Originally Posted by
syncrossed
Yes, ts does exhibit some of that cringey, indulgent naval-gazing and jesus complex common to these people
But its also more than that, not entirely fair to keep on bashing the religious crowd. ts admits a dependence on testo and the artificial ego boost, plus coming from a relatively sheltered and privileged background, probably can account for the inflated ego and aggressive one-upmanship in his writing.
Taking everything into account, he doesnt have much life experience, barely an adult, probably not able to even earn his own keep, so its impressive how he maintains that ego.
But if his story has helped some samsters work through their issues, i guess thats a good thing.
Hope you enjoy the grade A entertainment. Not every day in sammmyboy u get to see this lol
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Originally Posted by
timeliness
In the meantime, TS still doesn’t know why he has offended so many bros here.
For those bros who are quitting, good luck.
For those bros who intend to continue the hobby, all the best too.
Selective reading, read only the good stuff 😁
Yes, i understand. I have very polarizing opinions. Not the middle-ground, lets-meet-in-the-middle politically correct bullshit.
Some bros will get offended since my views directly opposes their entire worldview on which their lives were built upon. To accept my views is akin to admitting that their entire life is a lie.
Could i have worded my statements in a more tactful, less abrasive manner? Sure. But i dont give a fuck. Best i can do is just say “no offense bro”. Not happy just kpkb, or “zap” my imaginary internet points.
Also, you make it sound as if offending people is a bad thing to be avoided. Donald trump offended half of the population and became president. Jesus spoke the truth, offended the powers-that-be, got nailed to a cross and started one of the world’s largest religion.
Luckily for me, I get to be on an anonymous forum, giving me the carte blanche to say whatever i want.
On a side note, how do i deactivate my account? Can guide me?
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Originally Posted by
sbwow
Why do you want to deactivate your account? Can’t you just go MIA?
Or is this becoming an addiction.
Yup replying here has been somewhat of a ritual.
A time-consuming activity that adds no value to my life. Can do me a favour and teach me how to deactivate?
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Originally Posted by
sbwow
I remembered reading a thread about Big Boss Sam not closing anymore accounts as some users tried to activate it again after some time.
Don’t know about you, but I have amassed knowledge over here which is considered taboo in the living world. Probably, you are following up on the wrong threads or just don’t see the light.
So impossible to deactivate account? Anyone can confirm?
What the fuck light are you talking about? Dont talk in riddles bro, im not aristotle.
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Originally Posted by
timeliness
I don’t think you understand. There’s a difference between polarising and being offensive.
I.e, I can make an opinion saying that guys and lesbians are abnormal people and I don’t like being around such people
But I don’t need to go around saying how we humans are meant to be heterosexual and hence being homosexual is abnormal to their faces.
Similarly, you can say that thai FLs are low ses, and that’s your opinion which is fine.
But when you go around saying that people who find Thai FLs have loser mentality and what not, that offends people.
I don’t know if you’ll ever learn to be tactful, but trying to sound like a badass because you’re “motherfucking regretfulman” doesn’t cut it in here, or in real life.
Ahhh yes, im sooo
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$$ typing in an anonynomous forum under a moniker. Lol?
Yes, posts may be viewed as offensive to some, but thats subjective. Alot of snowflakes here too. Love to defend ML/FL and get butthurt when someone critiques their lifestyle. As an old timer you should know.
Either way i dont care. Ofc i wont talk like this in real life. Why invite unnecessary trouble? But this is an anonymous sex forum with a high concentration of motherfuckers. Dont compare apples with oranges.
Also, you make it seem like offending others is a bad thing to be avoided. Donald trump offended half the population and still ended up becoming the president. Jesus spoke the truth, offended the powers that be, got nailed to the cross and ended up starting one of the world’s biggest religion.
From the way you type, its very obvious that you’re a people-pleaser, always telling people what they want to hear and constantly walking on eggshells. Man the fuck up and stop acting like a low testosterone pussy. Your internet points doesnt matter at all. What for keep on circle-jerking others so that others can increase your points? Your points can increase your quality of life?