My last day here-This is my story. AMA


    Chapter #141

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    Originally Posted by

    catlord

    Well in that price range you can only get video calls I guess. And if you can’t afford to pay more, I guess therapy over zoom is better than nothing. It’s not like talking over text, it’s still a real time face to face conversation. You can try for 1 session, if you don’t feel the person is suitable you can change person. Sometimes it takes a few tries to get a person that you feel is good for you, even in the more expensive prices ranges. I only had experience with therapy many years ago, but that was with a very high end therapist who charged me almost $300/hour back then. I’d hate to see what she charges now.

    Btw stop the tongkat ali or any other testosterone supplements. Why the heck are you taking it anw? At 24 you should have zero need for extra test. You’re already producing the highest amount of test you’re ever gonna produce in your life, any boost to it is just gonna make you too horny and aggressive to the point of being stupid.

    Huh what trouble

    - Hi just a quick update. Manage to find a christian counselling service that charges $100-$150 per hour. I will be following up on this. Also tried to sign up for the SLAA weekly meetings(basically alcoholic anonymous for sex addicts) but so far no replies. Btw, what therapy did you go for, for what purpose, and how effective was it? Maybe you can share so i can manage my expectations and not give it up if I dont see immediate results.

    - About testosterone, this is actually a misconception. You see, the average male(not on anabolic steroids) testosterone fluctuates within a band of 300-1000 ng/dL. For an average person, his testosterone levels will never hit the upper band( unless he is an elite athlete with high muscle mass). Therefore the goal of these supplements is to help me optimize my hormone levels and reach the upper band in a natural healthy way without fucking over my body(such as anabolic steroids). In fact, I highly recommend you to get your levels checked.

    Who knows, maybe by increasing your test levels by another 20%, your quality of life will increase.

    -“Huh what trouble” - PM-ed you.

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    Chapter #142

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    Originally Posted by

    sbwow

    Good job. You wrote a better post than most OKT.

    If you have openly shared contacts with everyone, that would have increased your likeability.

    Who knows OKT might even give you a discount next time. Just like some Influencer.

    I actually wrote a review for the girl. It should be fairly obvious that I(and only possibly I) wrote it given my unique style & flair of the English language.

    Good luck finding my review bro.

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    Chapter #143

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    Originally Posted by

    Penfolds

    Me think TS has a small tiny lust problem but over thinking it into a major life crisis.

    When you go on a four day sex rampage and raw FLs even with prior std scares, it is no longer a “small tiny lust problem”. Fucking zounderkite.

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    Chapter #144

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    Originally Posted by

    sadsea

    U really need help. One hand want to quit and create AMA thread and one hand go fuck FL (raw some more) and wrote a horneyous FR….😅. U kind of suffer mental disorder. Stay away from process food include protein supplements and any so call supplement

    Yes I have a mental disorder for sure.

    Btw i see ur post history u like lady boy and ah gua? Wtf bro….

    You also need help lol

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    Chapter #145

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    Originally Posted by

    sadsea

    Yes I definitely need help, most of the time self help. But your thread seen to be messy just like your disorder. U have to quicky seek help especially u play raw.

    How come u like ladyboy? No offence but that is fucking disgusting….

    I dont believe any normal male can like a ladyboy due to “sexual preference”….

    Personally i think must be quite sick in the head ….

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    Chapter #146

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    Originally Posted by

    timeliness

    I think this is what turns people off, especially when there are sincere bros who try to help by sharing our own experiences.

    For the first and last time, stop judging people’s preferences. One man’s meat can be another man’s poison. Who the fuck are you to say that it’s low SES, loser mentality and disgusting?

    What seems to be sick to you can be a fetish to another bro. At the rate that you’re going downhill by giving in to your uncontrollable lust, I fear for you when stepping out into the society to work. We have our other priorities to balance (work, bf/husband duties, etc) and need a release through finding MLs/FLs. Sharing is caring here, not to be judged for one’s preference.

    We can only try to help you so much but it will not work unless you actually try to help yourself.

    Like I said, no offence. I already say it is a personal opinion.

    This is the way I write. 0 filter, 0 bullshit. Some will get offended and thats fine by me.

    Some of my views are very polarising, but it is what it is. In fact, the best way to get engagement/start the ball rolling is to have polarising views of both spectrum, not some middle-ground politically correct bullshit.

    Yes, ladyboy may be a preference to some. And I find it disgusting. Thats my honest brutal opinion. So you want me to lie and tell him “well done bro”? Sorry, but this thread is meant for raw brutal honesty. Thats the way I have kept it since day 1. I have no interest in making everybody happy here by telling them what they want to hear.

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    Chapter #147

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    Originally Posted by

    timeliness

    That’s why I had to use rather strong language and hope it gets into him. If he still remains so shallow minded then nothing will ever help him.

    Alas, this is the product of our own education system through rote learning, where everything is just a yes or not without any in between.

    For the record though, I don’t have any preference for ladyboy, transvestite, or FTM or any other terms used to describe them.

    What opened my mind back then was having a friend come out of the closet, and I realised there’s more than just heterosexual relationships.

    Dont confuse shallow-mindedness with having a personal conviction and sticking to it.

    You remind of an example in the West. People try to push the transgender agenda and try to normalize it. For instance, propogating that trans is normal in the education system.

    Opponents of it then get gaslighted by the pro-trans community and gets shamed as being “bigots”& “shallow-minded”, when in fact, they are simply defending their own personal opinion.

    I will say it again - Transgender/ladyboy is fucking disgusting. Call me shallow-minded, but thats my personal opinion and conviction. If you are offended by this statement, then so be it. But then again, who the fuck are you to impose on my freedom of speech and dictate what I can, or cannot say? Are you not perhaps being the bigot now?

    Let me just clarify once and for all. I DO NOT claim to be an omniscient being or the sole arbiter of truth in the universe. I am a mere mortal with my own opinions, and I will not bend the knee to make everybody happy.

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    Chapter #148

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    Originally Posted by

    timeliness

    Then stick to your conviction of quitting the scene and not let your lust take over you. Period.

    Thats exactly what im trying to do. You think every single drug addict dw to quit? This is why im seeking professional help, because conviction is not enough to defeat this fucking affliction.

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    Chapter #149

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    Originally Posted by

    syncrossed

    You dont get it.

    You make it sound like you are some maverick who is being persecuted or suppressed for their views without understanding the position you are in.

    This is a sex forum where we have the freedom to explore and engage in all kinds of deviant desires. Of course we know they are disgusting, taboo in the eyes of society. But we still want to do it, and I think most of us accept it as part of being human and move on. And this common understanding may be why you dont see much debate over the acceptability of various fetishes, whether it is right to upskirt women, screw maids etc etc (beyond the occasional guai lan clowns). Even if we dont share such fetishes, we dont judge others, and go about our own pursuits.

    Then you come in and say you have a sex addiction, and are trying to move on and present your thesis on the morality of commercial sex and your personal struggles. That is all fine, though unorthodox as far as sbf threads go.

    It already seems hypocritical and trollish when you share your sextisfying FR when such information is considered currency here. But then to express moral judgements on the preferences of other members just goes against the unspoken etiquette/ “common sense” of this forum, which may explain why your attitude is very off-putting to the people who bother engaging you.

    It is as if a legal assistant thinks he knows better than a supreme court judge and keeps on arguing, framing it as a matter of being no-bullshit, and brutally honest.

    Have some self-awareness and think through the implications of what you are going to express. Yes, this is an unregulated online sex forum full of twisted motherfuckers, and no one cares. But if you persist with such an egoistic attitude, it will definitely bit you hard when you enter the working world.

    No need for semantics. You talk alot without really saying anything.

    The crux of the issue is very simple. You think that my ladyboy comment goes against the etiquette of the community. You are right. But I don’t give a fuck. I never claimed to be a gentleman. Sure, I broke the etiquette. But like you aptly said, why does etiquette matter in an anonymous sex forum with some of the most depraved motherfuckers in it?

    You can call me rude and insensitive. But to call me narrow-minded is an inaccuracy.

    Also, your arguments have many glaring flaws.

    “Acceptability of various fetishes” - Upskirting is a crime, doesnt matter if it is a fetish. Its like condoning members who participate in rape.

    “Moral judgements” - No moral judgements were made. I said ladyboys/trans were disgusting, but not on the premise of morality.

    “Legal assistant vs supreme court” - This is a poor example. In this example, there is an objective truth to it. In my example, it is simply subjective opinion.

    “Bit you hard when you enter the working world” - You already pointed out that this is an anonymous sex forum, yet you make the assumption that my behaviour will be similar in the real world. This is like comparing apples and oranges.

    I honestly dont give a fuck about having an intellectual debate on SBF of all places. In fact, all of the above is irrelevant to the crux of the issue. But since you enjoy typing out pseudo-intellectual replies, I thought i might point these errors out for you. Think of it as a favour for supporting my thread lol

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    Chapter #150

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    Originally Posted by

    xels

    i’d just click on the ignore user button if i were you. take it easy man.

    personally, i quite enjoy his more recent posts about the downward spiral of his life.

    looking forward to watching him further fuck over his life, sanity and relationships.

    Stay tuned

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