Epilogue - 22 Dec
Wooo! No more stressed out christmas.
Christmas services actually always had awesome atmosphere.
Just that we never got to fully enjoy due to the “bring in converts” stress all the time.
That was gone this year. Finally, we could fully savour the vibe.
But, all happy stories have to end. Heard that one before?
Yeah it’s cliched. That’s coz, it HAPPENS ALL THE TIME.
That December was our first & last christmas together.
Chilling out in Rach’s room a couple of days before christmas service:
R: “X. It’s time”
X: “Hmm?”
R: “I’m leaving”
X: “Why, CMJL pissed you off that much?”
R: “No, I’m leaving”
R: “Parents decided to migrate.”
My heart sank.
She saw that on my face
R: “I know.”
R: “I’ll miss you…so much ok?” she started tearing up mid sentence
X: “Fuck. Fuck.Fuck.Fuck. FUCK!!!!!!” I banged her wall with the side of my fist
R: “I’ll alawys be with you. Update me about stuff over here. I’ll lend my opinions as much as I can”
I didn’t cry strangely. But was really emotional.
R: “You’ve grown alot X, think you’re ready to stand on your own two feet”
X: “I know, but it’s different without you around”
R: “You’re not the only one that’s gonna be affected.”
X: “Well you don’t sound too bothered about this” my frustration started to show
R: “you’re not fucking crying either are you??” she started to raise her voice too
X: “Sorry zeh..” the rising tension diffused immediately
X: “Guess we both express ourselves differently”
R: “Yeah…” we hugged
R: “We’re not the only ones that’s gonna be affected”
X: “The girls. Rach I can’t take care of them by myself”
R: “X, whatever you say. Whatever I say….we say
That’s not going to change anything. I am leaving.”
X: “When?”
R: “By New year”
X: “WHAT THE FUCK RACH”
X: “YOU WAITED TILL NOW TO TELL ME?”
R: “X calm it. Calm the fuck down.”
X: “HOW YOU EXPECT ME TO CALM, THAT’S FUCKING NEXT WEEK”
I sighed heavily, shaking my head.
X: “You knew early on already right? That night Faith’s chalet you kept asking me weird questions”
R: “No. I really didn’t know then. Honest. But the possibility of this was always there”
R: “We’ve had to endure some difficult lessons so far in life
This is the last & most difficult one we have to go through”
R: “But at least, I’d get to go through it with you”
X: “What you mean? How to go through together when you’re gone”
R: “That’s exactly what i meant”
R: “Learning to let go, together.”
R: “And don’t give me that ‘I can’t do this without you crap’
I’d lose my respect for you. I know you have it in you.”
X: “Fair enough”
R: “Let’s not meet tomorrow, just to get a feel of what it’d be like.
See how we react”
X: “Alright.”
R: “We’d meet back the next day. There’s something I wanna discuss with you”
X: “What?”
R: “We’d talk then”
X: “Ok”
Epilogue - 23 Dec
It was a very tough next day. What Rach said kept playing back in my head.
I sat the whole day just reflecting & thinking. Some how, something clicked.
I found that strength Rach was talking about. The strength to let go.
Epilogue - 24 Dec
R: “how i wish we had at least one more xmas together”
X: “you could, come back next year right?”
R: “X, if i’m going to start a new life somewhere, I’d have to leave this all behind.
It burns my heart to death to say this,” she teared up again
R: “But that includes you.”
R: “i’ll always be here through text ok? that’s the best I can leave you with”
X: “ming bai”
R: “Well did you find it?”
X: “what?”
R: “How to let go”
X: “yeah. You?”
R: “I’m working on it. I have to find it no matter how”
X: “what did you want to discuss?”
R: “i’ve always wanted to do it in on xmas.”
I nodded.
X: “will we get to countdown together too?”
R: “Will be spending NYE with my parents”
R: “so tomorrow, after service, we settle the girls, then we come back here yeah?”
X: “Sure.”
Epilogue - 25 Dec
After the breathtaking xmas service, had dinner with the group, then excused ourselves
Back in her room, Rach put on christmas songs on her laptop, christmas lights video playing on her screen
R: “Remember, happy happy happy. No sadness ok?” her voice started to crack
X: “Rach…you could barely finish that sentence”
R: “I’m trying la cibai!”
X: “AHAHAHAHAHAH”
X: “Damn funny!!! never heard you say that word before”
She laughed out too.
With the whole mood, lights, music set, Rach went to the desk.
Opened her drawer, then sat back down on her bed.
I know her pattern, so went to check out the drawer.
What she up to?
Epilogue - 25 Dec (cont.)
What she up to? What designer condoms she prepared for this special night? Did she get a sex toy?
I searched around, found a silver rectangle thingy, reminded me of panadol at first.
I realized what it was.
OMG! Well ok. I guess. Yeah let’s do that then. It’s our last anyway.
I turned my head back at her.
She just nodded.
I nodded back.
We made love, deep, hard & raw. Such difference a piece of thin rubber could make.
We got to feel the full sensation of what being inside truly felt like.
Funny how our last sex was very similar to our very first one. With much tears, emotion & without cap.
Finally, I got to feel the “HD, unblurred” feeling of what pussy actually feels like.
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Holding her close, I pushed myself deep inside her.
Lifting my butt just slightly off the bed, then sitting back down.
She reciprocated by pushing herself up, using my shoulders as support.
That was how we pumped each other in that position.
Both controlling the pushing in & pulling out, pouring our passion into each other
Her warm juicy flesh engulfing my cock, massaging & gripping it up & down, up & down.
We went faster & faster.
The deepest sensation. Our bodies pressed hard into each other.
Just kept fucking & fucking.
When I knew I was close,
I buried my face into her neck & chest areas. Kept kissing & licking.
X: “zehhhhhh”
R: “X…….”
We called each other
I tried to hold in the best i could, to savour every minute of this feeling
But i knew i’ve gone beyond the point of no return
X: ‘ohhhhhh fuckkkkkkkkk" I could feel thick spurts forcefully erupting out from my dick hole
mixing with her juices & then lathering back onto my cock again as she continued riding while i came.
Cumming inside her while feeling her bareness on the skin of my cock, that’s a totally totally different world.
We stayed in this position after cumming
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continued licking each other’s tongues & mouths.
I got hard again. She pushed me down & lay ontop of me
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Then slid herself onto me.
She was writhing ontop, fucking herself with my dick.
I was stroking her smooth thighs from the knees all the way up reaching to her butt, then back down again.
Feeling her curves, from her waist all the way up to her armpit, then abit of her arms,
then retracing back down to her waist again.
I repeated this many times.
R: “Feels so good to know you like my body so much”
X: “you’re so sexy Rach”
After some sliding in & out, she lay her whole body onto me
Could feel her stomach on mine, her boobs pressed against my chest.
Our faces met & we started deep frenching.
She hugged my head. I held her butts with both my hands, started to take over the thrusting from below.
Our moans were muffled into each other’s mouths as we continuted to french like there was no tomorrow.
She came first, but, feeling her juices wet onto my cock, her contracting pussy & body jerking ontop of me
I also started to shoot out my 2nd round of cum into her.
She stayed lying ontop me, just resting.
X: “This time last last year, i was also laying on the bed. In tears. Hurting from Adelyn.”
X: “now here i am”
R: “yeah. sometimes you lose, sometimes you win.”
I stroked her body.
X: “this year, i won”
R: “me too”
X: “But sadly, I lost again.”
R: “gotta to let go, X” she played & danced her fingers on my chest
X: “yeah…”
R: “Well, we’re almost at the end. One last night sleeping & one last morning waking up with you”
X: “yep..” i acknowledged
I shifted her body abit towards the side, getting ready to sleep.
R: “X..”
X: “Yeah?”
R: “One more?”
X: “Alright”
I was soft by then. We went to toilet to clean up abit.
Back in room, she started to lick my chest, then downwards to my stomach
then downwards more…
We gave each other oral, worked our bodies back up to arousal
I pounded her in missionary at the center of her bed, with her head on the pillow, kissing & licking her neck.
She was squirming & moaning, grabbing her sheets, her pillow, my arms, my shoulders
Her legs then grabbed my torso, locking me in
I gave my all that last round, every thrust as deep as possible, hard & filled with passion
She wrapped herself hard around me, & for the last time, I exploded inside her.
Don’t remember pulling out. We simply cuddled under her blankets & then fell asleep after that.
Goodbye, Rachel - 26 Dec
Came morning. We decided end the chapter there. No point to mope around.
Planned not to do any more goodbye sex when next week comes. you had to stopped somewhere.
we figured a cool off, to get used to not being in physical contact.
R: “Don’t send me off. I will not want to leave”
R: “Don’t even come anywhere near changi”
X: “I’m afraid Faith & Co won’t allow that”
R: “I’ll talk to them”
At her doorstep, we spoke less & less.
R: “See, no tears. That’s an excellent start”
R: “Still text me ok”
X: “For sure”
X: “This is it then?”
R: “Yep.”
I let out a light smile. So did she.
Goodbye, Rachel.