Yo Bro Rangers….I can only offer you my heartfelt sympathy
for being such a gentleman and so good to your dearest departed lady
I was hopeful until the end that there could be just an iota of ray
…of hope that perhaps she might pull through and she’d be okay
now your precious is gone while my sick PRC lover does not seem too strong
a liver failing sufferer, I can sense the helplessness
as she tries to cope with her illness
Sadly, as I watch her slowly and excruciatingly wither away
a miracle I seek and I pray
for her recovery…and her will to want to live nd love again for one more day!
Heaven knows how hard I try till my finances run dry
bcos it’s a bonus just to hear her voice and know that she’s still alive…
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Originally Posted by
dirtyhairy
Yo Bro Rangers….I can only offer you my heartfelt sympathy
for being such a gentleman and so good to your dearest departed lady
I was hopeful until the end that there could be just an iota of ray
…of hope that perhaps she might pull through and she’d be okay
now your precious is gone while my sick PRC lover does not seem too strong
a liver failing sufferer, I can sense the helplessness
as she tries to cope with her illness
Sadly, as I watch her slowly and excruciatingly wither away
a miracle I seek and I pray
for her recovery…and her will to want to live nd love again for one more day!
Heaven knows how hard I try till my finances run dry
bcos it’s a bonus just to hear her voice and know that she’s still alive…
bro… i can understand how u feel… it takes alot of strength and courage to love a person with no conditions.. we have to be strong in order to help our loved ones… God bless….
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Originally Posted by
kruiser_2008
Bro ranger, I dun dare to claim to understand the dept of your sorrow. But a dear friend of mine has just passed on a month ago, and at least I understand what you are going through right now…
Time actually does not heal everything, all it does is to numb down the pain and anger and sorrow, make it so distant and tiny that one is able to go on with life at all… You must try to continue living your life the way you wanted it to be, if not for your own sake then for her sake.
And lastly, give yourself a chance to find your partner in life eventually. A good man like you has room in his heart for more than one love. Your GF would have wanted you to find your own happiness as well.
Hang in there bro! It’s hard but I believe you can pull through eventually. We are all in here for you.
kruiser_2008
Thanks bro… once everything has been cleared… yup i will need to move on with life…
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Originally Posted by
bringiton
Bro, my deepest condolence. Life is cruel at times, its not always that we can find someone who we deem as a life companion. And when you find that special someone, you never know how will it end up to be. Its very very big hearted of you in this case. I salute your spirit and hope all goes well for you after all these. Take time off to let your emotions recollect and don’t let the past drag you down.
She has left behind alot of beauitful memories.. which i will never forget in my life…
Bros.. sorry for nt posting as i am outstationed..
Part 9:
Till that moment.. when the body was put in the icy cold coffin.. i slowly
accept the cruel fact that she is already gone.. Memories flood my mind as
i stared at the coffin… Although i am tired… but i just cant seem to fall asleep… During the second day of the Wake… i received a phone call from my collague…
Shirleen: r u k?..
Me: k… what is up?..
Shirleen: Where is the Wake held?.. can i attend it?..
Me: Sure.. address given..
Shirleen: c u later..
I am totally exhausted by then.. drained out both emotionally and physically… At abt evening.. Shirleen arrived… u aged a alot is the first comment that she commented… After paying her respects.. i attended to her with drinks…
Shirleen: u look worn out… did u managed to get some sleep last nite?..
Me: Nope.. the moment i closed my eyes… i think of her…
Shirleen: u have to stay strong… cos i heard that u will be outstationed soon..
Me:K.. i will be fine..
All along i realised that shirleen was looking at me in a very funny way…
Shirleen: Let find a place to tok..
Me: k then..
Slowly.. we went to the park nearby.. All along we were quite quiet.. For me.. i am too upset to tok much… and she was quite used to my quiet ways already..( We have been collagues and friends for the past 2 years plus)
Finally she broke the silence…
Shirleen: Will u forget her eventually and move on with yr life?..
Me: Y did u ask me this question?..
Shirleen:Just ans me..
Me: In terms of my career.. i will have to move on… if it is abt relationships…
i dunno…
Shirleen: She is already gone… There is no need for me to waste further time on her..
Me:I know… but she still lived in my heart……
There was long pause after that… nobody of us uttered a single word and i sent her to the bus stop…
To be continued..
Part 10:
The 3 days of Wake is finally over and i resumed my work on my forth day…
The working trip was confirmed by my mangaer and i will be leaving soon for Shanghai within 4 days… Proposals were prepared and i am glad that my job was taking off some of my attention away from my ex..
Shirleen: nt knocking off yet…
Me: nt so soon.. i am giving a final touch of my work..
Shirleen: let me help u then with the sorting out of the documents then..
Me: K thanks a lot..
Soon.. the work was finished.. and we left for dinner together…
Shirleen: Have u been thinking over the question that i have asked..
Me: Nope… just let nature take it course..
Shirleen:U shd know my feelings for u rite now….
I am shocked at that moment.. nt expecting this kind of response from her…
Me: Ah… i am comfortable with as a collague and friend…
Shirleen: is that all?..
Me: No woman will accept the fact that i loved my ex so much…
Shirleen: Y r u always so sturbbon when it comes to feelings…. anyway i know the facts…
Me: Nope.. cant commit now.. too many things on my mind…
The dinner itself is gloomy as i dunno how to cope with this sudden situation…
To be continued…
Part 11:
It is impossible between us… i told her before i went to Shanghai… I would
rather told u the truth then to keep u waiting… Having said that.. i hung up
the phone and leave for the airport… I am carrying too much emotional burdens myself and is nt ready to commit myself to another relationship unless she is someone i truly love… But commiting for the sake for the sake of commiting is another issue together… Though my bro always advise me to have another gf… it will help me to forget my ex but i dun agreed with him…
She is nt an subsitute… i will replied…
The nite view of Shanghai is indeed very beauitful and i really wished that my ex is with me rite now… Looking at her photo only increase my longing and angony… I kept her photos and resumed with my work…
Jason: Guys.. r u ready to check out the niteclubs later… Our first nite in Shanghai… and CO nt around… Mai tu liao…
Me: Count me out… Enjoy yrselfs..
The rest left… i am alone to myself.. numbing myself with work… Work seem to be the only antidote to my suffering now.. Received a msn from shirleen and i quickly block her away…
To be continued…
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Originally Posted by
wingcross
I think TS will be emotinally attached for awhile.
I think I will as well especially before her death, she ask for the ring to be put into her finger.
Yup… u r rite… up to today… the ring is still on my finger… Guess that i can will remove it once i have found that special someone… if nt… it will always be on my finger…
Part 12:
The few days in Shanghai is packed with meetings and discussions.. At nite.. still have to entertain those Shanghainess Clients… Niteclubs was visited almost every nite… but everytime i would decline getting any girls for company…
Jason: Bro.. for Goodness sake.. do get yrself a girl… surely u r nt a monk rite…
Bro: Nope… i dun have the mood… u guys go ahead…
Frankly speaking… after the departure of my ex… i really dun have the mood for bonking… at times.. i would wonder whelter i am still a man… but i know
it is normal… after all… who would still have the mood to bonk at this moment of time?.. Most of the times… i would choose to drown my sorrow…
The working trip soon ended and i look forward to going back to Spore again…Guess who i saw when i reached Spore… Yes.. Shirleen was waiting for me at the airport…
Shirleen: r u k?..
Me: yup..
Shirleen: r u avoiding me?..
Me: Nope… but i still want to remain as friends with u.. that is all…
The two of us shared a cab together… The journey to my office seem to be very long… Again… we kept quiet and dun dun tok much on the journey..
Me: u should nt have wasted time in coming to the airport…
Shirleen: i am worried abt u and i miss u…
Quickily i turned my face away from her when she said that… Back to the office.. handed in my stuff and headed off straight to home for a rest…All the recent events have worned me out already….
I was having my nap when i received a phone call from Shirleen again…. Oh no.. i debated with myself whelter i shd ans the call or nt… Finally i decided to ans it and expain things clearly to her once and for all though i am nt gd at expressing my feelings…
Me: Hello
Shirleen: r u sleeping.. can tok now?..
Me: Sure cos i need to tok to u too…
Shirleen: y r u still wearing the ring?..
Me: Cos though she is gone.. she still lived in my heart…
Shirleen: Cant u just forget her and move on with yr life.?!!!…
Me: Nt till i have found that special someone… but that someone is nt u…
Shirleen:Y?… didnt we get along well?..
Me: I am comfortable with u as a friend and a collague… but other than that… i have no special feelings for u….
She paused for a moment… and i paused too..
Shirleen: is that all u want to tell me?..
Me: u r still young and pretty… there r better guys who would love and pamper u…
Shirleen: Most men are flirts…
Me: nt all of them…
Shirleen: At least u r nt… i feel secure whenever i am out with u… u r nt those kind of creepy guys… and u r a very sentimental person…
Me: Thanks… but i dun feel anything for u….. let remain as friends…K?…
Shirleen: She is crying…
Me: Sorry…
With that we ended the phone call… and i cant sleep well after that… Sigh how to face her again at the office 2mr?.. We r in the same department…
Bro, you have touched me with yr stories. At least you got to accompany her for a period… u should feel comforted. Me and my brother are not as fortunate. Anyway, it’s tough ahead but let’s stay strong.