Anyi seeing me change into muscle tee: you are rather tone for your age.
Me: poor people need to be tone. I cannot afford to be fat.
Inside the warehouse its humid and messy so i followed anyi instruction to count the area required she had chsnged into a white t short with her hair tied up in pony tail.
I recalled its not easy as the stock are either bulky or expensive and fragile.
Finally i counted my stock snd i went to anyi direction she was squatting and counting inwards direction.
I saw her butt crack as her jeans kinds slipped down till to the motion. It was tone and fair her butt meat. Our eyes met for that moment.
After the stock take we went for dinner.
Anyi: you must work out alot in your free time.
Me: no i tried to work out daily but its not intense i do 20 percent of my max rep per set to keep my muscle fresh. Its called grease the groove method.
Anyi: interesting.
Me: in singapore we need to go army when i was a recruit i was in this island twice for recruit as first time i failed my fitness test. I recalled my officer is a special force officer he believed breaking down the body and muscle will grow back stronger but i was always exhausted.
My second time in that island my instructor was an avid gsp and nate diaz fan. He believed in staying fresh so i adopted this method.
Anyi: you like what you saw just now
Me: not really the warehouse arrangement was messy and dusty.
Anyi laughed: you know what i am talking about. See now even you refused to make eye contact with me. No wonder yam said you are shy.
This is a misconception about me since the age from 13 to 16 in my sec school i learnt the coldness of women towards me. Whenever i tried to communicate with woman i will be faced with stares of disgust as i was heavily obese n oily skin in sec. Since then i rather not be in contact with women unless required. In a nutshell i am not shy instead i am just tired of engaging their stare. I am aware of blackpill even before its been classified.
I stared at anyi her hair are starting to grow long enough for a short ponytail.
Her soft yet delicate features being compacted in an almond shape jaw did send a flutter to my heart.
I knew its pointless to argue i just stared at her and faked a smile. Towards women i am always wary.
Anyi: you knew yam did send me your profile so i roughly knew about you and your studies. You seem awkardly quiet.
Me: there are two sides to everything. The front side and your beautiful backside.
I told myself just screw it you want me talk nonsense i am born to be nonsense.
Anyi laughed: i thought you are a wood log.
I shrug my shoulder the previous places i work in i need to be flexible to survive. I can talk rot but i dun insult ppl you do have a lovely shape
I excused myself to the gents. Forvthe entire kl stint i was wearing 1 ajarn fon rian for ren yuan metta. 1 lp jai lukatat takrut for safety and 1 wood takrut for maha seneh. The wood is made of mai cun wood or pussy itch wood.
I mutter the katha metta kun nang arahang metta 9 times. This is a general metta for people who wants to be well loved highly recommend by somdej toh and lp poon. Layman can try to recite if they need ren yuan.
Once out of the gents we begin to travel back to office.
Anyi: you got skype. If yes lets skype when u are in singapore. I nodded.
So there it begins every week i will spend 3 days in kl. Things are starting to be stable but my health was going down i was eating 2 meals a day dinner and supper as my hotel is beside a 7 11 everyday i will gorge down drinks nd a box of magnum as it is cheap. By the end of 2 months i put on 4 kg still disguisable by my height. I was a train wrecked due to the stress of juggling local and kl work.
One day in kl i was smoking with ong.
Ong was perhaps the only positive intake in this job. Never once did i saw he get worked out at staff. He was always cheerful patient and enjoy talking cock virtues which are rare in this days.
Ong looked at me: you putting on weight?
Me: yes food here are cheap.
Ong: you need to take care of health. This company wont care much of your well being. Hows life in main office.
Me: ok scandalpolitics you know. Jin lian and ken trying to slack and pushing their things.
Ong facial expression took to a stern stare: you know jin lian was supposed to be here instead of you. However our end and herself refused it.
Me: i heard bits and pieces here and there.
Ong giving me a warmth look: just treat it as an experience. Remember woman are always at the finish line waiting for the winners they will never be with you for the process only appearing at the outcome.
One friday night back in singapore i was accompanying sue back to her car after another spinster session with my sis.
Me: do you ever get tired of listening to my sister belittling men.
Sue: nope at our age long time friendship is a rarity talking to her and seeing you reminds me of my secondary school days the happiest time of my life. Did you get fat?
I shrugged: ya part of the struggle to make a living.
Sue was dressed in her causual friday blouse. She was always sophiscated she knew she had the lean tone body with a b cupper in tan skin. Simplicity is her dress code throughout with her womanly scent throughout my life i never seen a woman as gentle and womanly as her.
Me: growing up is a struggle. When i was in secondary school receiving daily beatings from gang member i thought how nice if it was to grow up. Now in my mid 30s working life is a chore.
Sue: it must been a toture since young till now as i understand your work life is seldom smooth.
Me: fear is a feeling thats been with me since young going to bed each night wishing the next day never came till just wishing i die in my sleep. Somehow fear became my friend. It was always there never forsaking me haha.
Sue looked at me with big sister sympathic look and squeezed my hand tightly no words was spoken and no words was needed
Before i started continuing. I will like to share an incident. Never believed woman words only trust her actions.
I am working in a place that serve shn person. We have to deliver food to the person door steps and knock the door.
There is a group of woman that says they will deliver to doorstep once they had their vaccine but after they had vaccine they still refused to deliver. Now they just pretend nothing happen.
The person that do the delivery are elderly man including me who cannot take the vaccine due to drug allergy.
Cold hard truths
That weekend night i was seated in my room after completing my percentage of completion for the project. Tired i sat on my chair looking at my fat rolls 80kg from 72 kg. What have i done.
Tears started to form in my eyes as when you are fat you feel lethagic and restless. I was in a bad place at a bad shape. My whole life till now i only had 3 loyal friends fear loneliness and hunger. They will always appear at the same timing never forsaking me. I had betrayed hunger by gorging on food.
As i was thinking of ways to mend the friendship my skype had a response. It was anyi .
Anyi: hi you still awake at 2 am.
Me: yes rushing work.
Anyi: let me see your room switch on webcam.
I proceed to switch on.
Anyi: your room is messy no aircon but i saw a chinup bar. Care to do it.
I proceed to my bar and for once i did my max of 20 chinup i only do my max once a month to ensure the standard is there while trying to keep my muscle relax for the rest
Of days.
Anyi: not bad.
I looked at anyi she had cut her hair short in shoulder length. She was wearing a purple lingerie like material with a blsck bra underneath.
Anyi: what are you staring at.
Me: nothing purple goes well with black.
Anyi: ya right you want see more?
Me: always ready for it.
With that anyi started to bite her lips while using her finger to pry down the purple slick material revealing a black bra. Time froze for me i remember my eyes being captivates by her beauty goosebumps form in my skin.
My expression still remains emotionless only my eyes betrayed my inner demons.
Anyi seem to be enjoying this while suddenly she hook up her purple blouse and said thats enough.
I nodded: you are good.
Anyi surprised: you dun seem to be swayed my ex bf will beg me for more.
She seems unwilling to accept it.
Me: i am a religious man i do not get swayed easily but its been a show.
Actual fact is at my age that time i literally given in begging women. I once beg my ex just to show up for me to have one last look at cck mrt but she never showed up despite i waited 4 weekends just to have a one last look. After that nothing really faze me than the coldness i had
Anyi: what religion you practise.
Me: i practise the religion of appreciating beauty and knowing when to stop when beauty itself stops.
I was muttering rubbish as usual as no way will i bring my thai deity into this type of conversation.
Anyi: you know you got a weird sense of humour as well as a pair of dark brooding eyes i often caught you deep in thoughts.
Me: i am just thinking of what color shirt to wear tommorrow.
Anyi: weird guy see you next week.