Whoa, I’ve been gone for quite some time. Hahaha. Sorry bout that.
To firejalan,
I don’t know if I’m very zen? LOL, I just make it a point to try and not bother too much about a lot of things? I can’t exactly explain.
I’m not gonna write/continue my story for a while tho I think it must have been shitty to be cooped up at home in SG. Jiayou ah ~
男人老了也一样会风流?
On one of the rare occasions that I decided to popped into my fb account (its the only way my parents could contact me) I saw quite a few status posts from my father which mostly just hints about how he couldn’t spend time with his ‘secret’ as she is at home with her family due to the confinement etc. If it’s just a friendly relationship, I don’t care but it seems to be….much more than that.
And I still don’t give a flying fuck about it. I don’t wanna know much or even anything about it at all. I logged out immediately. My aunts, uncles and cousins….they chose to close one eye, open one eye. Then again, it’s not the first time this happened, they already did the same thing when my uncle brought his new girlfriend over for CNY a couple years back.
Should I be so…nonchalant about this? I mean like, it’s his life, he can do whatever he wants with it. If my mother decided to really get a divorce, then I’ll naturally support her. She can go back to Thailand, I’ll buy her a house…actually, on second thought I wont, she’s gonna just bequeath it to my brother, so nope. She already gave him the flat and he’s more than old enough to earn his keep.
I’ll mostly just send her money and do what I think I should as a daughter to both my father and her. I don’t think I’ll side with her to blame my father’s behavior. Don’t get me wrong, it sucks to get cheated on, I know but….what do you want me to say? It’s not the first time my father cheated anyway.
I looked at everyone around me, all of them went apeshits when their one of their parents cheated. They got so mad, cutting off ties, rushing over to the third party’s house to beat them up etc and here I am, lazing with a book in hand, looking out into the garden, sighing: “Ah~今天的天气很好.” Hahaha.
Perhaps this is why in every relationship I got into, I always tell the guy “If you want to leave, please tell me so I won’t do unnecessary actions like trying to keep you. I will let you go easily just like that. You want to go, then go.”
No point in trying to keep or even trying to fix the relationship, no one would be happy and I will find him dirty and I’m quite anal about cleanliness. Based on my past experience, I would mostly try to one up the guy and cheat on him also. Equality right? Now….ah ma old liao, cannot keep up with the youngsters. Ah ma also don’t wish to waste time and energy entertaining nonsense.
I don’t know if this is right or even normal to feel this way.
Hi ~ I’m back! Okay, I just came back to post this funny encounter and go back to disappearing again.
How’s the confinement been for all of ya? Mine was alright except my dildo died on me. Online shipping will take ages to come and I would rather go to the store to pick one up. I gotta get a feel of it to see if it would be pleasurable for me and my puss, ya know? Alas, I can’t go out for unnecessary trips and purchases plus I gotta write an online form/application to the authorities on why and where I’m going out for. Imagine if I hand in my application?
Name: Me Exxploit
Address: Somewhere in France
Phone number: +07 1234567890
Reason: My dildo died and I want to get a new one.
Wah, cannot sia. Fucking paiseh. Every store was closed besides the grocery stores anyway. Seems like everyone loves to horde toilet paper ah.
The confinement ended, well, not exactly but we can at least go out again. I went over to my friend’s place, it’s been a while since we met up and there’s so much to catch up on. You know lah, zhabors LOVE to talk and my friend can really talk. I got there, she hand me a glass of wine (She really likes wine, I think she just likes drinking.) she started telling me about her male cousin who’s gay and his relationship drama. Halfway thru, her cousin came over and started describing to me in detail about the drama. I’ll call him…er…Calvin. He’s quite slim, kinda funny but really bitchy.
Well, from what I could understand, he was in a relationship with a plump/fat man who is rather controlling. They shared a small house together where they were supposed to live happily together. NOT. Calvin is an aspiring fashion designer while his ex-boyfriend was a bum, lazing at home doing nothing at all. Calvin brings home the bacon by working part time at the grocery store but his ex wasn’t appreciative of him at all. He controlled Calvin’s life, he couldn’t go out, he couldn’t meet up with friends etc. All he could do was go out to work, come home to do the chores and cook for his ex. The shitty part was that his ex was cheating on Calvin, hooking up with others in their home.
At this point, Calvin was cursing and telling me sarcastically: “I don’t know how he can get people to fuck him. He always want people to fuck his ass but he so fat and ugly! I don’t know why that time I love him!” While my friend was laughing her head off. Calvin started to tell me about how his ex would cheat on him etc etc but one point got me really intrigued. He told me how his ex would, during midnight on the weekends drives to a special carpark where his ex would, I kid you not, get naked, go to the back of the car, leave a door open and stick out his ass for others to come and fuck him.
I was laughing really hard when I heard this. It’s fucking ridiculous. I thought he was just pulling my legs, we were all laughing together and my friend spilled her wine. I asked him about the authenticity of the story. He looked at me and answered seriously: “It’s true, all the gay men go there to hook up/pick up a partner or have sex in the car there.” I looked at my friend to get her validation about it, cause I just somehow can’t believe this. How could there be such thing in this world? Ah, then again, we should never ever underestimate a lusty/horny human gay male.
“It’s true! You want to go see? Everyone here knows about the place.” she asked me and I’m like, fuck yes svp! I really must see this with my own eyes plus I’m curious too. I just can’t imagine a plump white butt sticking out from the side of a car, waiting for any dicks to come stick it inside. I was also concern about hygiene and safety. There are homeless people around and he wouldn’t know who would be entering his ass. Does he not care about STDs?
In Calvin’s words: “He don’t care anything except for people to fuck his asshole.”
Good for the homeless drunkards around then, an asshole, even if it’s a male is still a hole. Free hole, who don’t want?
We left her house close to midnight, the carpark was in front of a Geant supermarket, takes about half an hour drive from my friend’s place. We went in a small car, trying to be as incospicuous as a tarantula on a slice of cake. The Geant supermarket was at a rather ulu spot, there wasn’t any houses around and down the road was a private old folks home (I think must be for the rich, fancy iron gate with really tall fences. It’s a huge chateau.). Sharing the same carpark with Geant is a pharmacy, located right next to it yet it faces the road and is a little bit in front of Geant. We parked in front of the pharmacy instead of heading inwards to where the rendezvous was. On the right wall of the pharmacy was a small condom dispenser. ‘Ah…no wonder they all come here to frisk about.’ I thought to myself.
Calvin pointed out to me the car where his ex was in. I looked and saw two white fleshy moon at the back of the car, left side. “Oh my fucking god, you were right.” I was astonished. There was a few car parked around him, we couldn’t really see what was going on as the street lights are shut off but Calvin told me they were definitely having some fun party in there. We sat in the car, observing the cars coming in and complimenting/poking fun of the men’s appearances when they walked out of the car. I saw quite a few penises.
We saw a few of them loitering around his ex boyfriend’s car until one of the guy unzipped his pants and started humping him. All of us laughed. We stayed for a bit and went home after. Honestly, that was a rather interesting experience that I will never forget. Can say it’s something out of a porn video. Tho it seems like, they don’t really care about safety nor hygiene? For the whole time we’re there, no one came to the condom dispenser, perhaps they brought it themselves but, once the guy finished humping his ex boyfriend’s ass and left, pulling his pants up and drove off, his ex-boyfriend continued to stay in that doggy position, face down ass up. While the next guy just whipped out his dick and went to town with his asshole. Dude, how cock hungry are you? Like bonjour, you not scared of stds? You not scared of aids? Perhaps wine and cheese can cure everything? Hahahahahaha.
I don’t think I’ll be going to that Geant anymore. No hate lah, just that my impression of it will always be fat butt out the car door, his gaping asshole, waiting for the dicks of random toms and jerrys.
There’s a rather scenic river surrounded by hills near where I’m staying at. A lot of people go there to trek and camp. *wink wink* Next time I tell you guys okay? LOL