My good for nothing life


    Chapter #21

    Rachel: DO you still keep all those pictures of me and other colleagues.

    Me: No i delete all.

    Rachel: including picture of us?

    Me: Yes as i hated that place also i never imagined i bumped into you again.

    There was an awkard silence of no answer for close to 2 hours.

    I finally messaged her saying of all the pictures and contacts yours is the hardest to erase but also the ones i must erase as i will always have the urge to message you but i left that place in a sorry state.

    Close to 10 pm later i received a reply from rachel.

    Rachel: ok i forgive you stranger.

    Me: thank you. Did you start walking since 4 plus am. If yes its very dangerous.

    Rachel: ok la i just moved house last month as my sister is in singapore working so we rented a small flat in alexandra area. You still live in lower delta? We can go run in tiong bahru area.

    Me: cool ya lets arrange i uploaded my steps count for that day and said i need to go think of tagline.

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    Chapter #22

    Time passed day by day me and rachel still uploaded the daily step count with me occassionally show her my pic of a workout.

    Tuesaday came for the team building i was scheduled to be in hotel by 640 am heng i live near the hotel. Dress code was shorts and t shirt. Prior to this i had purchase a small metta cream from my dealer.

    Metta cream was a type of cream used to charm people in meetings or nightclub. I never applied it as i was saving for meetings or future job interviews. It was of lanna lineage from a tai yai tribe grandmaster level.

    The dealer mentioned apply on lips for charm and if you are going for the kill in negotiation look at the person and bite your lip. Please do not ask me whether does it work i am saying it for story purposes.

    Thus i apply on my lips. To be honest till now i have absolutely no idea how the treasure hunt works as i am not in the team going for the hunt. My task was to carry a box of clues and prizes while i follow hr instruction to bury the clues at where.

    630 am i reached the hotel was still empty with few guests queing for breakfast. Only the hod and few staffs of each department are in the hunt as the hotel still needs to operate.

    I greeted Ann she was clothed in a pink t shirt and demin shorts and boy are the shorts really short. She greeted me and basically told me to carry the box and follow her later. I asked how about her assistant. Ann mentioned that her assistant will be fliming the hunt thus we must be ahead to bury the clues. We meaning Ann and me only.

    Better don’t waste time liao i think faster bite my lips to activate. Just joking.

    So after a short group briefing we hopped in bus to fort canning.

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    Chapter #23

    Upon reaching fort canning. Ann and me started to go plant the clues with me carrying a large box of clues and prizes.

    I was behind her staring at her butt nearly tripped a few times. She had became tanned since our first meeting. Her butt was still ever so firm and tone which seperates her from the skinny fat girl who only does cardio.

    There are a few times she zaogeng while planting the clues and gifts on the hole i shovel. I catch a quick glimpse of a pink lacy bra with the tits being tucked in neatly showing a bit of her fair cleavage wobbling. Quite a big contrast as compared to her tanned face and limbs.

    A voice in my mind told me its enough she helped you got the job all along i am grateful to ann thus i begin to focus on the muddy patches surrounding.

    At our last check point we just sat at a shady patch waiting for the winning team to claim the prize. We had small talk.

    Ann: its december planning to go on weekend trip?

    Me: No. Still on probation.

    Ann i just came back from turkey last month.

    Me: you like travelling alot?

    Ann begin to depict her travelling destination from your usual places like taiwan japan to egypt and moscow etc.

    Ann: which places have you been to?

    I shuddered as i only been to australia under saf wallaby my family was not wealthy to begin with my dad was an alcoholic who would squander money on booze.

    Since young i never dreamt of travelling abroad even when i started working part time from poly my money was spent on fast food to numb the mocking pain i received.

    I muttered: only australia on an army excerise.

    Ann: oh you dun like travel?

    I managed a weak smile and continue to focus on the shovel i was grasping.

    Ann: you are kinda funny. You seemed so reserved and distant during the daily hotel meeting but i caught you joking to security and front line staffs while i was making my rounds.

    Me: oh it is for work purposes the staff has been here longer than me they know this place the cons and pros.

    I was actually a looney when i am talking to the frontline staff always cracking jokes as since young i hide my feelings as a jolly fat man. Till now i sometimes think i have split personalities.

    Ann: there are several times i am inside the ladies toilet and was cracking at your jokes to the chambermaids when you spoke to them outside the toilets.

    Me: you knew fat people like to joke its been with me since young.

    It may seem absurd but years of daily bullying and mockings has honed my expression to be brooding sad. In fact during the 8 months jobless period i initially had a job as a marketing executive but after 1 week i was let go due to me unable to blend in with the marketing direction - i was sacked.

    I remembered the manager telling me i hired you as during the interview i pity you due to your sad eyes. Thats how ridiculous it was. After that i got a helpdesk part time job.

    Ann: i am sure your gf is always laughing at your jokes.

    Me:: i never been in love before or at least not close to it.

    Ann: oh its ok you are tall and lean now i am sure with your jokes you should make alot of girls laugh and attract them.

    I was thinking of all the mocking and ditching i received and subconciously was in my brooding dark mode. I looked at ann and said: quite the opposite if i really like a girl i be quiet and silent around her as my heart will be beating like mad rather.

    All of a sudden i choked i had bite my lips and tasted the metta cream. It tastes like algae on a metal pole.

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    Chapter #24

    Algae on metal pole. This description may sound weird but to me it was a familar taste. My sec sch era was in those canto ,369 and 18 era. Seniors should know what i am talking about. Daily beating such as daily jabs on ribs with sharp end combs and walloping on basketball court was my memory of sec school.

    I was walloped till i was forced to lick the metal steel rail poles at time.

    Algae on metal poles was a taste that will always be in my memory.

    I knew what i was doing. I bite my lips not to charm her but rather out of inferiority complex. She was young travelled through most countries and held a semi high position for her age not to mention she was the darling of the hotel.

    I just wanted to appear eloquent at least to shield myself.

    Ann: Thats rather surprising comment i wish my boyfriend was a quiet guy at times but he was always chit chatting.

    Me: Guys are better off being talkative than a mute.

    We chatted about gym and workout as we sighted the winning team approaching.

    To me i had become very tired after taking on this position. Daily pitching as well as negotation with chef and various online platform partners had taken a serious toll on me. I started to doubt my ability not sure if i had to begin with. Tommorrow was the pitching event

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    Chapter #25

    Everything was normal during team building. Everyone chipped in to play their role appearing to be excited but we all knew it was just a lame event.

    At the end of the day i uploaded my steps count before bed and it was 45000 plus steps as my average steps was always 15000 steps.

    I watsapp my amulet dealer asking him is the metta cream really for applying on lips and not forehead. He replied yes and showed me picture of his nightclub conquests. He had been my dealer till now close to 10 years and yes i am still applying that cream on important events.

    I received wechat message it was rachel.

    Rachel: wah you ran marathon today why so many steps.

    Me: no la just team building and need to run around .

    Rachel: you free this saturday we can go for a run at alexandra park above abc market.

    Me: oh that hill area ok lo but i need to run back to delta area so i just will run 10 rounds only. Close to 3km.

    To me i just want see rachel c cups bouncing when she ran. I figured she would gave up after 2 rounds of running.

    Thus we agreed on saturday.

    Morning came and i dragged myself to the meeting room. I been in this hotel for 6 weeks. I was rather close to the front office manager due to us from the same polytechnic and same army camp but different time line. He mentioned i was not the first choice for the job but that first choice never came on the first day and i was the back up.

    My confidence level had dropped to an all time low during this week. Thus i pitched and as expected they scrapped the idea and i was given 2 more days.

    As i reach my work desk. My sales director came to me and said they hired a new sales manager and he need him by his side thus i need to move to level 4.

    He said: there is a desk outside the hr room that will be your new desk.

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    Chapter #26

    Thus i packed my stuff and arrived at level 4. The level 4 office layout consists of a hr room and 4 desks outside the hr room.

    The 4 desks are occupied by 3 reservation women there used to be 4 women in reservation team but 1 had just resigned. I was the only male in this office of 5 women 3 from reservation and 2 from hr.

    The 3 reservation ladies are all old ladies in mid 40s fat and bitter was all the impression i had during my 1 year stint there. I greeted them as i entered and walked to my desk. My desk was directly in front of the main door.

    As i was unpacking my stuff ann and her assistant yen came out. They were going for a hotel inspection. Ann was wearing a tight dark blue dress once again showing off her curve. She was a small b cup and her asset in my memories will always be that tight butt. It was ever so toned and shaped one of the firmest i ever touch as well as licked.

    I greeted Ann and yen. Yen was a plump short girl freshly graduated from poly and i guess it is human nature that most superior will never hired a person more attractive.

    Ann: your boss told me you be stationed here today.finally a male in this office.

    I smiled as at this point i sorta gave up hope. My pitching idea had been rejected and i had already had type a resignation letter.

    After Ann and yen left the office. The reservation women spoke to among themselves: mulan today wear so tight going to seduce guys again.

    I thought: oh shit this 3 reservation women are fond of giving people nickname it was common in my previous workplace. In fact later on in months my nickname was called gu niang aka sissy.

    I carried on with my work. Lunchtume came and the 3 reservation women went off in their group. I packed and was going for my daily brisk walk. I saw ann and yen on the way back they had packed lunch.

    Ann: do you want go pack lunch and joined us?

    I politely rejected as town area the food was close to 8 bucks a meal. I was thinking i going jobless soon better stick to one meal a day habit.

    The only perk was working here is i get to go for walk to relieve stress. Finally the day of pitching came i present my idea completely lacking any creative punchline. I had applied my metta cream and bite my lip at critical point- for a simple guy i can only resort to this. Turns out the chef actually accepted the old fashioned idea. I was thinking wah so easy to please you you only want old fashioned tagline.

    Anyway xame saturday for my run with rachel.

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    Chapter #27

    Its was 630pm i had changed into my running gear and we had agreed to meet at abc market. Thus i brisk walk for 20 minutes from delta to abc market. Those seniors who chiong at the hill spa should know which park i am refering. Now the park has been cut into halve for a carpark those days it was the fullpark of 300m a round.

    I was no stranger to that park as my primary school was there and few months earlier i was running with a singapore polytechnic girl whom i knew from wechat search.

    She wanted to tone up and we became training partners which led to wechat cam striptease and pictures and eventually i got few bj at her room when she was alone. However she blocked me after 2 months but i had my fill.

    I reached abc market and rachel was wearing an oversize garfield t shirt with running shorts and shoes. I thought thats a weird outfit for run then i focus on her leg. Of all the girls i ever had intimate moment rachel was the fairest in fact she was so fair we always joked that she literally shine in the room with her skin that we do not need to switch on light.

    We proceeded to the park. I told rachel that i be doing 10 rounds of interval running i will warm up 1 round then sprint for 100 m and slow jog for 200 m and continued till my 10th round.

    Me: this is not our park thus its best not to run side by side as the path is narrow and uneven. You can overtake me anytime we just run at our pace.

    Rachel nodded and i believed she did not understand at all about interval run. First round came and i jog slowly for warm up and zoom off she goes at full speed. I looked at her c cup bonucing as she ran past me she was not wearing sport bra and no warm up jog which proved her lack of running experience.

    For me every workout is holy as a former obese man doing sports is something i can only dreamt of. So second round came and i start to sprint n slow jog. I ran few rounds and i realise i did not see rachel finally i spotted rachel at the shelter waving at me.

    As expected i continued till my 10th round and walked up to the shelter. I was in sweat i did not bring any wallet only my handphone for recording steps.

    Me: aiyo you run so fast that i cannot even see you only feel your gush of wind overtaking me.

    Rachel: no la i only ran a round and gave up.

    She chuckled and we proceeded to the chinup bar. I mounted the bar and did 15 chinup. I had injured my shoulders earlier on and was refrained from doing pull up thus my workout now consists of chinup and neutral grip.

    After i did 2 sets rachel mentioned that she wanted to try. As expected she was a zero fighter and drop from the bar after few seconds.

    Rachel: you hold me while i do.

    Me: in army we hold by the waist you really want me to do that? I dont want be accused of molesting.

    Rachel: dun be silly just helped me.

    Thus begin my first intimate skin contact with rachel.

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    Chapter #28

    I hesitated. I do not trust women anynore, rachel looked at me and guided my hands to her waist and said i always wanted to do a pullup but lacked the strength.

    She was meaty close to 60kg at 162 cm but like het height she always said she was 55kg so my equation was to add 5 kg every time a woman revealed their weight.

    My hand was big thus clamping it onto her waist i was feeling the bottom tip of her bra i was getting a massive hardon. Not the best time in open park wearing those saf running shorts.

    After 30 seconds of lifting her up amd down 3 times her grip strength gave up. I anticipated it as a zero fighter myself in bmt days grip strength is the first barrier your palm should be burning and calluses will form.

    She lost her balance and lean onto my body. My sweaty body mixed with her shampoo smell was all i could remember for that few seconds. She felt my hardon and quickly lean off.

    I said joking: no choice i am a guy. That previous mnc company castrated my guts but never castrated my penis so i am still a guy.

    My approach towards girls was if can eat eat lo. Rachel was a good colleague but she was no friend of mine. My only friends in life are loneliness and hunger from fasting. They will always be with on a daily basis.

    If rachel felt offended i figured i just apologised and delete her number. I make it a point not to remember any number as forgetting a number was really difficult. It took me 5 years to forget that woman from my first relation.

    Rachel: no la i just feel awkard in public place.

    We proceeded to stroll for 10 minutes.

    Rachel: are you disappointed with this run as i only run 1 round.

    Me: its not an issue whether i am disappointed anot we all have to start from somewhere only you will know yourself. But i am disappointed with one thing.

    Rachel: what?

    Me: i never get to see you sweat from running. Your sweat must taste sweet.

    Fuck it i thought to myself just eat it.

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    Chapter #29

    Rachel: that’s very disgusting first time you talked so dirty.

    Me: I am a guy too, I have my needs.

    I was staring at Rachel I knew I had crossed the line first there was no coming back I had prepared to delete her number the moment she gave her disapproval.

    Rachel: Don’t you think we should go for movies or dinner etc.

    Me: Those can wait but I need to pee first can we go your home as I not used going to and market toilet.

    Rachel: OK but my sister may be back soon. Rachel had rented a 2 room flat with her sister in those old flats area.

    We walked past the corridor passing a line of flats before reaching her apartment. Once inside she showed me to the toilet. I glanced around her surrounding she was alone.

    I quickly pee and walked out.

    Me: nice cosy flat.

    Rachel passed me a coke zero and we drank it standing up as I did not want to dirty her chair with my sweat.

    Rachel: which level are we supposed to be now. Ex colleagues or friends or more.

    Me: opposite sex can never be friends.

    Rachel: I am not an easy woman but you should know I kinda like you.

    Me: yes I am not an idiot I avoid that as I was fat and we are colleagues. But why me?

    Rachel: I like tall man and you are one of the few that never made fun of my accent.

    Me: oh, I stared at her and moved an inch closer to her. The door was locked. She was just my shoulder height.

    I grabbed her waist and slowly moved her body towards me. I am not worrying about our friendship rather I am worried she will cry rape or molest.

    She did not resist. I slowly put my hand underneath her t shirt feeling her warm skin and her bra strap. I was sensing goosebumps on her skin and my dick was hardening.

    I bend down slowly with my hands moving to her butt and grabbing it tightly while I slowly kiss her lips.

    I was tasting her tongue lashing with my tongue. The mixture of coke zero with our saliva. I was swallowing every gulp of the mixture. It felt so good all the warmth and stickiness of my sweat.

    I looked at her expression her fair skin was flushed. We finally unlocked from our embrace both of our catching a deep breath.

    Me: I will never forget this night.

    Rachel: why?

    Me: finally I get to eat your bird nest saliva.

    Rachel: disgusting.

    I thought to myself I will never forget that moment as that was my first kiss at age 33

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    Chapter #30

    Till then I have never kissed a woman on the lips before. I did go for hj and had a bj buddy prior to this but never did I kiss them as hj was just hj.

    Deep inside I thanked Rachel it felt good to be wanted even for a brief moment. I refrained from showing it in my expression as I will never want to be at mercy of woman again.

    I started to kiss Rachel again while fondling her breast beneath her bra. She was a c cupper.

    Rachel: it hurts dun snap my bra.

    Without hesitation I lifted up her t shirt. My cock harden on the spot as I saw a pair of fair cleavage. She was damn fair on the face but her breast spoke another story.

    I gently pushed her to the nearby wall while licking on the cleavage. Not missing even a single inch of the cleavage I make sure it was stained by my saliva.

    She was wearing a white auntie bra those thick padding. I pull down her bra cup instead of unhooking I always had the fetish of pulling down bra cup to let the breast even more protruding.

    Finally I saw her pair of boobs in front of me. The areola was dark red and so was her nipple. I thought to myself CB wasted never eat her back then.

    Rachel face was a mixed emotions I could not make out . Was she enjoying the moment or worried she will be branded a slut. Her eyes was shut and her breathing was long and soft.

    I just continued to plant my tongue sucking so relentlessly on her fair breast meat while using my tongue to lick her nipple in circular motion before sucking it after sucking for a while I direct her hand to my harden cock.

    I had pulled down my shorts. She took a look at it and grasp it and muttered around 15cm.

    I was kinda embarrassed as it was around there when erected. It was not really long.

    Me: wah why say the length so anti climax.

    Rachel: oh no choice I in charge of procurement for years every goods I need measure the size. Yours is OK for your height better than my ex in kl. Look I can only help you shoot with my hand I am not that easy.

    I muttered fuck it. As I striped off my singlet n shorts fully naked.

    Rachel begin to stroke it while my hand are fondling her fair white tits which wobbled at my every motion.

    She was not good at giving hj as while I was hard I cannot release.

    After 5 minutes she gave up and said her hands are tired and I was so sticky.

    No way am I going to end in this way I thought. I laid down on the floor it was cold sia.

    I signalled Rachel to be by my side while I continue to suck get tits while I was stroking myself. I sucked for a good ten minutes before I released.

    Me: I will wiped the floor later but now I need some toilet paper.

    Rachel giggled she was always gentle even though she was pissed off at the mess.

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