My past my memories.........


    Chapter #51

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    man13utd13

    i realise one thing bro,your spare room is very the useful leh…kekekekeke

    Yah think abt it. What you said is true. But i not only got 1 spare room. I got 2!

    That is the benefit of living alone.

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    Chapter #52

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    ronn80

    Yah think abt it. What you said is true. But i not only got 1 spare room. I got 2!

    That is the benefit of living alone.

    hahahaha…when u wanna lend me one room for such activities? hehehe

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    Chapter #53

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    man13utd13

    hahahaha…when u wanna lend me one room for such activities?

    wow….got this type of activities never jio huh? hehehehe

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    Chapter #54

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    man13utd13

    thanks for your compliments but than dont feel like posting mine anymore due to the emotional roller coaster rides that i have been having while recalling such issues,afterall i am still a human,they are not just fucks of my life but pats of my life where i put in time effort and love to cultivate the relationship

    True about the emotional roller coaster part. I sometimes get it too. But i guess if i use the right mentality to think about it then will not be so bad. I take it as penning down my memories. Bad memories i will just take it as lesson learnt whereas sweet memories are there to spur me on. Really glad i wrote and posted out when happened to me in the past. Really let me release some stress.

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    Chapter #55

    Part 25

    It took me a lot of thinking before I asked J if she was interested in renting a room from me. I could have just offered her the room. But the mistake I made with V made me decide against that. But after some thoughts, I guess that collecting a rental amount would make us still remain as soul mates and also letting me have company in the house. The equation worked out quite fine and I decided on it. And hopefully it would be another mistake again.

    Soon it was already month end. Went over to help J move her stuff over. Had a hard day a she had a lot of things to bring over. All her works and drafting table. It wasn’t late afternoon before we finish moving her stuff. Left her to unpack and I retreated to the bathroom for my well deserved cooling shower. While in the shower I had spent time thinking. Why did I offered to rent J the room? Am I looking for something out of it? Maybe I have gone in too many roller coaster rides for my relationships. And I didn’t want it to end that way again. I have to admit I really enjoy spending time with J but the kind of feeling just isn’t right.

    After my shower, went to see if J needed any help. J had already packed most of her stuff and working on her clothes. Left her to finish unpacking while I lazed on the sofa watching tv and before long I dozed off. When I woke up it was almost dinner time. And I realised that we haven’t even had lunch.

    ‘J. You want to go out for dinner? Just realised that we have not eaten anything since we started moving.’

    ‘Why not we just order something? I am also too tired to go out now.’

    I got up and saw J. I could see that she had already shower and she changed into a pair of hot pants and tshirt.

    ‘Orh. What do you want? I order.’

    ‘Anything is fine with me. You decide.’

    I ordered some pizza and went to see what J has done to her room. I could see that she did a good job tidying up. She even put up some drawings on the wall and I guess those were her works. Well indeed an interior designer. In such a short period of time, she decorated the room nicely. While going out of her room, I caught a glimpse of J. And somehow I felt something missing. And upon a second look at her, I realised that she didn’t wear a bra. I have hear from others who rented their place to prc girls. And they have commented too that the prc girls would often go around the house with little on or without their underwear. And here I am facing one without a bra. My imagination kind of went out of control. But I hide the feeling and quickly went out of the room. Soon the pizza arrived.

    ‘J. Pizza is here. Come out to fill your stomach!’

    ‘Ok coming. Just let me wash my hands.’

    I lived on the top floor. And from my living room there is a staircase leading up to the roof. Kind of like a cheapskate penthouse actually. And there is actually a small area where I placed a garden table. At that time of the day, we could view the sunset.

    ‘Hey J. Up here. We’ll eat here and enjoy the sunset.’

    J was surprised with the roof access. And she even asked if she could have the key so she could come and do her work there sometimes. And little did I expect that something would happen on the rooftop in time to come. We had a wonderful dinner up on the roof and had a god chat. Told J about what I expected of her as a tenant and the usual stuff before we went down. After a long day, I decided to head out for a drink. J was too tired to join me, so I went alone. Didn’t know why I ended up in the pub which I got to know V. I saw V at the pub. And I felt she changed. Even that she look different. Gone are the bubbly looks and cheerful V I once knew. But I guess I cannot help much. Throughout my drink there, she avoided my table and didn’t even reply when I greeted her. But I guess what that has happened and what I did hurt her a lot. But I am happy things stayed that way too. At least in the long run better for the both of us.

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    Chapter #56

    Sorry abt the delay bros. Recently very busy with work asi got many events going on. Will come back with my writings once i clear my workload.

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    Chapter #57

    Part 26

    For a period of time I was really busy with business and even had to go outstation. But I felt safe that J is actually stay at my place. While I was busy at work, I thought of what I saw at the pub that night. The sad look on V’s face. I told myself that I will make sure that I wouldn’t hurt another person like what I did to V. Though many had assured that I didn’t do anything bad to V. I still felt sour deep down in my heart. Time passed very fast when one is busy. And I missed J. Seems like part of me missing when I was away from J. With both of us busy with work, even though when we are staying together under the same roof, we seldom got to talk to each other.

    Actually I never realised that I missed J so much until the day I came back from my business trip. While I was unpacking, I realised how many present I brought for J. While I was away for 17 days, I counted I bought 12 items for J. It simply means that I was thinking about her every now and then. Everywhere I went, I would have J on my mind. Sometimes how I wish that she could be there with me. And now I am seriously thinking of sounding out to her. Before it gets too late. Seriously those were the thoughts going through my mind every now and then. Though I am scared I might hurt myself or someone else again, but the loneliness is also getting on my nerves. Maybe I just have to go with my feel. And get things right for once.

    It was days again before I actually got to sit down with J watching TV at home. Suggested for a spin and J agreed.

    ‘It has been a long time since we last have a good chat and have a chance to go out together.’

    ‘Yah. Been so busy that I dun even have time to rest properly. Glad that the projects are over. Finally I can rest and do things at my pace.’

    ‘Ya I had been busy too. And very busy thinking of you.’

    I didn’t know what made me say that. But I said it. J was kind of stunned hearing me say that. But I was glad that I got the ball rolling. Wanted to get everything off my chest that very moment. But I decided to take it slow.

    ‘Think of me for what? Siao ah?’

    ‘No lah. I serious. Everytime I thought of you on the trip I bought something for you. If you dun believe I show you later. All these while chatting with you and meeting you almost everyday make me cannot do without you. And that was taken for granted. Until you got busy with work and I had to go overseas. Then I realised that I cannot do without you.’

    I guess those words either send her into chaos or touched her deeply. J stayed in a daze and kept quiet.

    throughout the ride. The silence was unbearable so I decided to end the spin early. While in the lift, I told J to take the keys for the roof access so we can go up and have a nice chat and have some wine.

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    Chapter #58

    Hi bros out there. Had been veyr busy with work and travelled a lot the past few weeks. Actually wanted to come back and finish off the story. But i had received an email from one of my friend, who actually advise me not to reveal too much of my personal life here in the forum.

    Which is also true as i had gotten attached recently. So i will not be going into details for my thread now. BUt rest assure i will still finish my story with J. Hang on

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    Chapter #59

    Sorry for the long long delay. I had been kept really busy with a lawsuit. And now with everything settled, i will wrap up the story and move on.

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    Last entry.

    While up in the roof access, the wine and breeze really helped both me and J to relax. And it was there and then i confessed my feelings for J. J kept quiet throughout and that actually left me very tensed as i didn’t want to tense up our relationship. So i kept quiet too, constantly refilling our glasses with wine while we sip away. Silence was so peaceful and at the same time agony for me. I thought i had screw everything up. It wasn’t until after a while when J finally spoke up.

    ‘I know you are a nice guy. And i knew it since the day i got to know you. That was why i decided to befriend you and even took up your offer to rent a place from you. But there are some problems which will hinder our relationship.’

    When i heard that i kind of felt depressed. My world seems like crashing. Why would my love life be so unfruitful. But i knew that the conclusion would be out today. And i tried my best to turn things my way.

    ‘What is it that you think will hinder our relationship? What is it that is lacking from me that you think the the relationship will fail? Maybe you can let me know more and i see what i can do about it.’

    ‘J. I really love you and i seriously hope that you would consider and think over carefully. You need not give me a reply today. Maybe you can think it over and let me know another day.’

    ‘It is not about you. Problem lies with me actually. While you were away, i was considering if i should go back home. I really miss my parents and hometown. And i really hate to live alone. Though after i moved in with you, I really felt happier with your company, i still felt lost and homesick when you are not around.’

    ‘Why not make this place your home? Make yourself mistress of this house. And call this place your home. Your hometown is not really far away. If you want, you can actually go back anytime you want. And i can accompany you if you want. Do consider. And all these words are form the bottom of my heart.’

    ‘I know Ronn. But……..’

    I never gave J any chance to say want she intended to say. I went over and hugged her, kissing her on her lips. No resistance. And we kissed like there is no tomorrow. From then there was slience, we held each other. An embrace which i really hoped i would lock myself in forever.

    After that night, J and me became a couple. I made her quit her job and help me out in my biz. We went back to her hometown and i actually ask her parents for her hand. We did everything together from then on. I seems to find happiness in the end.

    This would mark the end of my encounter and memories in the past.

    I really thank all bros who have shown their support for my thread. Really happy that folks out there enjoy reading my thread. And also sorry for the long delay and then ending the sotry prematurly. But i sincerely hope that bros out there will be understanding as i felt that i am revealing too much of my personal life here in the forum. And also i am still together with J and we would be getting married soon.

    I am really glad that i have penned out my thoughts and memories here to share with bros. And i felt so relieved and that the heavy stone in my heart gone.

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    Chapter #60

    Thanks to all bros whom have shown concern and support for my memories. While here i am away from home typing this reply, i long for the warmth back home.

    I have since splitted from my wife. I guess the homesickness was too much for her to handle. Long distance relationship proved too much for the both of us. We have decided to part our ways. I will always remember the wonderful times together.

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