As we proceeded to have actual sex, I was a little concerned if Elle would be okay to proceed, considering her previous bad experiences. She was willing to give it a go though, so I went ahead and slowly tried to enter her.
As I did so, she said it was quite painful. I asked if I should stop, but she indicated for me to go ahead. After the initial pain, it seemed quite ok to her. As I increased my momentum, she seemed to be enjoying it somewhat, going by her verbal cues. She was pretty loud and I had to ask her to try lowering her voice. Didn’t want people in the corridor or next rooms to eavesdrop on us !
Listening to her moans made me more excited, and pretty soon, I exploded as well.
It had been a really satisfying session. However, when I asked her about it, she replied “it was OK”, which seemed at odds with her moans and facial expressions during the session. I wondered if, for whatever reasons, she was trying to convince herself it wasn’t good. Whatever the case, I hoped it gave her a better impression about sex, better than what she had experienced before. I hoped she got the point that sex is good, if “it was done right”.
As we lay in the darkness, exchanging light kisses, she seemed to be laying there quietly, somewhat deep in thought …… I could almost detect a slight twinge of regret in her eyes ..
After that day, we still do exchange the occasional messages and still do chat with each other, and she tells me of meets she’s had, as well as the bad encounters with rude guys she’s met on the app.
However, she just refuses to think about the session we had. She also refuses to discuss any further meetups between us, saying she’ll let me know if she wishes to meet ……..
I can't help but wonder about the whole session.
I can't help wondering if she used the session with me as a test, or a session to get initiated into the scene.
My theory is that she wanted to try this business of sugaring, but she needed someone who would be good in easing her entry into it. Showing her this post allowed her to know me as a person, that I was not a "bad person". The sex described here, especially with the NTU girl S, might also have persuaded her that, if she had to enter into this, she might as well try it with someone who would make it more pleasurable or less painful, or both.
This theory might partially explain a few things.
Her wistful, almost regretful expression after our session, where she realised she had entered "the point of no return", that she had already done it, getting compensated for the act of sex.
Her refusal to think about our session may be partly explained by this as well. If the session had been enjoyable, there was no reason not to think about it. Indeed, with S the NTU girl, it encouraged her to move from petting and fondling to try sex. But in Elle's case, she just doesn't want to think about it, nor acknowledge it might have been good. Good sex is something you enjoy with a loved one, and for her the act should only be a means of obtaining what she needed, not something she should acknowledge as "good".
Finally, her refusal to meet up again also might be seen in this light. Our session was no more than a "learning experience", and not something to be repeated.
I don't think she will ever meet up with me again.
UPDATE: Elle contacted me, saying all these are my own assumptions, and yea, they are. I stated it was just my theory.
Nevertheless ...
I don't think she will ever meet up with me again.
At around the same time, I got bad news from Coraline.
Our attempts to meet up recently had always been thwarted, with all sorts of “situations” occurring which prevented us from meeting, sometimes at the last minute.
It was during one of these situations that she finally admitted she’s not to keen on meeting up. Apparently the incident between me and Serina made her less than eager to meet me.
After some persuasion that I’ve moved on from the incident, she’s asked for a time-out.
As of now, I have no idea whether she’s still willing to meet up.
Suddenly the ladies I’m willing to meet, one by one, they seem to be leaving me.
It has come full circle.
S my NTU girl … from a reputable JC, in NTU, met her for the first time at the National Library.
Met up with Emerald, from the same reputable JC, in NTU, meeting her at the National Library.
It has come full circle.
I miss S, I wonder where you are now.
Ever since Serina, I have been trying to find another with the same solid connection. That’s the reason for the recent meeting of different people.
I had chatted with Emerald for some time. We seemed to be getting along fine, with frequent and long chats. She also sent some pics of herself which looked nice. I think I’ve mentioned before, I’m quite a visual person, and I like ladies with sweet faces.
So we finally decided to meet at the Library. It’s relatively quiet with places to sit to chat a bit as well.
With some anticipation, I waited for Emerald to arrive ….
Emerald was taller than I expected and she looked slightly different from her pics, which is always a bummer for me. Can’t quite explain why, guess it’s a psychological thing with me. Surprisingly the chat seemed awkward, although she did say I turned out better than she expected. Okaaaay. Not sure what she was really expecting haha
We proceeded with the session although I had some misgivings
The thing that I found interesting about Emerald was that her lips were really thick, and I don’t mean the lips meant for smooching. They were thick enough that before penetration, one had to literally move the lips apart first.
She was also quite enthusiastic when blowing, and I kept looking at her head bobbing up and down, up and down, occasionally moving to the side, as she blew me hard.
Strangely though after the deed, while we were talking about our experiences on the app, I found myself thinking about Serina again.
I guess the effect she had on me was stronger than I thought.
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cheers for the constant updates
Interesting.
Your profile pic somewhat similar to mine.
Emerald says she’s got a couple of friends also into sugaring. I’m hoping to schedule a 3some with her friend in the future, something that I’ve wanted to try.
Not sure whether anything will materialize though. Will have to see.
Having a particularly crappy work week. Thank God I’m on half day today.
Miss Serina badly, keep wanting to message her, ask her if she wants lunch with me.
Probably wishful thinking on my part. I wonder if she’ll ever read this, and know I miss her company.