The Serina incident affected me badly. In the end I realised that, emotional connection means nothing, nothing at all in this circle we travel in ..
Coraline was of great help, trying to advise and console me. She let it be known to me that, Serina did not care at all about how I felt, nor was the feelings I felt with Serina, mutual.
I am grateful that at least Coraline was mature in her thinking and gracious. At the very least, she had integrity and understood that an agreement was an agreement.
I resolved to increase Coraline’s rates when next we met, to the best of my ability, and told her so. What impressed me a lot was that she left that decision to me, and was understanding about it and did not want to pressure me regarding this.
She really is a wonderful wonderful person.
The incident with Serina affected me so badly I almost wanted to disclose everything about her, as I felt, in a sense, that I had been betrayed, that she has made me believed the emotional connection was real, when in fact, it probably meant nothing to her.
I wanted to disclose everything I knew about her, such was my anger at that time.
It has been more than a week since.
I realised as time wore on, that my anger, while intense, did me no justice.
The desire for "revenge", in the end, was probably pointless. It would have achieved nothing, it would not have revived the arrangement, and would probably have messed up someone's life.
In the end I hope that I am a much better person than that.
And that I needed to move on.
But one thing I just cannot understand is, why doesn’t she block me on the messaging app ? I suppose it’s not an important point but, still, it’s left me really puzzled
It was around this time an old photographer contact of mine contacted me with an offer to introduce one of his girls to me for a shoot.
It’s a bit of a surprise as we had stopped contacting one another after a misunderstanding of sorts, a misunderstanding so long ago I don’t really remember what it was about.
I probably will take up his offer, next month, when I am free.
I guess as one door closes, another one opens
I started chatting with Elle, on the same app.
She described herself as “not a babe, but empathetic”.
I told myself well, why not? At this time, feeling dejected and a bit demoralised with what was happening, why not chat with someone who’s empathetic, who hopefully would understand what I was going through …
I spent the next few days chatting with Elle. She’s easy to talk to, lively and fun.
I shared with her what happened between me and Serina, and she gave me one excellent piece of advice, a single statement which allowed me to see the light, immediately
"
It takes a lot for someone to stop contacting another person that they had sex with unless it’s a norm for them
."
With this one statement she made me realise that Serina was probably an old hand at this, and while she made the experience really good, as Elle said, she (Serina) probably was able to do this with every guy she met.
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Originally Posted by
poipoi_81
Looking forward to her photo!
Even back when I did photoshoots, I really disliked those photographers who leaked photos, as well as those who traded in those photos.
Especially those who did it simply for thrills or kicks or for online fame.
When we show photos of the girls, we oftentimes forget that these girls have lives of their own, separate lives from what they do in this circle. In fact we guys also have family lives of our own.
Releasing photos in this manner with no regard for the girls is callous. Nothing more than that.
While I may have had differences with the girls, releasing their photos is something I will not do.
They have done nothing to harm me and neither should I do them wrong.
So NO.
OK, back to Elle.
I actually told her about this thread, this post of mine, and she seems really interested in what she was reading. She was really surprised that the person who wrote this post, was the same person she was chatting with online
So we were chatting for a few days, talking about everything, from sugaring, our daily routines and finally, to a tentative meetup. Originally we were meant to meet next week, but somehow it got moved forward.
Before the meet, Elle made it clear she was pretty nervous about meeting me. She had reservations about her own looks and her abilities, and she had had bad experiences where sex was concerned. I had to try hard to convince her that sex can be wonderful, “if done right”.
Of course, doing it right is a pretty subjective thing, and the only thing in my favour, of course, was the narrative contained in this thread. I’m not sure how much this thread helped to convince her, but I’m sure it played some part in her decision.
The meet with her started pretty badly, with everything seemingly going wrong at the same time. it was almost as if the gods were working against me, trying to prevent us meeting or proceeding with what we had planned after we met ….
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Originally Posted by
poipoi_81
Looking forward to her photo!
Even back when I did photoshoots, I really disliked those photographers who leaked photos, as well as those who traded in those photos.
Especially those who did it simply for thrills or kicks or for online fame.
When we show photos of the girls, we oftentimes forget that these girls have lives of their own, separate lives from what they do in this circle. In fact we guys also have family lives of our own.
Releasing photos in this manner with no regard for the girls is callous. Nothing more than that.
While I may have had differences with the girls, releasing their photos is something I will not do.
They have done nothing to harm me and neither should I do them wrong.
So NO.
OK, back to Elle.
I actually told her about this thread, this post of mine, and she seems really interested in what she was reading. She was really surprised that the person who wrote this post, was the same person she was chatting with online
So we were chatting for a few days, talking about everything, from sugaring, our daily routines and finally, to a tentative meetup. Originally we were meant to meet next week, but somehow it got moved forward.
Before the meet, Elle made it clear she was pretty nervous about meeting me. She had reservations about her own looks and her abilities, and she had had bad experiences where sex was concerned. I had to try hard to convince her that sex can be wonderful, “if done right”.
Of course, doing it right is a pretty subjective thing, and the only thing in my favour, of course, was the narrative contained in this thread. I’m not sure how much this thread helped to convince her, but I’m sure it played some part in her decision.
The meet with her started pretty badly, with everything seemingly going wrong at the same time. it was almost as if the gods were working against me, trying to prevent us meeting or proceeding with what we had planned after we met ….
So prior to the meet I realised that my ATM card had failed. Apparently there was a slight bend where the chip was. So now, minutes before my meet with Elle, I had no money. I probably didn’t have enough money to pay for the hotel room.
I can so imagine what she was thinking when I told her the bad news. I had to ask to transfer the money to her subsequently and worse, had to ask her to pay for the room first as well.
If that is not a sure sign of a scam artist, I don’t know what is.
She actually suggested that we postpone the session and we just have a meal instead. And she could pay the meal for me.
So paiseh