lol jackfarley.
I’m writing it right now, actually. Pausing in between to check the forums.
Thank you to littleswingers and boringfuck (lol funny nick) for the upz.
I apologise to my readers for the somewhat wishy-washy writing while describing my time with Rain. It was a wishy-washy period in my life, and I suspect that thinking about it is also affecting me irl, hence the sudden sulking on forums yesterday
Coming up soon in a few minutes…
The next day, I caught Rain as she was leaving college. I was puzzled cos we tend to leave together since we shared the same class timing. It was the first time she didn’t wait for me, nor did she have someone to accompany her.
“Hey, Rain! Wait up!” I called. She stopped and waited for me, not looking.
“Hey, Lost,” she mumbled.
“Why didn’t you wait for me today? I asked, falling into step beside her.
“I dunno. Didn’t think about it, I guess,” replied Rain. Her tone was a little dead, like she didn’t care.
Perhaps she’s upset at me for last night?
Hmmm…she was already upset, might as well take the plunge. She’s been sending me mixed signals for a week now, nothing ventured, nothing gained. I walked beside her and mustered my resolve, reaching out and grabbing her right hand in my left, catching her fingers in mine. She stopped with a start, looking at our hands, but not pulling away.
“Well, even if you didn’t think about it, I know I thought about you. So let’s go, or we’ll be late,” I said, brazenly. I adjusted my grip so instead of holding her fingers in mine, I crossed our fingers instead. I didn’t look at her and just walked, forcing her to follow.
Within moments, I felt her fingers tighten against mine as our steps synchronised with each other. It felt very high school to me, but I didn’t care. I smiled and kept walking, afraid to break the silence or the mood.
“I thought you weren’t interested, Lost. I felt very embarrassed after last night so I tried to avoid you this morning," Rain ventured.
I released her hand and draped my arm around her shoulders, pulling her to me into a rough hug. “Rain, I highly doubt I’d let someone I’m not interested in to sit on my lap for nearly an hour.”
Yes! My gamble paid off!
“Oh,” she replied. “Yeah, I’m much too heavy to sit on your lap that long otherwise, huh?” she continued cheekily, finally breaking into a smile.
“Bah, if you were heavy, then I’d be an elephant,” I joked, linking fingers with her again. We walked to the campus in companionable silence.
I was in a good mood the whole day. My coursemates were curious what brought about the change as I’m usually pretty grumpy in the mornings. I didn’t share the news with them, not yet. I wanted to keep it to myself…and I still had to have a talk with Rain.
We met after class, and I invited her for a walk in Carlton Gardens, where we might have a chance of privacy without bumping into somebody we knew. I think she sensed my serious mood, so didn’t make any jokes. We were pretty content to walk hand-in-hand until we found a bench to sit and talk.
“Rain, I’m not sure how to start…” I began.
“Just say what you have to say, Lost. Don’t worry, I won’t eat you,” she joked, trying to ease my tension. It worked. I smiled at her and took a deep breath.
“I’ve been more and more attracted to you for awhile now, Rain. I, I’m really glad you appear to feel the same way. But I gotta warn you, it isn’t easy to be with me,” I said, looking at her.
“What do you mean? You’re such a nice guy! Everyone says so. Li always praised you too when she was around,” she protested. It felt like a knife’s twist in my gut at hearing her mention Li, who of course, kept our almost relationship a secret.
“Listen. Just let me finish, it isn’t easy for me to say what I have to say, Rain,” I said, but not fiercely. She nodded and watched me as I spoke.
“I’m not sure what kind of life I can give you as a boyfriend. You are well aware that my financial status is not a good one. I won’t be able to treat you to things and pamper you as you deserve. I might be gone after this year after graduating, and you’d still be here. I’m not sure what kind of relationship we could have then. I don’t want you to waste your time on me, when there are other better people out there,” I said. “Moreover, I have a terrible temper and I’m pretty selfish,” I finished.
Rain looked at me seriously, a torn expression on her face, as if wrestling with some inner decision. “Lost, I know you’re trying to protect me. But why think about so many what may be’s in the future? Let’s enjoy ourselves now. I like you a lot, and I know you like me too. Let’s try and see where that takes us? Things will work themselves out, I’m sure.”
Famous last words. I didn’t know it then, but with the benefit of hindsight, it should’ve been obvious that the relationship would’ve ultimately failed. But I was 22, single, and lonely (and yes, sex-crazed after a taste of pleasure), damned if I could think beyond the next few weeks.
I hugged her tightly, happy beyond words that she’d still want to be with me.
“Besides, who said you’re selfish? You’re my Fateman, my personal hero,” she mumbled into my ear as we hugged.
We cuddled on the park bench for a little while until we decided it was too cold and time to head back to college for dinner. I dropped her off at her room after we arrived back at college, and again we lingered at the door.
“Pick you up at 7 for dinner?” I asked from the doorway.
“Yes, please,” replied Rain, smiling at me from inside the room. The door remained open…
“So, are you going to kiss me, or do I have to sulk again for something to happen?” she finally said, giving me a mock glare, arms folded crossed against her chest.
I laughed and held her face in my palms, leaning my face closer. Our noses touched gently…and I rubbed noses with her.
“That’s an Eskimo kiss, Rain. And good things are worth waiting for,” I grinned and walked off.
“Idiot!” I heard her call from her room, but not angrily. I gave her a thumbs up and went downstairs to return to my room.
hehehe glad you enjoyed it, bro.
Will try to post another one tonight, depending on how tired i am. No promises though!
Thanks bro Jackbl for the upz
bro valiant, i hope to god i didn’t know your sister, if you get what I mean
hehehehe
anyway, i was in melb 06 and 07, so nah. diff batch
guys, i’m too braindead tonight to produce any quality writing, much apologies! sibeh shagged…
haha 8387, yeap, darned ozzies and their oi’s
I’m glad to see you peeps are enjoying the story, thank you for your support and encouragement. Melbourne is a very missable place if you’ve been there. One of my regrets is not staying/returning, but the family is in Malaysia, and I must pay my filial respects after all.
thanks bro simidai
also thanks ebonkie and another anonymous upper.
Gonna sit down and write the next installment.
Not a fucking moment of peace here this morning. Sorry guys, this is what i came up with for now.
The honeymoon period of dating, as my readers surely can attest, is among the best experiences in the world. Rain and I were no different. Having a “proper” gf that I could see and touch everyday, made a whole difference for me. It was a new and exciting period in my life.
We went to Uni t ogether, holding hands like children. We sat together during mealtimes, we hung out together in the common room, and we spent the nights together. No, we didn’t make love immediately, but Rain decided to “move in” with me soon after…
I picked Rain up at 7, as promised, and went down for dinner. There were a lot of friendly teasing from our collegemates, of course, but I think the surprise value already went out the window when Rain sat on my lap the previous night. Jenn looked a bit down, but I didn’t let her negativity get in the way of my happiness. She did, in fact, leave me alone for the night. I didn’t have to endure her dirty looks and sarcastic comments, at least, so that was an improvement.
Keeping to my “newly in love” feeling, I didn’t want to let Rain out of my sight for a single moment, we hung out at the common room for a bit after dinner, then I invited her to my room for some quiet.
“Hmm, going to your room, huh? Should I be worried about your intentions?” teased Rain, her eyes sparkling with humour.
“Pfft, would anybody dare to bully you? You have a hero to look after you,” I retorted. She laughed and cuddled up against my arm as we walked to my room.
I hadn’t expected any hanky panky to happen, but my brain probably hadn’t caught up because I invited her to sit on my bed (well the chair wasn’t all that comfortable). I got a raised eyebrow from Rain.
“Okay, that came our really wrong, Rain. I mean, there’s just nowhere else that’s comfy to sit on. I just wanted to be with you,” I hurriedly explained.
She smiled at me a little shyly, and climbed onto my bed. I joined her, sitting side by side against the wall (it’s a single bed). I slipped my arm around her and we just sat there and talked about anything and everything.
When it got late, I walked her back to her room and invited myself in. Rain looked surprised but didn’t object.
“I know it sounds silly, but I’m going to miss you tonight,” I said to her. I took her in my arms, bent down, and kissed her once, softly on her lips. “I’ll see you tomorrow, baby.” It was the first time I used a term of endearment on her.
She pulled me down for another kiss, and another. “Goodnight, my Fateman,” she said. “I’ll miss you too!”
The next day progressed normally, dinner etc. Rain pulled me to her room instead, after dinner. I also noticed that Jenn was no longer getting any attention from Rain, but I guessed it was normal since I was not giving Pree much attention either.
“Lost, I have something important to discuss with you,” she said, patting her bed to make me sit down. I looked at her curiously.
“Lost, I need to know I can trust you,” she said. Okay, that was totally unexpected
“Baby, of course you can trust me. I will always protect you and won’t make you do things you don’t want to,” I replied seriously.
“I’m sorry, that was an unfair question. I just needed to hear it from you,” she said, hugging me tightly.
“Can I sleep with you tonight?” she asked next.
Wait, what?
My shock and confusion must’ve shown on my face, as she added, “Don’t get any ideas, sweetie. I just want to sleep with you.”
Of course, I agreed. She packed some clothes and toiletries, and went down to my room. She wanted to study before sleeping, so she had my desk while I read a book. Bedtime came, and after cleaning up, she snuggled up to me in bed and we shared the pillow. Her face was close to mine, and I couldn’t resist stealing a kiss from her. We started kissing each other hungrily, joining our lips together repeatedly. I kept my hands around her back, one stroking her hair, being careful not to wander.
In the middle of all that, I started slipping her a bit of tongue, and she reacted by pulling back and away from me, struggling in my arms. Shocked and scared, I released her immediately to watch her back up against the wall, eyes wild with panic.
“Rain, what’s wrong? I’m sorry, did I push too hard? Talk to me please, baby,” I begged. It took her a few minutes to calm down, and she pulled at my shirt tightly as she clung to me, shaking.
“I’m so sorry, Lost. I thought you were Vijay,” she sobbed into my shirt. Damnit, she had a flashback. She’s never had one before this, and seemed okay. Looks like kissing was a really bad idea.
I held her close to me while she calmed down, stroking her hair and just whispering that “It’s okay”.
I thought she had fallen asleep at some point, and tried to extricate myself to turn the lights off, but her fingers caught in my shirt and didn’t let me go.
“Don’t leave me, please. Leave the lights on,” she begged. That was when I realized she was scared of the dark too.
“Kiss me again, I want to forget him,” Rain requested. I took her mouth with mine and kissed her gently, and slept with her in my arms that night…
The result of that was that Rain decided she wanted to move in with me, so to speak. She’d take her showers at the bathroom near her room, cos her clothes were there, but she’d come sleep with me every night. Nothing happened for a few days, we just hugged and kissed and slept. Then the status quo changed…
It was my first kitchen duty after officially started dating Rain. We had to do kitchen duty once every two weeks at college, for dinner. 3 people are assigned per night, usually: one for dishes, one for cleaning pots and pans, and the last for cleaning the dining hall. The one cleaning the kitchen hall usually have to chase people away if they lingered too long chit chatting, though usually we cooperated by making sure the table we’re using will be cleaned for them.
One of my friends couldn’t do his duty on his night, so we swapped nights for that week. I ended up being in a group with my neighbour Kerry, and a beautiful 2nd year Taiwanese girl who lived in Hong Kong, Flo. She was miles prettier than even Jenn, and was slender and tall. We weren’t at all close, cos she was very Aussiefied and hung out with her own group of friends which didn’t include my crazy male Ozzie mates.
I finished up the dining hall since Kerry liked doing the pots and Flo wanted the dishes (seriously, who the hell liked doing pots and pans? My usual duty was Thursday, which was pasta night. The pots and pans with dried cheese…fuck. No thank you!). Once my job was done, I went in to check up on the others and to say I was done. I saw Flo in the dishes room, in time to catch her cutting herself on one of the cracked plates. It wasn’t a major cut, but if you’ve cut your finger before while washing stuff you’d know that a lot of blood comes streaming out.
I hurried to get the first aid kit from the kitchen, and sat her in a chair in the hall, cleaning it and wrapping up the wound. Flo was sitting in a chair while I was kneeling in front of her. Looked a bit compromising, of course, especially when she was in tights. I’d love to say I was a gentleman and didn’t check her out, but who could resist?
“Hey, uhm, thanks (sigh, she didn’t know my name). But I think I’m okay now,” said Flo, snapping me out of my daze. I realized I was still holding her hand while checking her out. She gave me an amused smile and I smiled back.
“You look like you’re about to propose to me,” she laughed. Indeed, I did look like I was going to, kneeling in front of her under the table like that.
“Well, Flo, here’s your ring!” I countered, pointing at her bandage. We were sharing a laugh when Rain decided to pop by to see what was taking me so long. I straightened in a hurry.
“What’re you two doing?” she asked, seemingly casual.
“Oh, Flo’s just cut herself and I helped her tend to her wounds, dear,” I responded. Flo smiled at Rain, thanked me, and left the hall.
“Sorry to have kept you waiting, Rain. I’ve gotta finish up her dishes though. Be done soon,” I said to Rain.
She followed me into the washing room and helped me out with the washing in silence. “You really are a helpful person, huh, Lost?” she said.
I looked at her, her expression was neutral. “Eh, I just sorta walked into that today,” I replied, not certain where this was going. She said no more and we finished our jobs in quiet.
“Thanks for helping me out, baby. Made it twice as fast,” I smiled at her and hugged her. She finally smiled back at me and patted my cheek and told me she’d see me later in my room.
hahaha i’m just in a hurry to finish it up, but i suppose i can go slower
Not that it’s related, but you probably won’t see me writing tomorrow, busy day ahead. Will still post on forum but no serious writing.
Jut finished dinner, gonna try and complete that broken short post from earlier.
That night, I felt a little uneasy. Was Rain jealous? I mean, it was just me helping another girl out, all innocent. Hmmm, I’m not used to this feeling. Rain answered my questions later; she was indeed jealous, but not in the way that I had thought she would be…
Her knock came at the expected time at my door. She usually comes by around 9:30pm. I opened the door and was surprised to see her not in her usual sleepwear (t-shirt and trackpants), but in a spaghetti top and shorts.
“Hey, Lost! Waited long?” she asked as I let her in. She didn’t sound normal, but the earlier awkwardness was a lot decreased.
“Nah, not long at all. You’re right on time, as usual,” I replied. It hadn’t escaped me that despite us dating for a good amount of time, she rarely calls me by pet names. Usually I chalked it up to habits, maybe she wasn’t so used to being intimate, but some times I do wonder.
“Come sit with me for awhile. I’ve got some stuff on my mind that I’m not sure how to let out,” she said, seating herself in my bed. I obediently sat down beside her, and she curled her arms around mine and leaned against my shoulder.
I didn’t break the silence, which stretched for at least 5 minutes.
“Lost, why did you decide to date me?” she suddenly asked.
Uh oh. Where is this going? Why do girls like to have this kinds of discussions?
“Eh, honey. That’s a bit of a random question, isn’t it?” I replied.
“Don’t you have an answer, Lost?” she asked, still leaning against my shoulder. I wasn’t used to having a conversation without looking at my convo partner’s face. Kinda hard to read the situation.
“Well…you know, as a matter of fact, I do! I’ve been thinking about my feelings for you for a long time before we started dating,” I said slowly. I felt her palms tighten on my arm.
“Why wouldn’t I date you, Rain? You’re smart,” I continued but was interrupted.
“I’m a ninny. I’m scared of everything,” she broke in.
“You’re cute and lovable. You make me think about you when you weren’t by my side.” I carried on.
“Cute? I hate that word. Makes me feel like a small kid. And I already look like a small kid. I don’t understand why you’d like me,” she countered. I tried to push her off my arm so I could look at her expression, but she clung on stubbornly.
“Baby, why do you say that?” I asked, concerned. She was normally a cheerful and cheeky girl (if you get past her timidity).
“I’m not pretty like Jenn or Flo. I’m not sexy like Shan and Fen. I just don’t know why you’d want to be with me when there are so many better choices around,” she said softly.
I wasn’t going to deny her words, all that she said was true. Flo and Jenn were really pretty, though the former a lot more so, and Shan and Fen were a lot more daring and sexy in dressing. I considered what I should reply. I could say that I didn’t know Flo, Jenn hated me, and Fen and Shan are way too “easy” for me to feel secure dating them, but I didn’t.
“It’s because you’re the only one I want to be with,” I answered.
I heard her sniff, and she let go of my arm and stood in front of me. She gestured at herself and said, “I have no breasts, I have no curves. I look like a damned kid. What’s so attractive about me?”
Heh, dejavu. Seems not so long ago that another girl was in my room lamenting about her lack of looks. Sigh.
I pulled Rain onto my lap and cuddled her. “You are very attractive to me. I don’t compare you to other people cos I’m happy the way you are. Everybody is different, but fate had brought you to me,” I said softly to her.
“But, you deserve someone who looks better. Pretty and tall like Flo,” she objected.
Ah, so this is what it’s all about!
“Yeah, and you deserve a prince who can take you out to nice places and good food. So I guess we both aren’t getting what the other party thinks we should get, huh,” I said, winking at her.
“I suppose we should both just be sad that the other party wants us so much despite our flaws. We’re so unlucky to be wanted,” I continued to tease her, making a sad face.
She punched me in the chest, lightly. “You’re a bastard.”
“Hey, now. I happen to know that both my parents were married when they had me. Unless they told you something else that I wasn’t supposed to know?” I retorted, my eyes widened dramatically.
I got her laughing, and the tension broke. Crisis averted. Phew.
“You’re completely ridiculous, Lost. That’s one of the things I adore about you,” she giggled in my arms as I hugged her tight.
“I do adore you, Lost,” she repeated, nuzzling at my neck.
We ended up kissing passionately and falling into the bed. Our lips meshed and she ventured her tongue out to lick my lips for the first time. I sealed our kiss and we had a proper French kiss, Rain going soft in my arms. No panic attacks, thank god. Rain broke our kiss eventually, and sat up from the bed. I looked at her quizzically.
“I don’t know how attracted you could be to this, honey,” she said, and pulled her top off. I saw her topless for the first time, she doesn’t usually wear her usual sports bra when coming to bed with me, didn’t need one. Her skin was very smooth, her breasts just barely formed, with a bit of a curve underneath pert nipples. Her slight build and lack of breasts had masked a well curved waist, since her tops didn’t cling on tightly enough to show her body. Her tummy was flat, with a cute little navel in the middle.
Rain looked at me nervously, waiting my reaction. I gave her an encouraging smile and pulled her back down onto the bed so I could continue kissing her. She guided my hand to her chest, the meaning unmistakeable. I drew gentle circles on her chest and finally came to a stop on her nipple. I rubbed my thumb across it and felt her stiffen. I rubbed it again and she crooned while kissing me.
“Darling, I’d like to enjoy you properly, if you are willing?” I asked her. She nodded shyly.
I laid her on her back and started kissing down her neck. She was very responsive, arching her neck out to me, inviting me to caress her with my lips as though a victim offering her blood to a vampire. I feathered kisses down her neck and nuzzled her collarbone. Then I kissed my way down her chest area, and teased her left breast by licking round her nipple without touching the nub. I repeated on her right side and she was breathing hard.
I looked at her, silently asking for permission. She gave it by pushing my face back to her chest. I trapped her nipple in my lips and “French kissed” it. Her back was arched from the bed as I sucked hard on her nipple.
“No, don’t stop,” she protested softly as I released her nipple and move on to the other one. “Ahh…”
Her quiet moans encouraged me to repeat the process with her. I sucked and licked at her nipple until my tongue was tired, with my hand gently pinching the neglected one. She bucked hard against me, fingers clutching at my head and finally gave a long sigh. I stopped my services and raised my head to watch her breathing quietly with her eyes closed, peacefully.
I laid down beside her, my head supported by my arm, waiting for her to return to me. Her eyes fluttered open finally and caught mine.
“That was great, sweetie!” she exclaimed happily. She threw herself on me and gave me a long and deep kiss. As it were, she ended up straddling my erection.
“Uhm, is that what I think it is?” asked Rain.
“You asked how attracted I am to you. There’s your answer, baby,” I grinned back at her. She considered for a moment, still sitting on it.
“Do…would you need relief?” she asked.
YES!
“Well, only if you’re comfortable, honey,” I said, hopefully.
Rain frowned. “I don’t think I’m quite ready to take that step yet, Lost.”
What? No!
“It’s okay, sweetie. You don’t need to do anything,” I said, lying through my teeth. She swung herself off me and grabbed her discarded top, putting it on before returning to bed.
Well there goes my fun tonight…
I grumbled to myself.
Rain looked at me happily as she snuggled with me and went to sleep surprisingly easily. I’ve heard that the endorphins from an orgasm can do that for you. Fucking hell. It was only 10plus, way too early for me to sleep, especially with the goddamned lights on. My balls were getting annoyed.
thanks for the comments, guys
as promised, no updates today. been a long day…
Will continue tomorrow for sure!