After what had happened, the three of us showered again (taking turns to do so individually). I don't remember us talking to each other again that night as there was a strange uneasiness in the atmosphere. It seemed like we were bolder with our clothes off then on, as all of us now avoided eye contact with each other. I know that none of us slept that night as we laid as far apart from each other as possible on the mattresses, as we tossed and turned under our blankets. I don't know what was going on in "T's" and "N's" minds, but mine was overloaded with thoughts. I had so many questions that were unanswered and so many doubts. I wanted to ask "T" why she had orchestrated the earlier events? Was she a person who enjoyed watching other make out? Why was she so experienced? (Hmm... later in life, I kinda linked some behaviours of WLs I met to her actions that night... No frenching, no pussy eating etc... I am thinking after all these years...Was "T" a FL?) I also began thinking about "N". Was the nerdy "N" really as innocent as she appeared? How much collusion was there between the 2 girls that lead to what happened ("T" said "N" liked me all along)? What were her thoughts after I had 'serviced' her? Was I being used (Quite laughable, right...)? All these questions formed a great big question mark in my head!
The enigma was never solved as after that day, the three of us hardly had another conversation. During the tuition that resumed the next day, we sat apart and had our faces in our foolscap pad the whole time. We didn't even say goodbye to each other as we left the tuition. We met a couple more times after that, during our examination days and the day our results were published, but we never said more than a 'hi and 'bye' to each other. Even after that, when I went for NS, and I tried to contact them, I'd be unsuccessful. My emails were unanswered and my attempts at ICQing them were ignored. Even now, I can't find them in friendster. The chances of meeting them again has become worse considering I'm now an Australian P.R. and working in Australia. The only news I have of them came from a chance meeting with another of my JC classmates when I went back to S'pore for holidays. I was told that "N" had gone to UK to study and has lost contact with everybody, while "T" had married her bf since Sec 3. I actually got a bit of shock when I heard that "T" had gotten married at age 23, however it was neither the info that she got married young nor the news that she married her long-time bf that surprised me. Rather it was what my classmate had said when she delivered this info that was the bombshell. This is what was said, '"T" married her longtime 'guai guai' bf a few years ago. Haha... that girl ah... always used to call all the guys she liked 'guai guai' this, 'guai guai' that. We kept teasing her at her wedding that she's finally marrying her 'guai guai' boy-boy, she was so...........'
I guess I don't have to finish what my classmate said for you guys to get the gist....
Now a personal run-down of the meaning of the event on my life
All these years, my mind has replayed the events of the day countless times, as each time I contemplated upon what it meant to me. It is rather contradictory as I feel both elated and crest-fallen at the same time. I feel pleased that I had gotten my 1st blow and had lost my viginity, yet somehow it did not really fulfill the sense of euphoria I thought I’d have. Something felt missing… Fate seemed to have cheated me…(Lots of guys would condemn me for saying this, but that’s truly how I feel)
As a teenager, I had always looked forward to sex, however, with regards to how I lost my virginity, I did not feel as if I had truly conquered the holy land although I had already gotten the holy grail. I know sometimes meaningless sex is needed to relieve some physical needs, but somehow as I gained more experience, I realized that sex you’ve earned is far better than free (or paid) sex. ONS and WLs provide temporary enjoyment, but true accomplishment comes only when you have worked hard for and earned the sex. The accomplishment when a girl spreads her legs for you after you’ve worked so hard to get to that point is so satisfying mentally. It’s like you have won a competition you’ve practiced hard for, and the memories are sweeter and last longer. Somehow, apart from “T” and “N”, I can only remember the faces of girls I’ve worked hard to earn a fuck from, and none of the faces of girls who I fucked for free (in terms of effort).
Ok… enough of this ‘moral’ chit-chat. Anyway, thanks to “T” and “N”, I learnt a lot about physical intimacies. I learnt how to satisfy a girl and learnt how to teach a girl to gimme a blowjob. These skills have kept me a happy man after all these years. I’ve realized that when making out, if you know what buttons to press, the girl would become your ‘slave’ and serve you like a king. (though this may not be too good a thing, as I’d share with you bros in another story next time.)
So… that’s all for my account of events and thoughts on the happenings that fateful November day so many years ago. Hope you guys had fun reading it, and some boys here have learnt something too. It was definately gratifying writing it and a reilef off my chest, as I’m finally able to share it with someone (albeit somewhat anonymously). I have a few more stories of my sexcapades to tell, and if you guys want more, just leave me a comment in this thread. But for now, all I can say is… See ya later, mates….
p.s. Writing alphabets is good for you (and whomever else involved).. hahahaha……
thanks for sharing this nice experince… n its written so well..
hope to see more posting coming from u.. =)
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bepo
thanks for sharing this nice experince… n its written so well..
hope to see more posting coming from u.. =)
Thanks, I’ve always had a flair for writing….
I do have a few more interesting encounters with other girls…. Will write and post them here if you guys want….
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super_manny
Thanks, I’ve always had a flair for writing….
I do have a few more interesting encounters with other girls…. Will write and post them here if you guys want….
good on you, mate