She didn’t reply to my message after that. But from where i could see, she was crying. And then it all became clear to me. She still love me, but love for us is a luxury item we cannot afford. Being in our current position, we had our responsibilities and obligations. We made the choice we had made, to our families and partners. Love for us has to be felt and cannot be expressed, not in any forms of words or deeds. I felt a shot of bitterness running through my heart. The bitter truth of life for us, no matter how much we wanted to be with one another, neither of us were prepared to hurt those that still cared for us and unknown of the affair. They must never know, if by any chance that should either marriage fail, it should be for any reasons but a affair. Means of reconciliation must be explored and until the last bit of effort had expired, or else it should be the last resort. It should never be bcoz of our own selfish need. Yes, some may ask then what about what we want? As sad as it is, the ultimate truth is that we made the choice to married our partners and the vows that we took had it certain significance. So what if we get our heart desire by getting a divorce and have the relationship that we always wanted? If that was our approach then one possible scenario will be this: we will live with the guilt for the rest of our lives, in the back of my mind will always be that if she could do this to her husband then what’s stopping her from doing the same to me? What happen when that happen too….too much variables in life that could happen….too much too many…
It was time for me to leave and i just packed my desk and went off without saying much. Then M messaged me to remind me that i have forgotten my jacket which i had brought along for the interview so immediately i went back to collect it. Automatically when i reached my desk, i would always looked into the way where she is sitting but she wasn’t there. Feeling a little disappointed that i cannot see her before i go, i just took my jacket and went down to my ride. Just as i got into the car, she left me another message saying that she was afraid to see me then she will cry so she purposefully left her desk. I guessed as much so i replied by telling her to take care of herself and that i miss her.
I do not know what will happen in the future but this i know, she will be my motivation to work harder than before. I wrote another letter to her but i never send to her. Sometime, certain things are better left unsaid…
To my dearest baby,
Meeting you was the best thing that ever happened to me. It made me realized what true love is and what it really meant to love someone unconditionally. But it’s a pity that we met each other at the wrong time. There are so many things that i want to tell you but i will not. From today onwards i will love you silently. I may not be the man that ended up with but i will become the man that you want. I will have a picture of you in my mind, probably time will make the missing part lesser but you will always be that special someone in my life. I will never forget the time we spent together, i will never forget the words and promises we made to one another.
I am letting go of you now, i need to move on and make my life worth something while i still can. But you will be there with me wherever i go, living in my mind. Because of you, i lost my sky of adventure. But because of you, i found my ocean. Losing you felt like i lost my entire world. But i will survive, i must. There are so many things i want to do with you, places to go with you, but i will do it in memories of you. I will go and find my own happiness now, i don’t know if i will ever find someone like you but that i will leave it to fate. Take care now my love, be happy always. I won’t turn back now but i hope you will always remember that there’s someone that loved you. And if you ever remember me, i hope it will bring a smile to you by just thinking about it.
I really miss you alot, and i will always love you. Now and forever.
*The End*
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chenpaul
If M is the person TS love, why is title “…. wrong time with the wrong person”? Should it not be wrong time but right person. How does TS define the other person as wrong or right? Just curious.
Wrong time because if only i confessed to her earlier. Wrong person because she maybe the person i love but she is married.
Don’t mind anyone hijacking. This is one thread for folks like us to pen down our stories that we can’t normally share. Staying secret yet getting that feel out of the system, you know what feel I’m talking about.
There won’t be anymore updates on this story as i need to move on, i have to. If not it wil ruin my life. I will be constantly checking back on my thread and if anyone wishes to talk or share, just use the thread or PM me.
Cheers everyone, good to be back in SG.
Hi everyone
Just came back from SZ recently. Apparently SBF is banned in China thus zero update all these while. New story coming up soon which I will start a new thread for it.
Nice to be back!