story of my colorless past


    Chapter #11

    i turned around and started to put my arms on raymond’s shoulders, and he continued to grind me, but this time, it was from the front.

    the feeling was so high, but we didnt want his gf to see anything, so we slowly moved to a secluded spot behind the bar counter and we kissed passionately while his hands roamed my body.

    he then started to finger me and he realized that i wasn’t a virgin anymore ..

    R : wah someone naughty ah not v alr?

    me : i got bf la, what do u think?

    R : wah u got bf ah? he never come today?

    me : nopes, he in ns

    R : then tonight you’re mine

    me : siao!

    R : what? can one la

    me : then your gf how?

    R : she with my friends what

    me : …

    with that, we left the club secretly and cabbed to a nearby hotel.

    i was very nervous but also horny >.<

    upon checking in, i didnt know what to do so i just sat on the bed staring into blank space..

    to be continued..

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    Chapter #12

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    sarahxx

    damnn 男人不坏 女人不爱 tht always happens..

    sexciting! looking forward to ur nx update

    U should write of yours

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    Chapter #13

    as i sat on the bed, i realized what i was doing wasn’t morally right..but i couldnt control it, i just had to do it and i wanted to do it so badly

    raymond then came on to me and started to kiss me while using his legs to spread my legs open, he then took off his clothes and hinted me to give him a blowjob..

    i obediently obliged as he removed my dress, leaving me only with my bra and thongs .. it was the first time i was doing it with someone other than my bf and the feeling was a mixture of excitement and a little bit of guilt.

    raymond’s dick was bigger than ben’s and as he penetrated me, i could feel my vagina stretch abit. we did a few positions including the normal missionary and doggys and he cummed in the condom after awhile.

    we then wore our clothes back, left the hotel and cabbed back to the club.. we didnt bathe as we didnt want the rest to suspect anything.

    went back to the club, had a few drinks and continued dancing with the rest.

    after that night, raymond and i still kept in contact once in awhile..

    i felt like a total slut when raymond used me for his pleasure, but i somehow liked the feeling.

    to be continued..

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    Chapter #14

    it was a friday and ben was due to bookout that evening.

    i didnt plan to let him know about my endeavors but somehow his friend got to know about it and told him about it.. till today, i still dont know who told him about it.

    and because of that, we broke up.

    i was feeling very down because a long relationship just went to waste like that because of my actions, but i was still very young at that time and i didnt know how to think that much or be mature in my doings and mindset hence.. i drowned my sadness in drinks and clubs again with my friends and this was when i met qing han, he was older than me about a few years and he was from the same gang as ben.

    that night, i was with a few close friends just enjoying a tower of beer which we shared, and there was this guy(qing han) that came up to our table and asked me if he could have my number.

    i thought to myself, why not? i was single anyway.. so i gave him and he said that he’ll call me.

    about half an hour later, he came over again.. asking me if i wanted to head outside for a smoke break tgt. i was like, okay?

    so we headed outside and got to know each other better.. in the subsequent weeks, he also asked me out almost every other day and we ended up in a relationship about a month later.

    one fine day, he asked me out like usual to club with his friends/gang mates.

    so i agreed and tagged along.. he wanted me to dress up because he’ll be introducing me to his clique that night.

    so i decided to wear a floral bustier and a mini bandage skirt with compliments of a sexy pair of satin lace lingerie underneath.

    i turned up at the club at around 11pm, frantically looking for qing han as it was really dark and i couldnt find him at all.

    upon locating him, he introduced me to his friends.. things were awkward because i didnt know them so i just danced with qing han.. the night ended normally and nothing happened.

    a few days later, qing han convinced me to join his gang. and i went through the rituals and stuff accordingly as how every new member would need to.

    witnessing the entire ritual was his gang’s heads and senior members, which was a first for me. because i never join before, not even during sec school.

    so after the ritual was over, qing han went to buy drinks and ciggs will i stayed at their place for awhile. while waiting for him to come back, one of his heads came over to talk to me, and explained the fundamentals of being in their gang, their history, the perks, the cons, and everything about it.

    one day that qing han didnt explain to me prior to that day was the fact that new female members of the gang had to do it with the heads as a form as respect, or a form of dedication to the gang.

    it was like an exchange where they would offer us protection and stuff like that while we offered such services. and i was not as exception even though i had a bf..

    to be continued..

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    Chapter #15

    with that being said, i was then led to a room. it was just a normal bedroom in a 4 room flat which belonged to them, they rented it for regular meetings or stuff like that.

    as i anxiously wait for qing han to come back, i gave him a call and told him about it..

    me: dear..

    qh: ya?

    me: u never tell me about something ah? ah lin say after ritual need to ..

    qh: aiya that one small thing ma .. every girl also same one

    me: but i was not prepared for it ..

    qh: nevermind u just tell them dont so rough ok?

    me: sigh ok..

    there was another girl with me also, and she was a year younger than me.. but she wasnt that worried or nervous, maybe she has been thru it before.?

    so we talked abit and introduced ourselves, her name was kitty.. quite fake ah? but well it was what she said she was called. so ya.

    so i told kitty that i was pretty nervous and stuff like that and she told me not to be nervous, it’d be over in awhile. ‘standard one’ <-

    then suddenly i heard the guys talking outside.. the log was something like that. something like that only k, not accurate, i cant really remember cos it was quite a few years ago.

    random guy A: tao eh, ready liao

    random guy B: ok.

    random guy C: tao eh, u want which one first?

    random guy B: i take the kitty first, she jin hot

    random guy C: ok then i take vivian first lor

    random guy B: ok.

    within seconds, 2 big huge men came in, one was their leader, one was their gina tao(junior head).

    both were covered in tattoos and they were at least 40 odd years old and 80kg i guess? i could feel my stomach churning from the fear, the hair on my arms also stood..

    so they walked over and asked us if we know the rules and if we know what we were supposed to do.. and we said ya.. we know..

    the leader’s name was P and the other guy was T.

    as P went over to kitty, T was still smoking.. so i waited till T smoke finish first.. P didnt hesitate or anything, it was quite shocking.. he just went over and started to kiss kitty while pulling down her tube and skinnies, kitty was quite wet by then.. so he wore a condom and started to fuck her in missionary.

    T was also done by then, he came over and started fondling with my breasts.. pulled my spag top aside and started to lick me.. i was turned on, and things escalated and he was soon fucking me in missionary as well..

    while he was fucking me.. the other single bed was jerking furiously as P was hitting climax with kitty..about a few minutes later, P cummed into the condom and went to the side to rest, T then hinted me to change to doggy.. i wanted it to end soon.. so i just obediently listened to him.. after about 10minutes of doggy, he cummed too.. i was sweating heavily .. the 4 of us then rested for awhile before the second round started..

    it was P’s turn now.. he told me to lie down and spread my legs while he capped on and slowly penetrated me.. it was a hard scene to watch, he wasn’t really the most handsome guy or muscular guy i’ve done it with.. so i just closed my eyes while he did his thing..

    his dick was a little bigger then raymond’s and i could feel the stretch of my vagina again..

    inch by inch, he inserted it into me and once the entire dick was in me, he started to fuck.

    about 5minutes later, he increased his speed and strength.

    i could feel my vagina literally tearing apart.. i also realized that tears were falling down my cheeks .. it was painful and awful.. but it wasnt any longer before he finally gave me a last thrust and cummed inside the condom.

    it was finally over for me.

    but i was looking at the other side for kitty.. T asked her to blow him until he came.. and that was what she did.

    i lied on the bed while waiting for qing han..in the meanwhile, also talking to kitty about the experience..

    i could see, from the corner of my eyes that kitty’s vagina was already bleeding, it must be because of P.. she was so much petite than i was..

    soon later, qing han came in and he wore my clothes back for me and i went home to rest.

    while resting, i thought to myself.. was that a start of my sexual life?

    were girls only meant to provide such sexual favors to guys like that?

    many thoughts ran through my mind..

    to be continued..

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    Chapter #16

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    Tai_zi21

    Enjoy ur stories ah lian vivi! Keep it up

    now not ahlian already laaaaa x.x

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    Chapter #17

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    Dzakomo

    I was shocked to read your last post. Nice, are you guys sure? It is

    RAPE

    ok? Im sorry to say this, but you have been sexually abused and betrayed by your ‘boyfriend’. This is not normal. All my good brothers who used to be inside don’t do such things.

    nahhh.. its all in the past.. we agreed to it voluntarily.

    my bf also didnt have much of a choice at that time

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    Chapter #18

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    Cayden

    Support you Vivi sis! You’re really pretty from your pic

    Cheers!

    ty for the compliment

    ty everyone for the points too

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    Chapter #19

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    onlyhuman

    Nice story! But I din know at this era still have rituals for joining gangs..unlike the gd old times

    for clarification, this didnt happen just recently only.

    it happened quite a few years ago

    thanks everyone for th points

    that’s very kind of you guys..

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    Chapter #20

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    MissVivi

    i dont think i’ll be planning to tell him about it yet, so here’s my first hand account of my tale.

    Sis. MissVivi, is it really safe to have yourself in the avatar

    Secret societies, it involves a great deal of fear within courage. Those were the days.

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