Fifteen

I hugged her close, feeling her tight body against mine.

I felt an erection stirring, as I imagined her the level of unwillingness she must be feeling at that moment.

She must be feeling guilty, she must have felt helpless and sad, lost in fact.

Mindfucked that her boyfriend had to start selling his investments to get her out of the mess she created.

And everything would be solved if she was willing to sleep with Beng Soon.

Just sleep with that disgusting fat contractor, and everything would be over…

I sent Cidney back at 8pm and told her to have a good rest and not think about anything else.

1st April 2011

Sunday

I woke up at 9am and I was trying to put everything into perspective.

Cidney’s family background was pretty good but even so, 70k in SGD is a lot of money in Thai Baht.

There was the possibility of her getting her family to help, it was a gamble.

If she really did, I could pocket the money together with Beng Soon.

I doubt she would tell her family about this since she was so adamant about not joining the family business, she took the plunge and came Singapore to work.

She wanted to be independent.

I called Beng Soon and we briefly discussed the plans, at the same time I told him that to make sure the shophouses would be completed on time.

2nd April 2011

Monday

The whole day I was waiting for a suitable moment to carry out one critical part of my plan. The moment came only after lunch when I saw Cidney heading to the bathroom and Auntie May falling in step behind her.

I quickly dropped everything I was doing and followed close behind.

Since there was only one cubicle, Auntie May had to wait for her turn.

I made sure no one was around and I approached Auntie May.

James : Eh Auntie May… I need to talk to you…

Auntie May : Yah ?

I lowered my voice a little but made sure it was audible enough for Cidney to hear me.

James : Do you think I can advance my pay this month ?

Auntie May said I’ll need to speak to Selene as she could not make the decision.

She asked if everything was ok and I told her I just needed some extra cash for some personal matter.

I thanked her and left.

5.30pm

Cidney dropped me a message, asking me to meet her at the coffee shop near our office.

I hurried over and asked her if she was ok.

She told me that Beng Soon was still not returning her call and she was pretty worried about it

Cidney : What can we do ?

There was a frown on her face and there was a worried look of desperation, she still looked good and she was wearing a dress that day.

Her hands held on nervously to the hem of her dress, everytime she spoke, she subconsciously tried to pull her skirt lower, covering her exposed thighs.

James : Let me try to contact Beng Soon…. Don’t worry… I’ll sort this out.

Cidney: James… I need to talk to you ….

James : yah ? What is it ?

Cidney : I……. I don’t know…. Do you…… think….

I stopped her before she could say anything else.

James : Stop it…. Don’t say a word.

I gave her a hug and kissed her on her cheeks.

I got Cidney to go back to the office and instead of calling Beng Soon, I called the client of the shophouse and did some catching up.

We were not exactly close, I can’t possibly be close friends with everyone but we can be considered as good acquaintance.

James : Boss… when are you free ? I buy you dinner la. Haha

We chatted for a while and I updated him on the project, the last time he went down was 2 weeks ago.

I asked casually about Cidney and he said she was pretty good in her work, always made sure to followup on issues and always kept him in the loop.

After the initial pleasantries, I decided to drop another bomb on Cidney.

I told the client that everything was progressing well and if he was free, he could drop by on Friday to take a look, I could buy him coffee too.

He agreed and I told him that I’ll inform Cidney to make the arrangements.

6.30pm

I went up to the office and signaled Cidney that I needed to talk to her.

I texted Beng Soon, asking him to call me in exactly 5 minutes.

We went into the storage area and I told her that I took so long because the client called.

James : He happened to call and we chatted, he wanted to drop by the site today but I managed to push it back till Friday.

I told her it was the best I could do .

I could see the look of resignation in her eyes as she started to tear up.

I hugged her, speaking at the same time.

James : It’s ok…. It’s ok…. Let me think….. I’m sure we could think of something….

We were both quiet for a while and I could feel Cidney pressing herself hard against my body.

I was worried someone might come in but thankfully no one did.

My phone rang and it broke Cidney from my embrace.

I slowly held up the phone and showed Cidney the caller.

I could see she was nervous, her hands went to her side, like a nervous pupil waiting for her fate after her exams, she was playing with the hem of her dress again.

Her toes seemed to be angled inwards, facing each other.

She was shivering a little I answered the call.

James : hello….

Beng Soon just kept quiet as he knew it had to be one of my acts.

James : Yah…. Beng Soon.. can we settle it at 35k ? I need time to raise the ……..

I stopped short and hung up the phone, shaking my head and making it seem as if Beng soon hung up on me.

Cidney dried her tears and I told her not to worry.

James : I’ll call up some friends…. I have friends…. They can help…

I quickly left the room and went across the road to have a coffee.

7.30pm

I got back into office with a dejected look.

Cidney came over to my seat but I said nothing and buried my face into my hands.

8.40pm

James : This is it.. let’s just tell Selene. I’m sure we could…..

The office was already empty, everyone had left, leaving only Cidney and me in the office.

Cidney slowly lifted my hands and making space for her small frame, settling down slowing on my lap.

I hugged her from behind, smelling her dress, pressing my face hard and deep onto her bra strap, feeling the brush of the fabric from behind.

We were both quiet and when Cidney spoke, I had to adjust my erection really badly because it was hurting.

Cidney: Do you love me James…

James : Of course… .. I won’t let you do it…no way… I’m not having this discussion.

She got up and hugged me again before telling me that it’s late.

Cidney : Let’s think about this tomorrow. Let’s go for dinner.

I nodded and we packed up and left the office.

Cidney seemed listless and distracted during dinner, I excused myself to the washroom after dessert was served and I almost dropped my phone into the sink when it suddenly rang.

It was Beng Soon.

Beng Soon : Brother !!! Brother !!!…… she said yes…. She said yes….

I was dumbfounded for a moment and I asked.

James : what do you mean ?

Beng Soon sounded out of breath, almost like he just ran a marathon.

Beng Soon : Cidney…. Cidney texted me…

I had to hold on to the sink for support as the gravity of the situation sank in.

I could feel my erected dick press and push against my pants in the bathroom.

I could feel my heart rate increase.

I was feeling a little giddy.

My girlfriend, the woman I love, had just texted a fat disgusting contractor agreeing to sleep with him.

It was fucked up.

Yet I was so fucking aroused.

Aroused and excited that her small tight body would soon get violated by someone she did not like.

James : What… what did she say ?

Beng Soon : She sent me 2 message.

I was trying hard to regulate my breathing and I asked.

James : Tell….tell me…

Beng Soon : I’ll forward you the messages.

I waited 30 seconds before i got 2 beeps.

First message was just an “ok”

Second message was " James, must not know… "

I took a deep breath and kept my phone

I left the bathroom after my erection wore off and I took the seat opposite Cidney.

She looked normal, she looked calm in fact, her face betraying no traces of her impending betrayal.

I was feeling excited, knowing the woman that loves me so much was struggling with her thoughts, thinking about her latest decision to willingly give up her body to another man.

I settled the bill and we left the restaurant.

I held Cidney’s hands, feeling her fingers intertwined with mine.

Right before we parted, Cidney suddenly blurted out.

Cidney : James…. i love you… i really do.

I smiled and touched her face….

James : i know….. i know…

I got home around 11pm and I had a long hot shower.

I was trying to wrap my mind around the whole situation and was playing out the scenes visually in my sick mind.

My brain must be truly broken beyond repair, the realization of Cidney’s attempt to keep me in the dark about the arrangements sent a tickling sensation down my spine.

I could not imagine how she was going to fall asleep that evening.

Would she dream of Beng Soon ?

Would she dream of betraying me ?

I would never know.

11.40pm

I called Beng soon and we began discussing the plan.

He actually had no idea how to go about doing it.

This was something he admitted upfront.

Beng Soon : Brother, I really don’t know what to do.

I don’t blame him.

Often we would just play scenarios like this out in our mind, keeping it stashed deep within our sick perverted world.

When the time comes when you actually get to blackmail a girl to sleep with you, it’s only natural that you felt a little lost.

I too felt a little lost even though I had a constant hard on thinking about it.

There were a thousand questions on my mind, things like locations, time, how to do it, where to meet up ?

Is it going to be a fuck and go ?

Is it going to be just once ?

Is it going to be an entire night ?

So many questions and nobody could answer them.

I tried to bring things down to really the basic level and analysed it with logic.

Just pure logic, leave sick fantasies out of the picture.

I came to the conclusion that although the anticipation to the actual event would already give us a mental orgasm, the actual session itself might turn out to be a disappointment .

Allow me to explain why.

First, Cidney is going to be an unwilling participant.

There will be no GFE, there will be no body rub, there will be no ‘ showering together’.

Nothing.

None of these.

My girlfriend may love sex but she is not a cheap slut and I definitely do not expect her to behave that way.

Second.

I seriously doubt Cidney would be conscious of her dressing. I put myself in her shoes and if I were going to sleep with someone I hated, I would not bother dressing up.

Why would I do it ?

You seriously think you can blackmail a girl to sleep with you and expect her to turn up dressed for a wedding ? She would probably turn up in jeans and a t-shirt.

I was sure Cidney would be dressed as plain as possible, probably even without makeup.

Why would she want to look good for Beng Soon ?

Lastly, pure logic dictates that Cidney would want the session to be over as fast as possible.

Don’t expect any fancy positions, don’t expect spontaneous moaning and screams. She is not a porn star and it had to be a torturous period for her.

Imagine allowing a filthy contractor to kiss you, to smell your sweet tight body, to allow his rough hands to carass you.

Imagine allowing his filthy disgusting dick to enter your most private sanctum.

Will Cidney feel dirty ?

Will she feel used ?

I asked myself these questions and the throbbing in my erected dick got to a level where I needed to just stop thinking.

I have never felt so aroused before in my life.

Perhaps it was the conscious decision for Cidney to offer her body to Beng soon, or perhaps it was just my sick mind. I don’t know.

I hung up on Beng Soon after a while when I told him I needed to think.

I went to the mirror where I got dressed and just looked at my reflection.

It was then I was hit by the most vile thoughts ever.

I came to the conclusion that it was probably going to be a one off event so I wanted to make it worth every minute of it.

I called Beng Soon again, giving him specific instructions to Cidney.

I told him to let Cidney know first thing in the morning that it’s going to happen within that week but don’t tell her the exact day.

Beng Soon asked if he needs to book a room.

James : No. No need

Beng Soon : Ok.

I told Beng Soon that we should quickly do it before she had too much time to think about it and change her mind.

James : We would do it on Wednesday evening, but tell her it’s going to be tomorrow evening.

Beng Soon : Why ?

James : Just do it. I’ll explain later.

It was strangely arousing to fuck with her mind, letting her think that one of the days that week she would need to sleep with a fat contractor which she hated.

She will not know when… she will never find out where…. All she could do was wait.

Like a wind up doll, I wanted to keep turning the key over and over. I really wondered how wound up Cidney could get.

Imagine the amount of tension and anticipation packed into her small petite body. She won’t know what to expect, she can’t get ready.

It’s going to be just a moment’s notice and that was it.

That sudden realization in that instance that she was going to allow Beng Soon to penetrate her wet love hole.

Correction, her love hole would probably be dry.

As the pieces started falling together, I laughed to myself in the dark room.

It was moments like this when I hate myself.

Tuesday

8am

Beng Soon dropped me a message, telling me that he had dropped Cidney a message to meet at 7pm.

9.15am

I bought breakfast for Cidney, getting her favourite egg muffin from a fastfood restaurant. I got in and as expected, I saw Cidney in a modest blouse and jeans.

She did not wear any nice heels nor did she bother with putting on much makeup.

She looked really casual and dressed down, something she would usually reserve for a weekend.

She wore an old pair of flats too, I was beginning to suspect she would want to throw or in fact burn her set of clothings after meeting Beng Soon.

She must find it hard to live with the fact that she had to wear back the same set of clothes Beng Soon laid his hands on.

I passed her the muffin and gave her a quick kiss when no one was at the pantry and got back to work.

12pm

I dropped Cidney a mail and told her that I managed to get some help from my friends, I would be able to raise the money in a couple of days.

Cidney did not reply my mail.

1.00pm

I went out for lunch with Cidney and I could see her mind was somewhere else. She was probably thinking about where she was meeting Beng Soon.

Would it be a hotel ?

Would it be his car ?

Would it be painful ?

Would she cry ?

I had to repeat a couple of my casual remarks and questions before she answered them and she kept reassuring me that she was fine, just a little tired.

3.00pm

I arranged for Beng Soon to show me the shophouse and was satisfied that almost everything was rectified.

Beng Soon : So James… where are we going to do it ?

I gestured to the level we are standing on and Beng Soon burst out laughing.

Beng Soon : Are you fucking serious ? haha

James : We’re building a hostel are we not ? There’s bathroom, there’s aircon. Everything you need is here.

Beng Soon : But no beds ?

I waved him off and told him that he got to be dreaming if he expected Cidney to be lying comfortably on a bed and allowing him to have his way with her.

Beng Soon : Then how ? What am I suppose to do ?

I told him that it’s only natural that Cidney would resists.

It’s only natural she would be difficult.

She was an unwilling participant after all.

Beng Soon nodded, digesting the words I just said.

Beng Soon : Now that you mentioned it, it all makes sense.

4.30pm

I got back into office and carried on with my work

From 5 pm till 6 pm , I must have seen Cidney visit the bathroom like 5-6 times.

She kept refilling her water mug, no doubt feeling nervous and lost about her impending ordeal.

I called her at 6pm sharp, asking her out for dinner but she said she was not feeling well.

Cidney : Sorry dear.. i…. I want to go back and rest.

I offered to send her back but she declined.

I told her to give me a call when she gets back and Cidney left the office at 6.10pm

6.45pm

Beng Soon dropped me a message, telling me that he just informed Cidney that the arrangement is off.

She pestered him for the confirmed time and date but he did not reply her.

I felt the familiar rise in my pants and had to control myself when I brought in a stack of documents into Selene’s room for discussion.

7.30pm

Cidney dropped me a message, saying she’s back home.

10pm

I called Cidney and chatted with her. We talk well into the night, and I broached the subject of a short holiday, just to get away from everything and she was excited.

11.15pm

I told her that I know of this really nice place for dinner and I wanted her to dress up for work the next day since that place has a dress code.

James : They turn you away if you turn up in jeans

Cidney : Really ? … must be quite expensive..

James : Not really, there’s some promotion going on with certain credit cards.

As we chatted further and later, I got a little naughty and naturally we talked about sex.

I pretended to be guilty, telling her that I crave for her touch even though I knew she was not in the best of mood.

She was apologetic and she promised to be extra nice to me after everything is over. She just needed some time to sort out her thoughts and emotions.

James : It’s ok, I’m sorry…… a relationship should not be just about sex……. I love you..

Cidney : I love you too….

I took the opportunity to ask her to wear something nice underneath her clothes for the next day. She was a little resistant but I told her that since she’s already dressing up for dinner the next day, might as well go all the way.

She finally agreed and I dropped hints that I want to sneak some peeks in case I could not resist seeing her dressing and she laughed.

Wednesday.

9.10am

When Cidney entered office that morning, I instantly felt my morning erection push against my pants.

She had on this cream coloured dress that stopped just shy of her kneecaps.

It was a sleeveless piece and it showed off her slender arms and shoulders proudly.

I could see the slightest imprint of a familiar bra that I remembered taking off her so many times in the pass.

It was a pretty tight fit and even though she wore seamless panty, I knew where to look and I could see just the tiniest hint of her seamless boyshorts.

A pair of off white heels with a really light purple swirls completed her look that beautiful Wednesday morning.

Initially she looked a little worried and uncomfortable in the morning. She must be worried that Beng Soon would suddenly call and demanded to meet her.

The only correspondence from Beng Soon that morning was a general mail informing everyone that the work at the shophouses were a little behind schedule and that he would be putting in extra manpower to make sure it completes on time.

As the day progresses, Cidney seemed a little more relaxed, each hour without Beng Soon’s call drew her closer to the end of the day.

Drawing her closer to her dinner with me.

An evening with the man she loves.

When the clock hit 5.30pm , I saw Cidney chatting with Selene in the pantry and she looked relaxed and peaceful.

If only she knew what awaits her in a few hours time.

6.00pm

I signaled to Cidney to pack up and get ready to leave.

I could see the look of relieve in her eyes, she seemed genuinely at peace, perhaps she had managed to just put Beng Soon out of her mind for just that instances.

6.10pm

I excused myself to the bathroom as I watch Cidney adjust her dress and Sarah coming over to comment on her heels.

Girls’ talk.

6.15pm

I hit the sent button the same time I flushed the toilet bowl, sending out a message to Beng Soon.

I walked over slowly towards Cidney as she chatted with Sarah.

Sue and Auntie May joined the conversation when I was in the bathroom.

When I got closer about 5 metres away, Sarah said her goodbye and gave me a wink before walking pass.

I got a few paces closer at 4 metres;

Auntie May ran her palm down Cidney’s back, commenting on her nice figure before heading off to the pantry.

I closed up the last few steps, leaving only 3 metres between Cidney and me

Sue helped Cidney tie up her hair into a bun with this new hair tie gadget that allows multiple styles, bringing out a different look from my girlfriend before asking us to enjoy our date.

I covered the remaining distant with a few good strides and Cidney’s phone rang.

I almost came in my pants when I saw the change in her expression the moment she looked at her phone.

I pretended to wave to a colleague behind her and i gestured for her to take the call first.

I saw her slowly bringing the phone up to her ear before walking to a quiet corner of the office.

I settled down on her seat and flipped though a magazine.

From the corner of my eye, i saw Cidney hang up the phone but she remained in the corner for a second longer.

I gave Beng Soon instructions to insist on meeting that evening at 7pm and get it over and done with. It’s either that or no deal.

Beng Soon would have told her that it’s going to be a quick one since he was busy, it should not take long.

Whatever reason she gave would be of no concern to Beng Soon. He must insist.

Cidney had no choice.

As she slowly closed the distance between us, my mind wondered about 2 things.

One, what reason would she give for excusing herself for a while.

Two, what would it like having dinner, holding hands, carassing her body, hugging her close knowing that my girlfriend had just been penetrated by a fat disgusting contractor.

I got home around 11pm and I had a long hot shower.

I was trying to wrap my mind around the whole situation and was playing out the scenes visually in my sick mind.

My brain must be truly broken beyond repair, the realization of Cidney’s attempt to keep me in the dark about the arrangements sent a tickling sensation down my spine.

I could not imagine how she was going to fall asleep that evening.

Would she dream of Beng Soon ?

Would she dream of betraying me ?

I would never know.

11.40pm

I called Beng soon and we began discussing the plan.

He actually had no idea how to go about doing it.

This was something he admitted upfront.

Beng Soon : Brother, I really don’t know what to do.

I don’t blame him.

Often we would just play scenarios like this out in our mind, keeping it stashed deep within our sick perverted world.

When the time comes when you actually get to blackmail a girl to sleep with you, it’s only natural that you felt a little lost.

I too felt a little lost even though I had a constant hard on thinking about it.

There were a thousand questions on my mind, things like locations, time, how to do it, where to meet up ?

Is it going to be a fuck and go ?

Is it going to be just once ?

Is it going to be an entire night ?

So many questions and nobody could answer them.

I tried to bring things down to really the basic level and analysed it with logic.

Just pure logic, leave sick fantasies out of the picture.

I came to the conclusion that although the anticipation to the actual event would already give us a mental orgasm, the actual session itself might turn out to be a disappointment .

Allow me to explain why.

First, Cidney is going to be an unwilling participant.

There will be no GFE, there will be no body rub, there will be no ‘ showering together’.

Nothing.

None of these.

My girlfriend may love sex but she is not a cheap slut and I definitely do not expect her to behave that way.

Second.

I seriously doubt Cidney would be conscious of her dressing. I put myself in her shoes and if I were going to sleep with someone I hated, I would not bother dressing up.

Why would I do it ?

You seriously think you can blackmail a girl to sleep with you and expect her to turn up dressed for a wedding ? She would probably turn up in jeans and a t-shirt.

I was sure Cidney would be dressed as plain as possible, probably even without makeup.

Why would she want to look good for Beng Soon ?

Lastly, pure logic dictates that Cidney would want the session to be over as fast as possible.

Don’t expect any fancy positions, don’t expect spontaneous moaning and screams. She is not a porn star and it had to be a torturous period for her.

Imagine allowing a filthy contractor to kiss you, to smell your sweet tight body, to allow his rough hands to carass you.

Imagine allowing his filthy disgusting dick to enter your most private sanctum.

Will Cidney feel dirty ?

Will she feel used ?

I asked myself these questions and the throbbing in my erected dick got to a level where I needed to just stop thinking.

I have never felt so aroused before in my life.

Perhaps it was the conscious decision for Cidney to offer her body to Beng soon, or perhaps it was just my sick mind. I don’t know.

I hung up on Beng Soon after a while when I told him I needed to think.

I went to the mirror where I got dressed and just looked at my reflection.

It was then I was hit by the most vile thoughts ever.

I came to the conclusion that it was probably going to be a one off event so I wanted to make it worth every minute of it.

I called Beng Soon again, giving him specific instructions to Cidney.

I told him to let Cidney know first thing in the morning that it’s going to happen within that week but don’t tell her the exact day.

Beng Soon asked if he needs to book a room.

James : No. No need

Beng Soon : Ok.

I told Beng Soon that we should quickly do it before she had too much time to think about it and change her mind.

James : We would do it on Wednesday evening, but tell her it’s going to be tomorrow evening.

Beng Soon : Why ?

James : Just do it. I’ll explain later.

It was strangely arousing to fuck with her mind, letting her think that one of the days that week she would need to sleep with a fat contractor which she hated.

She will not know when… she will never find out where…. All she could do was wait.

Like a wind up doll, I wanted to keep turning the key over and over. I really wondered how wound up Cidney could get.

Imagine the amount of tension and anticipation packed into her small petite body. She won’t know what to expect, she can’t get ready.

It’s going to be just a moment’s notice and that was it.

That sudden realization in that instance that she was going to allow Beng Soon to penetrate her wet love hole.

Correction, her love hole would probably be dry.

As the pieces started falling together, I laughed to myself in the dark room.

It was moments like this when I hate myself.

Tuesday

8am

Beng Soon dropped me a message, telling me that he had dropped Cidney a message to meet at 7pm.

9.15am

I bought breakfast for Cidney, getting her favourite egg muffin from a fastfood restaurant. I got in and as expected, I saw Cidney in a modest blouse and jeans.

She did not wear any nice heels nor did she bother with putting on much makeup.

She looked really casual and dressed down, something she would usually reserve for a weekend.

She wore an old pair of flats too, I was beginning to suspect she would want to throw or in fact burn her set of clothings after meeting Beng Soon.

She must find it hard to live with the fact that she had to wear back the same set of clothes Beng Soon laid his hands on.

I passed her the muffin and gave her a quick kiss when no one was at the pantry and got back to work.

12pm

I dropped Cidney a mail and told her that I managed to get some help from my friends, I would be able to raise the money in a couple of days.

Cidney did not reply my mail.

1.00pm

I went out for lunch with Cidney and I could see her mind was somewhere else. She was probably thinking about where she was meeting Beng Soon.

Would it be a hotel ?

Would it be his car ?

Would it be painful ?

Would she cry ?

I had to repeat a couple of my casual remarks and questions before she answered them and she kept reassuring me that she was fine, just a little tired.

3.00pm

I arranged for Beng Soon to show me the shophouse and was satisfied that almost everything was rectified.

Beng Soon : So James… where are we going to do it ?

I gestured to the level we are standing on and Beng Soon burst out laughing.

Beng Soon : Are you fucking serious ? haha

James : We’re building a hostel are we not ? There’s bathroom, there’s aircon. Everything you need is here.

Beng Soon : But no beds ?

I waved him off and told him that he got to be dreaming if he expected Cidney to be lying comfortably on a bed and allowing him to have his way with her.

Beng Soon : Then how ? What am I suppose to do ?

I told him that it’s only natural that Cidney would resists.

It’s only natural she would be difficult.

She was an unwilling participant after all.

Beng Soon nodded, digesting the words I just said.

Beng Soon : Now that you mentioned it, it all makes sense.

4.30pm

I got back into office and carried on with my work

From 5 pm till 6 pm , I must have seen Cidney visit the bathroom like 5-6 times.

She kept refilling her water mug, no doubt feeling nervous and lost about her impending ordeal.

I called her at 6pm sharp, asking her out for dinner but she said she was not feeling well.

Cidney : Sorry dear.. i…. I want to go back and rest.

I offered to send her back but she declined.

I told her to give me a call when she gets back and Cidney left the office at 6.10pm

6.45pm

Beng Soon dropped me a message, telling me that he just informed Cidney that the arrangement is off.

She pestered him for the confirmed time and date but he did not reply her.

I felt the familiar rise in my pants and had to control myself when I brought in a stack of documents into Selene’s room for discussion.

7.30pm

Cidney dropped me a message, saying she’s back home.

10pm

I called Cidney and chatted with her. We talk well into the night, and I broached the subject of a short holiday, just to get away from everything and she was excited.

11.15pm

I told her that I know of this really nice place for dinner and I wanted her to dress up for work the next day since that place has a dress code.

James : They turn you away if you turn up in jeans

Cidney : Really ? … must be quite expensive..

James : Not really, there’s some promotion going on with certain credit cards.

As we chatted further and later, I got a little naughty and naturally we talked about sex.

I pretended to be guilty, telling her that I crave for her touch even though I knew she was not in the best of mood.

She was apologetic and she promised to be extra nice to me after everything is over. She just needed some time to sort out her thoughts and emotions.

James : It’s ok, I’m sorry…… a relationship should not be just about sex……. I love you..

Cidney : I love you too….

I took the opportunity to ask her to wear something nice underneath her clothes for the next day. She was a little resistant but I told her that since she’s already dressing up for dinner the next day, might as well go all the way.

She finally agreed and I dropped hints that I want to sneak some peeks in case I could not resist seeing her dressing and she laughed.

Wednesday.

9.10am

When Cidney entered office that morning, I instantly felt my morning erection push against my pants.

She had on this cream coloured dress that stopped just shy of her kneecaps.

It was a sleeveless piece and it showed off her slender arms and shoulders proudly.

I could see the slightest imprint of a familiar bra that I remembered taking off her so many times in the pass.

It was a pretty tight fit and even though she wore seamless panty, I knew where to look and I could see just the tiniest hint of her seamless boyshorts.

A pair of off white heels with a really light purple swirls completed her look that beautiful Wednesday morning.

Initially she looked a little worried and uncomfortable in the morning. She must be worried that Beng Soon would suddenly call and demanded to meet her.

The only correspondence from Beng Soon that morning was a general mail informing everyone that the work at the shophouses were a little behind schedule and that he would be putting in extra manpower to make sure it completes on time.

As the day progresses, Cidney seemed a little more relaxed, each hour without Beng Soon’s call drew her closer to the end of the day.

Drawing her closer to her dinner with me.

An evening with the man she loves.

When the clock hit 5.30pm , I saw Cidney chatting with Selene in the pantry and she looked relaxed and peaceful.

If only she knew what awaits her in a few hours time.

6.00pm

I signaled to Cidney to pack up and get ready to leave.

I could see the look of relieve in her eyes, she seemed genuinely at peace, perhaps she had managed to just put Beng Soon out of her mind for just that instances.

6.10pm

I excused myself to the bathroom as I watch Cidney adjust her dress and Sarah coming over to comment on her heels.

Girls’ talk.

6.15pm

I hit the sent button the same time I flushed the toilet bowl, sending out a message to Beng Soon.

I walked over slowly towards Cidney as she chatted with Sarah.

Sue and Auntie May joined the conversation when I was in the bathroom.

When I got closer about 5 metres away, Sarah said her goodbye and gave me a wink before walking pass.

I got a few paces closer at 4 metres;

Auntie May ran her palm down Cidney’s back, commenting on her nice figure before heading off to the pantry.

I closed up the last few steps, leaving only 3 metres between Cidney and me

Sue helped Cidney tie up her hair into a bun with this new hair tie gadget that allows multiple styles, bringing out a different look from my girlfriend before asking us to enjoy our date.

I covered the remaining distant with a few good strides and Cidney’s phone rang.

I almost came in my pants when I saw the change in her expression the moment she looked at her phone.

I pretended to wave to a colleague behind her and i gestured for her to take the call first.

I saw her slowly bringing the phone up to her ear before walking to a quiet corner of the office.

I settled down on her seat and flipped though a magazine.

From the corner of my eye, i saw Cidney hang up the phone but she remained in the corner for a second longer.

I gave Beng Soon instructions to insist on meeting that evening at 7pm and get it over and done with. It’s either that or no deal.

Beng Soon would have told her that it’s going to be a quick one since he was busy, it should not take long.

Whatever reason she gave would be of no concern to Beng Soon. He must insist.

Cidney had no choice.

As she slowly closed the distance between us, my mind wondered about 2 things.

One, what reason would she give for excusing herself for a while.

Two, what would it like having dinner, holding hands, carassing her body, hugging her close knowing that my girlfriend had just been penetrated by a fat disgusting contractor.

Cidney was standing right in front of me within seconds and I could see a look of distress in her eyes.

James : Are you ok ? Are you not feeling well ?

She brushed a stray fringe behind her ears and she stumbled a little on the first 2 words but her sentence became smoother once she got her first words out.

Cidney : James… erm I ..er…. have a friend who just got her from Thailand, she needs some help communicating with her landlord. It’s quite urgent.

James : Oh…. Ok… where ?

She waved her hands infront of her petite body saying that it’s ok, she can manage it.

James : Okay… so…erm… you still want to have dinner ?

I must have given her such a lovelorn puppy eye look that she was lost and did not know how to reply me.

James : I could push back the reservations, they’re open till 10pm….

She looked a little unsure and checked her phone for the time.

James : It’s ok, tell you what, just go ahead, call me when you’re done ok ? I’ll push back the reservation for now.

Cidney : I’m… I’m sorry James… I’ll try to hurry.

James : It’s ok, I’ll just settle some of my work in the meantime.

I walked her to the exit and watched her heels click down the stairs.

It was a steep decent and with her heels on, Cidney had to angle her body slightly, taking side steps down the flight before landing on concrete ground.

Now Beng soon would have told her the meeting location in the initial phone call. It was 2 streets away from her project site, there were loads of small hotels in Chinatown and I guessed Cidney would have assumed that it would be there.

I waited for a couple of minutes before heading down the stairs and I could see the small figure of Cidney disappearing into the evening crowd a distance away.

I took the short walk to the shophouses and went straight for the back door.

6.45pm

Right when I was about to unlock the combination lock at the back door, Beng Soon dropped me a message.

Beng Soon sms : She’s here.

I replied.

James sms : I’m ready.

I entered the site and was pleased that Beng Soon had left the aircon on, turning the empty site into a mini chiller.

Cidney would no doubt feel cold.

The project was almost completed, it only lack some minor touchups and fittings before it’s good to go.

The floor seemed pretty clean too, Beng Soon must have gotten his guys to clean up the site earlier in the day.

I took off my leather shoes and chose to walk on my socks to keep the noise level to a minimum.

I made sure my phone alert was off, not even the vibration was spared.

With the whole area so empty, any noise would be amplified and there would be echo.

I went up to the 2nd level and I saw Beng soon had set up the area as I planned.

There were 3 rooms with their doors facing the small library area.

The one where Cidney had her bookshelf.

The shelves and the glass had been replaced and everything looks good as new.

The power of proper motivation…..

That would be the area where my girlfriend would be taken.

Now the 3 rooms were still empty save for some boxes of spare materials.

I knew which room I want to be in but there was a chance Cidney might just walk in and let the cat out of the bag.

I had thought of this well in advance and I chose one room which gave me a good view of the small library.

I turned on the lights for the library, flooding that spot with light like a stage.

I stood inside and looked at the spot where I want to hide, it looks good.

Just a blanket of darkness.

With the bright lights glaring down at the spot where Cidney would be, she would not be able to see me.

Beng Soon had placed a small sofa in the space too, it was backed against the glass wall.

I rearranged some boxes in the room and as an extra precaution, I moved a few boxes right to the entrance, stacking it to waist height.

I could not think of a reason where Cidney would want to climb over waist high boxes to get into an empty dark room.

It was dangerous, it felt thrilling, and it turned me on to know that I would get a good view of my pretty well dressed girlfriend getting fucked by Beng Soon.

I heard some loud tapping at the door and I quickly killed the lights in the library, plunging the whole space into darkness. I had to stumble a little to climb over the very boxes I stacked but I managed without making too much sound.

3 Minutes later, Beng Soon dropped me a message saying he’s across the road and he could see Cidney standing alone at the site.

I text him and told him I’m ready.

I checked the time.

7pm

There was some commotion on the ground floor and I could hear the door open, moments later it closed.

Then it was just silence.

Then there was the click of heels.

A couple of clicks on the timber floor.

No particular direction, just stationary I guess, unsure of where to go.

Then I heard Beng Soon’s voice.

Beng Soon : Upstairs.

I could feel the butterflies in my stomach.

I felt like peeing.

Then the clicking started again.

It got louder and nearer and I could see a small figure coming up the stairs.

It was such an enclosed space and for a moment I thought I could smell my girlfriend’s perfume.

Then when I saw her stopped right outside my door, I felt my balls shrink to it’s smallest yet my erection did not seem to get any smaller.

She was there for a couple of seconds but thankfully she was not looking into the room.

She was looking down the stairs watching Beng Soon head up.

There was not a word from Cidney and when I heard Beng Soon speak, I could tell he was nervous.

Beng Soon : Th… there… the… library.

Cidney was awfully quiet and she clicked her way over to the very spot which landed her in such a predicament.

As Beng soon walked pass my door, I saw him rubbing his palms on the side of his pants, wiping away the sweat.

I could tell he was nervous, at least until to the point where his animal instinct took over.

He turned on the lights for the small library and asked Cidney to go in.

Slowly with each step, I saw my girlfriend step into the brightly lit room. Her eyes squinted a little to adjust to the light.

She was holding on to her bag and she placed it on the shelves she designed.

I did not know if my eyes were playing tricks on my but I thought I caught a little shiver in her petite frame.

She did not turn around.

She did not move.

She just stood motionless, her hands infront of her body, her fingers clasped together.

She was right in front of the sofa and she seemed to be just staring down the flight of stairs, as if worried someone might come in at an untimely moment.

I saw Beng Soon slowly stepped into the light and I too was shivering where I stood.

I did not know if it was the cold or was it the excitement.

Here I was barely metres away watching my girlfriend about to get fucked and I was teeming with excitement.

Subconciously I unbuckled my pants and unzipped myself.

I saw Beng Soon closed the gap between Cidney and his huge body.

I released my swollen erected dick from my boxers and fought hard to control my breathing.

There was a moment of hesitation then it happened.

Without warning it just happened.

Beng Soon’s hands reached for both of Cidney’s shoulders, clamping down her petite frame with his huge rough hands.

It happened at the same time.

I saw Beng Soon pressed his nose to the right of Cidney’s neck and I saw the clenching of Cidney’s fist.

I had told Beng Soon to always focus on the other side of Cidney’s body and leave the side facing the doors clear so as to give me a good view.

Then I saw Beng Soon kneel down while Cidney remained standing.

Cidney was shivering more obviously and I could see her body was really tensed.

Beng Soon ‘s hands reached for the bottom of her tight dress, slowly lifting it up, revealing Cidney’s thighs underneath the bright light.

It came higher and higher until her entire butt was exposed.

Cidney’s hands was still clenched together as she kept her eyes forward and I could see she was already breathing with her mouth.

Then like a strike of lighting, Beng Soon pressed his face down, deep into the crack of Cidney’s tight bottom, nudging and smelling my girlfriend’s most private region.

The forward push knocked Cidney off balance a little and I could hear the click of her heels as she regained her footing with her palms pressing on the glass.

Beng Soon kept nudging with his nose and mouth, with each push and inhale of Cidney’s privates, Beng Soon nudged Cidney onto the sofa.

When Cidney finally knelt onto the small sofa , she turned her head to the left facing my direction and I froze.

It took a second or 2 before I calm myself down knowing that it’s so dark inside the room, there was no way she could see me.

The spot lights were shining pretty targeted cones, there was very little spillage of lights to the surrounding areas.

Then Beng Soon stood up, struggling a little with some support of Cidney’s book shelf.

He unbuckled his pants, belt and all.

As he dropped his bundle of clothes down onto the floor with a thud, I saw Cidney’s eyelids flutter a little before it closed.

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hahaha… I just need to start interviewing local actress for Selene and Sarah and find a thai actress for Cidney.

James’ role should be given to a non-professional actor. Open audition for all eligible singaporean males.

Cidney was standing right in front of me within seconds and I could see a look of distress in her eyes.

James : Are you ok ? Are you not feeling well ?

She brushed a stray fringe behind her ears and she stumbled a little on the first 2 words but her sentence became smoother once she got her first words out.

Cidney : James… erm I ..er…. have a friend who just got her from Thailand, she needs some help communicating with her landlord. It’s quite urgent.

James : Oh…. Ok… where ?

She waved her hands infront of her petite body saying that it’s ok, she can manage it.

James : Okay… so…erm… you still want to have dinner ?

I must have given her such a lovelorn puppy eye look that she was lost and did not know how to reply me.

James : I could push back the reservations, they’re open till 10pm….

She looked a little unsure and checked her phone for the time.

James : It’s ok, tell you what, just go ahead, call me when you’re done ok ? I’ll push back the reservation for now.

Cidney : I’m… I’m sorry James… I’ll try to hurry.

James : It’s ok, I’ll just settle some of my work in the meantime.

I walked her to the exit and watched her heels click down the stairs.

It was a steep decent and with her heels on, Cidney had to angle her body slightly, taking side steps down the flight before landing on concrete ground.

Now Beng soon would have told her the meeting location in the initial phone call. It was 2 streets away from her project site, there were loads of small hotels in Chinatown and I guessed Cidney would have assumed that it would be there.

I waited for a couple of minutes before heading down the stairs and I could see the small figure of Cidney disappearing into the evening crowd a distance away.

I took the short walk to the shophouses and went straight for the back door.

6.45pm

Right when I was about to unlock the combination lock at the back door, Beng Soon dropped me a message.

Beng Soon sms : She’s here.

I replied.

James sms : I’m ready.

I entered the site and was pleased that Beng Soon had left the aircon on, turning the empty site into a mini chiller.

Cidney would no doubt feel cold.

The project was almost completed, it only lack some minor touchups and fittings before it’s good to go.

The floor seemed pretty clean too, Beng Soon must have gotten his guys to clean up the site earlier in the day.

I took off my leather shoes and chose to walk on my socks to keep the noise level to a minimum.

I made sure my phone alert was off, not even the vibration was spared.

With the whole area so empty, any noise would be amplified and there would be echo.

I went up to the 2nd level and I saw Beng soon had set up the area as I planned.

There were 3 rooms with their doors facing the small library area.

The one where Cidney had her bookshelf.

The shelves and the glass had been replaced and everything looks good as new.

The power of proper motivation…..

That would be the area where my girlfriend would be taken.

Now the 3 rooms were still empty save for some boxes of spare materials.

I knew which room I want to be in but there was a chance Cidney might just walk in and let the cat out of the bag.

I had thought of this well in advance and I chose one room which gave me a good view of the small library.

I turned on the lights for the library, flooding that spot with light like a stage.

I stood inside and looked at the spot where I want to hide, it looks good.

Just a blanket of darkness.

With the bright lights glaring down at the spot where Cidney would be, she would not be able to see me.

Beng Soon had placed a small sofa in the space too, it was backed against the glass wall.

I rearranged some boxes in the room and as an extra precaution, I moved a few boxes right to the entrance, stacking it to waist height.

I could not think of a reason where Cidney would want to climb over waist high boxes to get into an empty dark room.

It was dangerous, it felt thrilling, and it turned me on to know that I would get a good view of my pretty well dressed girlfriend getting fucked by Beng Soon.

I heard some loud tapping at the door and I quickly killed the lights in the library, plunging the whole space into darkness. I had to stumble a little to climb over the very boxes I stacked but I managed without making too much sound.

3 Minutes later, Beng Soon dropped me a message saying he’s across the road and he could see Cidney standing alone at the site.

I text him and told him I’m ready.

I checked the time.

7pm

There was some commotion on the ground floor and I could hear the door open, moments later it closed.

Then it was just silence.

Then there was the click of heels.

A couple of clicks on the timber floor.

No particular direction, just stationary I guess, unsure of where to go.

Then I heard Beng Soon’s voice.

Beng Soon : Upstairs.

I could feel the butterflies in my stomach.

I felt like peeing.

Then the clicking started again.

It got louder and nearer and I could see a small figure coming up the stairs.

It was such an enclosed space and for a moment I thought I could smell my girlfriend’s perfume.

Then when I saw her stopped right outside my door, I felt my balls shrink to it’s smallest yet my erection did not seem to get any smaller.

She was there for a couple of seconds but thankfully she was not looking into the room.

She was looking down the stairs watching Beng Soon head up.

There was not a word from Cidney and when I heard Beng Soon speak, I could tell he was nervous.

Beng Soon : Th… there… the… library.

Cidney was awfully quiet and she clicked her way over to the very spot which landed her in such a predicament.

As Beng soon walked pass my door, I saw him rubbing his palms on the side of his pants, wiping away the sweat.

I could tell he was nervous, at least until to the point where his animal instinct took over.

He turned on the lights for the small library and asked Cidney to go in.

Slowly with each step, I saw my girlfriend step into the brightly lit room. Her eyes squinted a little to adjust to the light.

She was holding on to her bag and she placed it on the shelves she designed.

I did not know if my eyes were playing tricks on my but I thought I caught a little shiver in her petite frame.

She did not turn around.

She did not move.

She just stood motionless, her hands infront of her body, her fingers clasped together.

She was right in front of the sofa and she seemed to be just staring down the flight of stairs, as if worried someone might come in at an untimely moment.

I saw Beng Soon slowly stepped into the light and I too was shivering where I stood.

I did not know if it was the cold or was it the excitement.

Here I was barely metres away watching my girlfriend about to get fucked and I was teeming with excitement.

Subconciously I unbuckled my pants and unzipped myself.

I saw Beng Soon closed the gap between Cidney and his huge body.

I released my swollen erected dick from my boxers and fought hard to control my breathing.

There was a moment of hesitation then it happened.

Without warning it just happened.

Beng Soon’s hands reached for both of Cidney’s shoulders, clamping down her petite frame with his huge rough hands.

It happened at the same time.

I saw Beng Soon pressed his nose to the right of Cidney’s neck and I saw the clenching of Cidney’s fist.

I had told Beng Soon to always focus on the other side of Cidney’s body and leave the side facing the doors clear so as to give me a good view.

Then I saw Beng Soon kneel down while Cidney remained standing.

Cidney was shivering more obviously and I could see her body was really tensed.

Beng Soon ‘s hands reached for the bottom of her tight dress, slowly lifting it up, revealing Cidney’s thighs underneath the bright light.

It came higher and higher until her entire butt was exposed.

Cidney’s hands was still clenched together as she kept her eyes forward and I could see she was already breathing with her mouth.

Then like a strike of lighting, Beng Soon pressed his face down, deep into the crack of Cidney’s tight bottom, nudging and smelling my girlfriend’s most private region.

The forward push knocked Cidney off balance a little and I could hear the click of her heels as she regained her footing with her palms pressing on the glass.

Beng Soon kept nudging with his nose and mouth, with each push and inhale of Cidney’s privates, Beng Soon nudged Cidney onto the sofa.

When Cidney finally knelt onto the small sofa , she turned her head to the left facing my direction and I froze.

It took a second or 2 before I calm myself down knowing that it’s so dark inside the room, there was no way she could see me.

The spot lights were shining pretty targeted cones, there was very little spillage of lights to the surrounding areas.

Then Beng Soon stood up, struggling a little with some support of Cidney’s book shelf.

He unbuckled his pants, belt and all.

As he dropped his bundle of clothes down onto the floor with a thud, I saw Cidney’s eyelids flutter a little before it closed.

I saw Beng Soon cap himself and he was hovering clumsily near the bottom of Cidney’s privates.

He seemed to have some difficulty navigating himself as his legs had to support his huge frame while he was half squatting.

Cidney’s eyes remained tightly shut and I could not believe the scene playing in front of my eyes.

Beng Soon did not remove Cidney’s underwear, instead choosing to push it aside, revealing the sacred entry to her love hole.

I saw Cidney did something totally unexpected as she repositioned herself, bending a little more, offering a better access to Beng Soon.

I guess she wanted it to be over as soon as possible.

There was not sensual moans, no breathless gasp of air and I could just see Cidney bite down on her lips as Beng soon finally secured a positive entry.

Her mouth gasp opened for just a second and I assumed Beng Soon must have at least had the buldge of his dick head inside Cidney at that moment.

Cidney bit down on her lips as her body was rocked involuntarily by Beng Soon’s thrusting motion.

I could not tell if she was dry or not but Beng Soon still managed to gain an entry.

Her petite frame was rocked and smacked hard from the behind by Beng Soon and I could hear the loud slamming sound of their bottoms echoing out in the quiet shophouse.

Cidney’s hands had left the glass panels and were now clasping hard on the sofa.

Her hair was still in a nice bun and despite being rocked like a toy, she still looked pretty elegant and pretty.

Beng Soon stopped thrusting and got Cidney up, he turned her around, asking her to sit down on the sofa but the moment Cidney sat down, she stood up again, she seemed like she was refusing a position Beng Soon wanted.

There was some talking, fast hush whispers before Cidney held on to the glass panels and stepped onto the sofa with without her heels.

Beng Soon lifted up her dress which had fallen down and kissed Cidney on her privates, nudging and licking the very hole he had just fucked.

I was stroking myself a distance away, taking in the erotic scene.

The sight of my unwilling girlfriend in distress turned me on even more.

Barely a couple of minutes later, Cidney got down from the sofa and I checked the timing. It’s already been 20 minutes since everything started.

Beng Soon got Cidney to turn again, making her bent over with her heels on.

She supported her bent body on the sofa and Beng Soon parted her underwear again, easing himself in the 2nd time.

It did not look like he had much difficulty and he entered Cidney easily.

He built up a good momentum and I could see he was going for the finale.

The smacking was hard and when the sound of the thrusting got louder and louder, I saw her deep frown etched deeper and deeper into my girlfriend’s forehead.

Suddenly Beng Soon’s hands left Cidney’s waist and grabbed her small breasts, squeezing them and fondling them roughly as he gave out a loud moan, shivering his large frame of a body at the same time.

Beng Soon : Ahhh..ahg…. arghh…….

He was determined to milk himself dry inside Cidney as he held on tight, determined to let his throbbing dick pulse a few more times inside the sweet pussy of my girlfriend.

I could see Cidney was trying to disengage but Beng Soon grunted and held on, unwilling to leave the tight confines of her lovely vagina.

When he finally let go, Cidney collapsed as she lost her balance onto the sofa before getting up immediately.

She pulled her dress down as fast as she could and took her bag from the shelf and dashed off to the toilet at the end of the corridor.

My dick was stiff and hard from the excitement and I had difficulty putting it back into my pants.

I dressed up as quietly as I could and check the time.

So many days of preparation and everything was over in barely an hour.

This was reality, you just have to accept it.

If this was a jap porn scene, it would have dragged on forever.

Strangely though, I felt proud of Cidney.

I was proud that she was so brave to go through with it.

She spent quite a bit of time in the bathroom, no doubt washing herself clean of the filth that came in touch with her body which was once pure and sacred.

It had been violated by someone she hated and she was the one who willingly offered to do it.

7.48pm

Cidney did not speak or even look at Beng Soon when she came out of the bathroom.

She just clicked her way down the stairs and let herself out of the shophouse.

I immediately got out of my hiding place and had a brief chat with Beng Soon before bolting out the back door once I was sure Cidney was a distance away.

Barely moments after I left the site, my phone rang and it was Cidney.

James : Hello ? hey… where are you ?

Cidney said she was just done helping her friends and was in the vicinity of Chinatown.

I asked her if she was hungry and if she wanted to go for dinner but she said no.

She told me she had something light and said she felt a little tired and she wanted to head home to rest.

I respected her decision knowing full well the sacrifice she just did. I offered to head over and I could tell she was a little reluctant but she eventually agreed.

I got to her place with some packet snacks around 9pm after I had my own dinner and Cidney was already showered.

She had change out of her clothes and was wearing just a simple set of t-shirt and short pants.

I asked her if she was ok and she nodded.

I told her I managed to raise the sum of money and I had already called Beng Soon but he was not returning my call.

She just kept quiet and did not offer up a reply.

I could sense a sudden difference in her, it was as if her mind was not with her body. She seemed a little distant, there was a lack of colour in her cheeks.

I felt strangely aroused thinking of the sex scene I had witness barely hours ago and I made my move.

Cidney did not reject me and instead allowed me to do whatever I wanted.

I tried to feel if there was any difference in her love hole when I entered her that evening, was it a little stretched, was it still wet and slippery, was it red and swollen, but I felt no difference.

Instead I had another kind of mental high as I fuck myself into the same hole that was being enjoyed by another man moments ago.

Cidney was a little unresponsive although she did moan a little for me. I suspect it was just for show and she seemed moody the entire evening and was not the best person to have a conversation with.

James : What’s wrong ? Are you ok ?

She shook her head with a smile, adding that she was just tired.

I left Cidney’s place at 11.30pm, with a fucked up feeling of a sadistic sick man.

I felt as if I had broken one of my toys on purpose and the feeling was something I had never felt before.

Cidney was on sick leave for the next 2 days, leaving me to deal with the client of the shophouse.

All the works were completed and rectified and I even dropped Cidney a message that her project was wrapped up.

It was all over and Beng Soon was not even around, he sent one of his assistant.

Cidney did not reply.

When I tried to initiate a meeting that weekend, she said she was still recovering and would prefer to rest.

27th April 2011

Wednesday

Cidney got a little better but I could feel that there was this invisible barrier between us. I could not explain why but it seemed as if she was not too eager to be touched lately.

When I try to put my hands around her shoulders, she would shy away after a while.

I would hold her hands but subconsciously her fingers would get a little loose over time before she dropped them.

I kept asking if she was ok and she was quick to reassure me that she was just tired.

29th April 2011

Friday

4pm

When Cidney rejected my offer to stay over at my place for the 2nd weekend in a row, I began to consider how badly I had broken my toy.

We were still together, officially in a relationship but I noticed the difference in Cidney. She seemed a little more reserved, kept to herself more whereas she used to be more open about her feelings.

14th May 2011

I got seriously worried when I saw her crying by herself in my room when I came out of the shower on the 2nd week of May.

I immediately went over and hugged her.

I did not say anything but just allowed her to cry.

I could feel the anguish and the sadness as she screamed into my chest, baring her feelings and her emotions.

It was a messy affair.

There was a mixture of saliva, tears and mucus on my body as Cidney’s body shudder uncontrollably.

I was lost.

Seriously lost and I knew I was fucked.

Seriously fucked.

She took an hour to compose herself and I was glad my parents were not at home that day.

When I managed to calm her down with a glass of water, she started tearing up again.

At 6pm that day on the 14th of May 2011. Cidney finally broke the news.

It was a few simple words.

That few simple words caused me heartache everytime I recalled it.

Cidney : I did it….

Cidney : I did it with Beng Soon….

That was all Cidney managed to get it out.

If you had asked me before she said that how I would react and feel, I would probably tell you I would get aroused.

I would probably get a fucking high knowing that my girlfriend was shared unwillingly with another man.

But the truth was different.

It was so different.

Confronted with the truth that day hurts.

Seeing Cidney in such pain and anguish made me feel like shit.

No , I do not deserve any sympathy, I’m just a fucking monster but I have feelings too.

I could not speak, looking at Cidney’s red eyes I could not utter a single fucking word that day.

I only felt the roll of a tear down my right cheek before I hugged Cidney.

We did not say anything to each other for the rest of the evening. We did not even go for dinner.

We just stayed in the room and fell asleep.

I sent Cidney back the next afternoon and as much as I wanted to talk about it, she was unwilling to continue the conversation.

17th May 2011

It was a Tuesday.

I remembered that day.

I had a call at 10am sharp from Selene and she wanted me in her office immediately.

She requested that I close the door and that was one of the few occasion that she drew the blinds to her office.

Selene : Take a seat .

I saw the digital clock on the table jumped to 10.02 and Selene threw a white envelope across the table.

Selene : Your girlfriend just tendered her resignation.