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Originally Posted by
Xia406
Bro good writing. I really feel for you. So sorry to hear that you cannot be with the woman whom you love most. This is life, I guess.
Can feelings be supressed?… I am trying…. But the thoughts of her keep flooding my mind…. In this late nite.. I am stll struggling with my emotuons… Can she feel my emotions for her… Or hear my heartbeat for her…..
These few days is really an agony to me… Struggling with my emotions… Was pretty bek chek yesterday…. Meetings drag and finally i have the time to call fatty and wass able to meet him last nite..
Fatty: r u k?..
Me: i am fine…
Fatty: y choose to meet here outside sch gate…
Me: dunno… Just want to come here..
Fatty: let grab some beer from the mama shop..
Me: gd idea… Mama shop still here but changr owners le..
Fatty: of course lah… So many years.. Things will change..
Me: true… But certain things remain unchanged…
Fatty: i know what is troubling u… Since u proposed meeting at the main gate of the sch..
Me: u really know me well… ( i took a deep sip of the beer)…..
Bros… Pls allow me to pen down my thoughts as it may ease my pain… Kindly bear with me for any typo errors as my mind is a whirl… Thank you…
Fatty: ready to tok now?…
Me: bro… U know this school gate really remind me of her…sending her home..
( my emtions rise and i find it hard to carry on..)
Fatty: it have been so many years and u still cant get over it completely…
Me: i wish i could…
Fatty: btw how r things with sao zi..
Me: same thing loh… Work… Come hm take care of kids… Weekend family day..
Fatty: yeah lah… This is the norm… What i meant is.. Any quarrels…
Me; y do u ask this wuestion…
Fatty: just ans me…
Me: yup… But things will blow over soon..
Fatty: with u giving in again…
Me: she is my wife mah…
Bros to be continued… Paiseh as i am unable to focus with too many things in my heart… Sigh.. I really tulan myself… Tok cant tok well.. Now write also have problems!
Sorry guys.. abit emotional last nite… today is much better after a rest… and straightening of thoughts… anyway back to the story…
Fatty: Relax bro… what i am trying to say is this…. you do nt have a blissful marriage.. that is y u r always thinking of Yvonne….
Me: Hmmn…..
Fatty: Remember before yr marriage… we ( Some of the brothers) actually warned u nt to marry Sao Zi as she have terrible mood swings…
Me: Aiya now is nt the rite time to tok abt all these… i have already married her and she have bore 2 kids for me… it is my duty to take care of her…
Fatty: True but put aside responsibility.. do u have any love for her…
There is a pause after this question… and i continued with my beer….
Me: I wun say love.. but still have feelings for her de.. after all we have been together for so long already…
Fatty: The point is… r u happy?…
Me: But that does not meant i can use this as an excuse to look for any women ( Justify my action)?…. I choose her as my wife.. then i must be responsible for the choice i make…
Fatty: I am nt trying to tell u to look for other women… given yr character u wun do it de… but u can always retain Yvonne as yr soul mate if she still share some feelings for u….
Me: What?….
Fatty: C a soulmate is different from lovers or FB.. does nt have any physical intimacy but a close emotional connection… at least the two of u will be able to share yr thoughts to each other….
This statement from fatty lead me deeper to my thoughts as i continued with my booze….
Me: Does nt seem to be a gd idea.. i am worried that i may end up hurting Yvonne…
Fatty: So long as u know yr limits… dun think u will hurt her in any ways… now the main concern… is whether her contact no remain unchanged after so many years….
As this pt of time.. i am really tempted to call her… just a phone call away…
Fatty: The choice is yours… it is just a phone call away…
Me: I would like to… but…
Fatty: no more buts just face it with a ping chang xin… ( Face this issue with a normal mindset) and c how it goes…
Me: if her contact no changed how?..
Fatty: Knn u damn slow today… do u still have her email address?…
Me: of course i still remember…
Fatty: Leave it to fate ba.. if u r destined to meet her again.. let her be contactable…
Me: let me think….
Fatty: Stop tormenting yrself and make a choice… knn last time u go for fights also nt humchee… take weapon and chong already.. now this simple matter u have to think so long…
Me: k then… but is it late to call at this hour?..
Fatty: Nt even 10pm yet.. call or dun call?…
Sorry bros.. just back from a discussion… Back to the story…
At that moment i really struggled with myself… thinking whether this is the correct thing to do… nevertheless in the end.. i finally decided to call her…
Me: Pass me my phone.
Fatty: Steady. That shd be the way.
Immediately i dial her number….
Ring… ring… ( Thank Goodness that this no is still in use…)
Those few moments of rings is the longest wait in my life… my heart was pounding fast……
It was nt long before someone ans a call…
Hello… ( This voice is so familiar…. this is truly the voice of Yvonne)…
Me: Hi… Yvonne……. ( My voice tremble with excitement)
Yvonne: Sigui disappear for so long… how have u been? ( She sound surprised)
Me: Fine…
Yvonne: Married already?…
Me: Yup with 2 kids now…
Yvonne: Sound gd…. ( there is short pause)
At that moment i can hear the background of kids crying at that moment…
Yvonne: Cant tok over the phone.. how abt meeting up for some catching up?..
Me: Gd idea… when will u be free?…
Yvonne: How abt tmr as next week i will be busy…
Me: Okay… okay… we will meet after work then…
Yvonne: Meet u at suntec tmr at 6.30pm.. we will go for dinner…
Me: Roger! ( My heart is leaping with joy)
Yvonne: C u.. have to go now…
I ended the phone call… Fatty look at me grinning at me…
Fatty: Zu ding u will meet her…
Me: Bro i am meeting her tmr….
Fatty: Gd…. i am glad for u….
Me: Thanks…
Fatty: No worries… at least u can finally meet her again after all these years of longing to c her again…..
Me: Dunno whether i am doing the rite thing…
Fatty: Dun think so much since u have taken the first step already….
Me: True…
We continued with our booze and soon we headed off home… I reached home that nite… my heart filled with the thoughts of her…should i go ahead and meet her tmr… how would the meeting with her tmr… will it end up well… etc… those questions keep popping up in my mind and i took a long time to fall asleep despite of the booze…..
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Originally Posted by
simifly
Wah, came in a bit late. So much happening to bro zerofighter liao.
Anyway wish u all the best in whatever u do.
A lot of bros will be here to SUPPORT u.
Thanks brothers for yr kind support…
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Originally Posted by
ben2011
A big thump-up for u! Such a gentlemen during the break-up….
I got a sad story with my ex also, but its the past…nothing to share here
And till today, i would still remember some of our dates and sweet moments, however, when she called me back, i rejected the chances to meet her…coz her betrayal hurt me badly.
We never remain in contact or even friend, envy u….ahhaha
From my exp, i would offer my 2 cents of thought….Family&wife remain family&wife. Yvonne has a special place in ur heart, just treat her as soulmate, as what Fatty said, he has a point.
Good luck!
Bri.. I totally agreec with u… Keeping her as a soulmate is much better than crossing any boundary…. It is fair to both sides….
Back to the story.
I went back to the office the nect day with sleeply eyes… Do nt sleep well at all… The day drag slowly with afternoon meetings… At times… I almost want to chicken out of the date…
In my heart.. I am seeking for advice to this issue… .. Cant focus at all…
Bros… Sorry for the delay as boss is around..
The day soon uended and i faster hand faster leg drove to suntec
…. Ma..naged to reach early and grab some polo sweets along the way…
Standing anxiosly… I keep an eye for yvonne…. I can hear my heart beating furiously…
Be steady… I told myself…. Soon i can spot yvonne heading toward me.
She was smilng…..
Me: hi….
Yvonne: dai tou er(silly goose)… This is the nick she gave to me in sec 1.
Me: lucky u can still recoginize me….