It was a long walk to our usual spot… All along… i hold her hands tightly as i know very soon i wun be able to hold her hand anymore….
Soon we reached the place….
Yvonne: How have u been for the past 2 weeks?…
Me: Very lost… not knowing what is going wrong with this relationship..
Yvonne: Actually deep inside yr heart.. u knew the issue already…
There was a short pause after this statement…
Me: Guess u r rite.. i just dun want to admit that this is the issue….
Yvonne: U know.. i have been thinking alot for these 2 weeks….
Once again there is a long pause…
Me: It is k.. just go ahead and express whatever is on yr mind now.. k…
Yvonne: Youth to a girl is important… and now that u r still in NS… have to wait 2.5 years before u complete yr army… after which another 3 years for u to complete yr Uni….
Me: I understand le….
Yvonne: It is going to be another 5 years before u can come out to work… dun think i can wait that long liao…..
Me: Yup… it is my fault… for nt being gd enough…
Yvonne: Pls dun say that… it is nt yr fault… i know that u have been trying very hard liao…
Me: I can fully understand yr concern…… after all it is unfair to u to keep on waiting for me….
Yvonne: Sorry….. i really owe u alot….
At this moment… my tears swelled in my eyes… and i cant help my tears from flowing down…
Me: Pls dun mention abt owe… where feelings r concerned… there is no rite or wrong ba….
Yvonne: Can i ask u something?…
Me: Yup….
Yvonne: If the clock can be wound back… would u choose to love me again?..
Me: YES… Wo Hui Yi Wu Fan Gu de qu ai ni… ( I will still choose to love u without any regrets)
Yvonne: Thanks… ( her voice is choking with sadness too… and soon we was in each other arms…
The sun is slowly setting by now….
Yvonne: Promise me something k…
Me: K i promise…
Yvonne: Pls dun get distracted by our break up… focus on yr army duties.. and study hard for yr degree k…
Me: Yup.. i will try to….
Yvonne: I will be very proud of u if u r able to obtain yr degree…
Me: k.. ( I nodded my head)….
Me: R we still friends?…
Yvonne: Of course.. u will always be my gd friend…
Me: Too bad our relationship cant last till marriage… ( My emotions rise again at this pt of time…)
Yvonne: U have been a gd bf… at least i dun need to worry whether u will be unfaithful to me… and i will never forget yr cig wounds on yr hands…
Gently she touched my scars again….
Me: U r my gf and it is my duty to protect u from all harm ma…
Yvonne: Remember that movie… Zhong Nan Hai Bao Biao we watched together…. that show really remind me of u….
Me: Y me…
Yvonne: That u dun dare to look even in my eyes when we r in sec 3… when u just dropped to normal…
Me: is it?…
Yvonne: Thanks for being a protective bf for the past 5 to 6 years….
Drawing her closely to me…..
Yvonne: After today…we will no longer be a couple…
Me: Let cherish every moment we have……..
Bros just to share this song.. that is the last movie i watched with her… and till now.. this song will still remind me of her…..
Hope that u guys will like it…
Me: Thanks for going through with me for the past 5/6 years… if not i believed that i would have end up in boys home/prison….
Yvonne: Dun say that… u have put in effort yrself…
Me: i would nt have done that.. if nt for u…
Yvonne: Now u have to do it for yr own sake le… nt for anybody else.. k…
Me: k.. i will try….
Yvonne: Cannot just try.. u must do it….
Time flies… and it is time for me to sent her hm… The way back to the bus stop is sad but yet beautiful… that will be the last time i hold her hand walking along the beach… Sadness flooded my heart…
Walking towards the bus stop… we took bus 13 home again… drawing her even closer to me.. i really wish the bus journey will never end… Nevertheless it still come to an end eventually……..
Sending her to the lift lobby… my tears start to flow again….
Me: I really cant bear to part with u…
Yvonne: Take the lift together with me then…
Me: K… ( Once inside the lift… i start to hug her tightly… knowing that it will be last few seconds ( Last hug) when i can hug her again….
The lift door soon opened…
Yvonne: Have to go already as u may miss yr last bus home.. ( By this time.. i have already moved house)….
Me: All rite… pls take care of yrself…..
She turned her head and headed slowly to her unit…… i stood there… trying to catch the last glimpse of her…….
That nite… is the worst nite of my life… the pain of losing her is really too unbearable for me to bear… i can take punches but cannot take the break up…………………………….
And here is the end of the story.. Before my memory fades… i have penned down my thoughts of her… The girl whom i cant forget… At times i really feared that i would eventually forget the feel of holding her hands again.. the feel of her hug… the feel of her gentle kisses… all these which was once part of my life with her…….
Would like to end the story with this song… Xin Bu Liao Qing….
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Originally Posted by
nottyboyforever
Heart broke bro.
That’s girls, they never think for future.
Since in the first place u already kno this end will come so u nv step in.
But she said her mind will nv change.
But what ever, hope & wish u had a wonderful family bro.
Thanks for ur sharing of ur memories
Thanks bro for yr best wishes for my family… u too..
As a matter of fact.. i dun really blame her for nt waiting for me… i believed her thinking must have changed after she went to Uni… so i cant really expect her to wait for me for another 5 years….. Since i choose this to take this gamble.. i must be prepared to lose ba….
The only regret is our relationship cant last till marriage… which left a certain emptiness in my heart ba….
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Originally Posted by
BMW69
Woah bro. Just recovered and read the last 3 pages all at once. Sad sad story. What happened next though?
After the break up with her… we remain as friends…. Soon i begin to cheong Geylang and Health center during my army days… Took a few years to get over her until i meet my second gf… but that relationship does nt have a happy ending too… sigh…
Have nt been contacting Yvonne ever since she was married… Wonder how is she now?…
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Originally Posted by
Tai_zi21
Sorry to ask this noob ques TS
But this 5 years u never have sex with her? Nothing at all? Pure love?
Still it a very nice and sad love story! Keep it up
Nope bro… As we r both christians… Cant have pre martial sex… Anyway.. Never thought if doing that with her… Though i started to bonk after my break up with her… But no matter how many girls i bonk… I still cant forget her…. Sigh….
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Originally Posted by
Tai_zi21
Well tat for sure i guess! Imagine without her wat might have u become? Some Gang leader? Drug Dealer? Haha
She has change ur life But well i guess most of us dun get to married the one we love most in our life
Life a bitch
Yup… That is life ba… Bros… Do u think i shd call her… Nt sure whether her no remain unchanged…
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Originally Posted by
Tai_zi21
If i were u, i would call her for sure! Wouldn’t wan to have any regrets in life.
Quite true…
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Originally Posted by
ben.now
Very nice story. Can almost feel what you are going through emotionally. Made me finish your story within 2hours.
Some memories are meant to be kept in a tiny compartment of the heart. I believe this is yours. Great memories flow out occasionally to warm the heart of yours.
Thank you for sharing yours. Greatly appreciated.
Indeed u r rite…. Great memories r kept in s special compartment of my heart…. For thst dpecial someone….
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Originally Posted by
AhBoy67
I think the same that TS shouldnt call her and meet up. Cause life already move on so not necessary to dig up all the memories.
Time, situation and experience changes a person. So she may no longer the person you know during your schooling days when you meet her today. It will effect your memories and impression of her in your heart which you kept for so many years.
Thus, just let it be….and let her live on without disturbing her. Sometimes, there are things not need you to possess only can be happy. As long you know she will be happy in life then it warms your heart. Fine enough.
Cause I also did the same when I encounter my first love after 10years at a shopping mall saw her pregnant with her husband and a 3 year old daughter. We made eye contact; I know she recognise me but both of us didnt approach each other and walk pass through. As I know, we both move on and sweet memories will be kept deep down in our heart and only both of us know.
Bro i think u r rite… it is nt rite to call her anymore as both of us are already married… That is what have been holding me back for the past years ever since we r married… it is better to keep things in this way. Kam Sia for yr advise… Appreciate it…
Bros just to share this song…
劉德華 Andy Lau_吳倩蓮_天若有情 MV
Hoped that u guys will like it….. Thanks…