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Originally Posted by
zerofighter
Once again.. i have to turn to the keyboard to pen down my thoughts…
Last Friday nite… i manage to meet up with Fatty and Ah Keong for drinks again at our usual place… Thank Goodness for these 2 brothers who is always by my side whenever i am down….
Fatty: So how r things lately?
Me: Career wise nt that smooth ever since the shanghai incident…
Ah Keong: Told u rite… but u iron teeth…
Fatty: What abt Yvonne then…
Me: Haiz…. ( I took a deep sip of beer then)…
Ah Keong: R u k?… need to have more drinks in order to make u tok?.. ( We all laughed at this joke…)
Fatty: Lai… i pour u more drinks… ( Fatty then topped up my glass of martell)
Me: Wha lan… another drink again…
Fatty: Bobian this is the only way to make u tok…
Ah Keong: Lai Ta….
Soon we managed to toast a few rounds and i am beginning to feel more relaxed…
Me: Brothers.. since i have decided to go back to Yvonne to be by her side at this pt of time.. when she is hurting… i have been struggling with my emotions…
Fatty: Hmmn… u r just doing what u r supposed to be doing… cos after all she is yr gd friend…
Me: But at times i almost want to give in to my emotions… and just hold her hands again…
Fatty: U cant do that bro.. u will easily cross the line if u do that de…
Me: Exactly…
FattY: Brother have u ever wondered that u guys have sent a high benchmark for each other kam cheng….
Me; What do u meant?…
Fatty: Can u really forget the things she have ever done for u.. likewise can she forget the stuff that u have done for her…
Ah Keong: That is y u all just cant forget each other easily…
Me: But there is nothing we can do abt this Kam cheng… as we r both married… ( At this statement… i start to drown myself with liqour again)…
At that moment my mobile ring again….
Yvonne: Wru?
Me: Me drinking with fatty and ah keong…
Yvonne: Can i join u all since it have been ages since i met up with fatty and ah keong again…
Me: K then.. ( I give her the address)
Back to my brothers again..
Me: Bros Yvonne is joining us for drinks…
Fatty: r u serious?…
Me: Really she is coming…
Ah Keong: Knn u better reduce yr drinking now…
Me: No worries.. i will cut down… if nt i will have problems suppressing my emotions…
Fatty: Like that.. also very xin ku ( Very siong) for u….
Just to share this song at this pt of time…
王傑 是你是你是你
Hope that u guys will like it…
Yvonne soon arrived and a great catching up was soon done with Fatty and Ah Keong…
Fatty: Hey.. u did nt change much leh… still maintain quite well…
Yvonne: No lah.. i put on weight after being a mother le…
Ah Keong: Nt too bad… at least prettier than my wife… ( They were soon laughing off)
Yvonne: So when is our next song…
Me; Coming soon to our table le…
Fatty: We help u all to dian 许茹芸/熊天平 - 你的眼晴 .. Gum bo?…
Me: Gum…
Ah Keong: K on… can hear u sing duet with Yvonne again…
( Yvonne was smiling sweetly… and i was feeling abit nervous too… as this is my fav song… but do nt have a chance to sing with her as we have already broken off at that pt of time…. one of the songs which can express my feelings well for her)…
Soon it is our turn to sing the duet together… and i am careful to keep a distance from her… nt even daring to even look into her eyes….
Keong: Brother go closer to her leh.. u guys r singing a duet… so far apart…
Fatty: Yeah loh go closer abit mah…
( In my heart.. i was thinking… knn what r they trying to do?.. so bobian i start to move closer to her…).. Songs were sung that day and as it goes by… i start to drink more as my emotions start to rise… Yvonne was also drinking quite a bit.. and she was soon a abit tipsy after a couple of hard liqour.. But then… all these songs cannot go on in this way… as it is too emo le… will affect our feelings easily… All of a sudden.. i thought of this song which bro ben have posted earlier… This is one of the songs which i loved alot… well written and surely the lyrics is what i want to tell her….
幸福一万年
As such.. i decided to insert this song in the song list…
Me: Yvonne.. the next song… is for u de…
Yvonne: Serious…
Me: Hope that u will like it…
Meanwhile we continued with our boozing session but i am careful nt to let her drink too much as i am worried that she may get drunk easily…
My turn soon came and as i sing this song to her… i realised that her expression seem to be changing… ( It is nt a gd sign as i can sense sadness and anger… from her face)..
Yvonne: Is that what u want to tell me..
Me: Yup… i really wish that u can be xinfu…
At that moment of time.. there is a bastard from another table who actually jio Yvonne for a duet… ( There is a table of 5 guys… ) and she agreed for a duet with him… Meanwhile i managed to keep my cool but i continued to keep a sharp eye on Yvonne as i could nt trust that bastard..
Fatty: Watch out bro.. that guy is trying to be funny…
Me: Yup i know… brothers whatever happen later… pls dun get involved k…
Fatty: Bro dun be rash…
Me: Knn they r trying to guan her with jiu.. i have to stop them… ( I then roll up my sleeve)
I then head towards that table…
Me: Hey stop liao.. she is my gf…
Yvonne: Gf only meh.. i want to be yr wife…
Bastard A: What r u trying to do?..
Me: Yr ears have problem is it… u never hear what i say ah.. she is my gf k…
( At that pt of time.. my blood was boiling as i am abit pek chek… under the influence of liqour ba… I am nt in my usual self of calmness)
( I started to pull Yvonne away while that bastard A is damn buay song too… and his friends soon stand up too… meanwhile fatty and ah keong also stood up for me while i continue to pull yvonne away…)
Me: Dear.. do u want to go with me or join them…
Yvonne: I want to be with u…
Me: k then get out of here… ( I hold her arms gently and lead her out of the pub while that bastard is staring at me)
Me: Can u pls love yrself more…
Yvonne: U still care abt me meh.. u rather push me back to my hubby…
Me: Is it wrong for me to wish u happiness?…
Yvonne: But i want to be yr wife…
Me: u r nt in a sober mind… we r both married with kids le…
Yvonne: Since u dun want me.. let me go back to that table again…
Me: Nope.. u cant do that…
( All of a sudden… i pull her back and hold her close to my arms…)
Me: I wun allow u to be hurt again…
Yvonne: u r hurting me already by pushing me back to my hubby…
With my emotions rising.. i hug her tightly… and the impulse to kiss her on the forehead is very strong again………. but somehow i hold back my feelings…. and it is very draining for me to do so at the same time… our eyes met each other and i can feel our lips r approaching each other again… but at that sharp moment of time… i remember my words to myself: Under no circumstances will I be be tempted to cross the boundary with her) This sharp thought came in at the rite moment and i begin to turn my face away…
There is a long pause after that… nobody utter a single word…
Yvonne: y r u always so rational when it comes to feelings…
Me: Cos i dun want to hurt u… dun want u to have any regrets…whatever we r doing is wrong for i dun want to betray my wife again and again…
Yvonne: do u still love her…
Me: i duno.. but she is my wife….
Yvonne: i know… ( Her voice is choking with sadness too and soon i lead her back to Fatty and Ah keong)…
Fatty: Let her rest ba.. as she is abit drunk le…
Me: Yup…
Ah Keong: R u k?…
Me; Nt really… i am emotionally drained le… very tired… ( Tears swelled in my eyes again but i will nt allow it to flow down de… i still want to retain my pride in front of my brothers…)
Fatty: Late le… dun drink too much as u still need to sent her hm de…
Me: Yup….
That nite…. i drive her home with a heavy heart and mind… i wanted so much to tell her how much i love her… but i cant…. so much thoughts came to my mind and yet i cant express at all……………..
Guys just a disclaimer: There is nothing wrong with this song which bro ben have posted… in fact i would like to choose this song as the conclusion of the story… End of the day.. there is no outcome between me and Yvonne de… that is fact which we ( me and her) cannot deny.. i just have to be very careful nt to give in to my emotions again…
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Originally Posted by
ben2011
If no Yvonne, will u end up like him?
Bro confirm end up like him… cos nobody can change me… only she is able to give me the courage to change… that is y… as i always feel… i really owe her alot… whatever owed must be returned de…
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Originally Posted by
Hilary
bro seems u like 王傑’s song very much, cheers y
for me 王傑 and 齐秦 are my two favorite singer
Bro u r rite.. Wang jie my fav singer… Love tuning in to his song while thinking of yvonne… Sigh… Those r the days..
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Originally Posted by
Spud_Boy
bro, just a little suggestion… mayb try not to drink with her around u… it’s much much easier to loose ur control esp when it’s already not easy to do so when fully sober…
Bro.. U r rite… Damn emo that nite… With all the songs going on and with the booze… Very hard to remain sober and keep my feelings in control..
Temper is rising too at the sight of those bastards trying to take advantage of her… Almost prepared to fight… The old rage in me rising again….
Must learn to avoid these situations again…
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Originally Posted by
Tai_zi21
Bro wat do u expect from a ktv pub right? esp when ppl are drinking! esp when drinking it hard to keep ur emotional on control! why do ppl cry or pick up fight after drinking? due to emotional lor
As wat we have say before gals are emotional creature,she is lonely and craving for ur attention
This song is esp for u bro!!!!
Brother steady one of my fav songs too.. Yup.. U r rite… Sigh nowadays i am getting emotional… Perhaps i have been trying too hard to supress my feelings for her…
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Originally Posted by
ben2011
Since its holiday season now, y not take a break and bring your kids and wife for a long holiday?
Maybe things will change, divert ur emotional feelings towards family love is a better choice…
Bro… That is a gd idea… But wo bu fang xin yvonne… But u r also rite… At least we can cool down abit… Thanks brother for yr advise…
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Originally Posted by
nottyboyforever
Bro,
I really admire ur courage & ur self control.
I really hope and wish u, Yvonne and ur family the best.
There will b no easy solution for u all.
But at least hope everybody deserved happiness.
It is nobody fault. Not u, not u wife & family an also not Yvonne’s fault either.
Out of this three, I really respect u.
U r the key player and u can make it and also u can break it.
But u really can make it good for everybody.
May God give u the biggest strength & bleeding that u deserved bro.
I agree with the other bro suggestion. Just take a break. May b alone will b more appropriate.
Cheers bro.
I’ll keep on logging on to this website to read & support u!
Kam sia brother for yr moral support… Yup i will continue to stay sober for the sake of our loved ones… Thanks bro…. I will guard my thoughts and heart…..