The old times....


    Chapter #91

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    Originally Posted by

    ben2011

    How to post the whole video ah?

    Anyway see this song fit ur feeling now bo?

    Bro here is our song…

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    Chapter #92

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    ben2011

    wow….how to do it? teach me step by step le….haha…

    My way may be abit conventional… anyway here it goes…

    1. Copy the link in google

    2. Once the music start to play… bookmark the page.

    3. Then go to properties of that bookmark and click on the Location.

    4. Copy and paste the address of the location in the place u wanted…

    Yup that will be done.

    Hopefully it will help u…

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    Chapter #93

    Bros sorry for the delay… was rather busy with work yesterday… reach hm abt 10pm… No worries… i am on leave today ( will bring the kids to the beach as it is Dec holidays) … thus i will be able to finish the whole chapter by today… ( At least u guys dun need to read a small part… paiseh). Anyway back to the story…..

    Soon we were talking abt our jobs since she is nt ready to share abt her marriage issues… She is a banker… Career path is rather smooth for her ever since she grad from uni….

    Yvonne: So how is yr career?..

    Me: Nt very smooth… me dunno how to third leg ( Curry favour) and tok…

    Yvonne: This is what i like abt u… like to c u whenever u r tongue-tied…. so funny de…( She smiled) dun tok well… hmmn… that is u… dunno how to sweet talk but whatever u say… u meant it… at least ur words give people a sense of security ba…

    At this statement.. i throw a quick glance at her eyes… and for that split moment our glances met each other… but i quickly withdraw it as i am worried that too much eye contact will somehow leak my feelings for her again…

    There is a short pause as Yvonne is looking at my cig scars again as i am cutting the beef steak…

    Yvonne: the scars is still very obvious…

    Me: yup…

    Yvonne: Did yr wife ask u how u get this wound…

    Me: of course.. i just tell her that i got burned by someone else while in the pub drinking…

    Yvonne: Such a lame excuse.. so did she believe it?..

    Me: I dunno guess she give me some benefit of doubt ba..

    Yvonne: Anyway it is gd that u did nt tell her abt this.. if nt she will hate me forever…

    Me: True… that is y i kept it from her…

    Yvonne: This scars is rather deep…

    Again there is a pause after this statement…

    Me: Take it as a remembrance of my feelings for u ba… ( Actually i would want to use the word love… but somehow i find this word too strong le… my emotions is slowly rising again… but i do my best to remain composed…)

    Yvonne: Do u blame me for the break up…..

    Me: Nope i did nt blame u before… u r rite… i cant expect u to wait for another 5 years for me… but i took a long time to get over u… Those days i will never forget… (At this pt of time my emotions was rising pretty fast and i know that tears is slowly welling again…) no appetite for dinner already….t

    Yvonne: I am sorry… (her voice is choking too)… do u want to find somewhere quiet to tok…

    Me: Yup.. where do u suggest then…

    Yvonne: Sembawang beach then…just around this area…..

    Me: k….

    Soon we headed off to the car park again….

    Yvonne: u know something.. i missed the times when i take buses/Mrt with u….

    Me: Me too.. days were much happier then… even though we have take to wait for buses… and nt every bus is air -conditioned….

    Yvonne: where r u heading.. this is nt the rite way to sembawang beach…

    Me: Do u like to take a bus together with me to sembawang beach?…

    Yvonne: K y not… she was smiling sweetly again….

    It does nt take long for me to park my car at sun plaza….

    Yvonne: Do u know what is the bus no to reach there…

    Me: no but we can always ask the bus drivers…

    It was nt long before we board the bus 882 to the beach again… I was pretty excited as it have been ages since we took a bus again… in fact this is the only time after break up that we can take a bus together…

    Yvonne: Do u still remember that we came to this beach before…

    Me: Yup that time is a sun during my army times… we came here taking bus 167 and after which u pei me to yishun mrt cos i need to book in….

    Yvonne: Wow u still remember the details so well……

    Me: I have never forgotten the dating days with u… it is always in my heart….

    ( At that point of time.. i really have a sudden impulse to hold her hand again.. but i did not as i do nt have the rite to hold her hand again.. we r both married…..)

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    Chapter #94

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    Originally Posted by

    ben2011

    How about this song? Sorry i am abit dumb….cant really paste the video here. Lols…

    So today will see the whole ending of ur story lo? Hurrays….

    Hhaa…

    Good luck!

    Bro gd job! pls dun call yrself dumb… u r nt… There r no dumb people in this world….

    The lyrics of the song really expressed my feelings for her…. well written… every word is meant for her……

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    Chapter #95

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    Originally Posted by

    xxxaddict

    sweet agony… so near and yet so far, such a wide gap between the two of you, but can easily be crossed with a single step.

    for you, stay in unhappy marriage also not good. for her, stay with unfaithful spouse also not good. for both of you, breakup family also not good. nobody know what their tomorrow will be like. there is no guarantee that staying in an unhappy marriage will make your kids happy. choosing to stay in an unhappy marriage, it is a painful decision. choosing to walk out of an unhappy marriage, is also a painful decision.

    angmo countries have lots of divorce cases and blended families (i.e. step kids, step siblings etc, so it is not uncommon), it becomes quite common and people adjust to a new reality. but then again we stay in a conservative asian society, so things are perceived differently here.

    actually, doesn’t matter what you think is right/wrong, sometimes the price of happiness for the both of you can be expensive, but whether or not you are willing to pay the price is up to the both of you

    Bro u r rite… so near but yet so far….. for the sake of the kids… we have to stay on to our marriage… i came from a broken family and i dun want my kids to walk the same path as me… too painful le……

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    Chapter #96

    Sorry bros… just back… was washing the hamster cages just now… bobian maid scared of hamster… so i have to wash loh…. Yup.. will be able to finish the story by today…. Back to the story….

    It is a short journey to the beach… all along i really enjoy her feel by my side… at least … this time… this is real…. she is really beside me now…. We headed off to the beach… i put my hands deep in my pocket… this is the only way to stop myself from holding her hands ba…

    Yvonne: It is beautiful here…. nothing much have changed…

    Me: Except that this area have been blocked off by the fence….

    She slowly turned and look into my eyes….

    Yvonne: Yr eyes tell me a million stories… would u like to share to me now?… Her voice as usual is gentle.. nt pressing at all….

    Me: I…. I…..

    Yvonne: Look into my eyes and tell me slowly……

    My emotions rise at that moment again….. and i take a step backward…

    Me: When u ask me do i blame u for the break up… my ans to u is no… but those days is really painful for me… do u know even rite now… when i think abt it.. i can still feel the pain…… still remember those days after my army duties… i will find myself wandering off to our sch main gates… thinking of those times when i will sent u hm… the same sch gate which u accompany me to collect my O levels results…. There r even times when i am really tempted to walk to yr house void deck…. to our playground where we always go… but i dun even dare… cos i dun have the courage to face u le… So many times… i can feel u r just beside me… going to our usual dating places would always remind me of u… (Tears r slowly flowing out again… and i turned my head and blink away the tears….)…

    Yvonne: I am sorry….

    Me: Till the day when i received yr wedding invitation card…. i knew that i cant contact u anymore… as it is no longer proper for us to keep in contact….

    Yvonne: That is y u changed yr mobile and email address… and did nt even tell me yr new home address when u moved house…

    Me: Yup….

    There is a long pause after it……….. Feeling too emotional and drained….. i really wish i can hug her at that moment….

    Me: Can i hug u as a friend?…. ( I looked into her eyes and asked her)….

    Yvonne: Yup…

    Drawing her gently to me… we hugged each other… at that pt of time… my tears just flow out again….

    Me: My feelings for u remain unchanged…

    Yvonne: I know… i can feel it… it is strong but yet so gentle….

    This is a hug… perhaps the last hug and i believed that i will never forget this hug… nt even to the last day of my life….

    I withdraw gently from the hug…… as i am really fearful that one thing may lead to another…

    Me: U know… sad to say that… u r the one who truly understand my thoughts much deeper than my wife… even though we did nt meet for years…

    Yvonne: Yup as u did nt change much after all these years… u r the same old u… and yr feelings ba…..

    Me: But we r both married now with kids…. there r responsibilities which we need to honour… in my eyes u r always a decent girl and u will always remain as one… i will do nt anything to tarnish yr reputation… nor hurt u in any ways….

    Yvonne: Thanks for always sparing a thought for my feelings….

    Suddenly she give me a hug… Soon we r hugging each other again….

    Me: Do u know that i am struggling with myself for the past few days.. of whether to contact u again… i am scared…. am i doing the rite thing… the turmoil in my heart… i really feel emotionally torn apart…. ( I cried and soon she is crying too)…..

    Yvonne: As a woman… i really feel blessed to have a man who loved me for 20 over years… whose feelings remain unchanged after the passing of time… i really very Xin Fu le…

    With this statement of her.. we hug each other more tightly….

    Below is the song which can really express our emotions and feelings at that most intense moment… As i listen to this song.. my tears dropped again…

    两颗心四行泪 - 蔡幸娟/彭伟华

    Hope that u guys will enjoy…

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    Chapter #97

    The hug lasted so long… but it is enough to warm my heart for the years to come ba….

    Yvonne: Getting late liao….

    Me: Yup… i will sent u hm then….

    Yvonne: By bus k?…

    Me: Sure…

    We then head to the bus stop.. how i wished that the bus will nt come so fast… the bus journey will nt end that fast too…. one wish remain in my heart… if only i can spent more time with her… we enjoy the bus journey home.. ( We sat close to each other but other than that… no other physical contact… no holding of hands etc)….

    Yvonne: Next week u will be away for business trip… call me after u reach singapore.

    Me: Yup i will… will call u once i am done with meetings…

    Yvonne: And promise me no matter what happen.. pls dun change yr contact no again… k…

    Me: k i promise…

    The bus journey soon came to an end… and i stood there as usual trying to catch the last glimpse of her… As she was heading off again… i feel a sense of emptiness………… That is the nite when i feel so restless and emotional… so many thoughts rushed into my mind and heart… can even pen down my thoughts properly……

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    Chapter #98

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    Originally Posted by

    YangAog

    The end? Damn….. if it was me, I would really wished for things to go on.

    Bro how i wish that things would go on too but it is impossible… we r both married… and i would nt do anything to hurt her… it is best to remain as soul mates… if nt things will get really messy if we cross the boundary… i do nt want this thing to happen.. nor let anything to ruin this friendship….

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    Chapter #99

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    Tazzymercs

    你想要的

    我却不能够给你我全部

    我能给的

    却又不是你想要拥有的

    我们不适合也不想认输

    好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭

    你常解释

    这样的一切都只是开始

    我觉得是

    所有的一切早就已结束

    不想再约束

    不要再痛苦

    下一次会有更好的情路

    suits you bro zero

    Thanks bro…

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    Chapter #100

    Quote:

    Originally Posted by

    ben2011

    Good story…carry on…

    Exceptional story without hanky-panky, well done!

    Rmb, she is your soulmates….forever…

    If cross the boundary, u hurt ur kids,wife, parent, wife’s parent, siblings and Yvonne kids, husband, parent, etc etc……

    The list will be very long…based on my true story…sigh….And lastly you hurt Yvonne.

    Yup.. Bro u r rite.. Too many people involed liao.. She will always remain as my soulmate.

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