Temptation - A for Attack
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And so, Alson and I got together, but it is difficult to be in an office relationship. Therefore, we both agreed to keep it underground for now.
A new project came along and we were more than happen to be partners, yet again.
SMS exchange
Alson: Wei! We are partners again!
Me: Wei! Don’t copy me! Yup! Big company this time, better make sure we did it well.
Alson: Ok dear. Let’s start tonight. My place?
Me: Ok, I pack dinner?
Alson: No need, I’ll have you for dinner. hehe! Love you. Muacks!
I remember reaching his place at around 7pm, and as soon as I sat on his sofa, I turned on my Macbook and worked on the Wacom tablet. Alson sat beside me and we both worked together while stealing a kiss here and there.
At around 11pm,
Alson: (announced) I’m hungry!
Me: (Tapping the tablet stylus on my lips, a habit of mine when I’m thinking) Lets go pack supper? Or order Mac?
Alson: I want you for supper.. (moves closer)
Me: Wei.. Don’t play! I also hungry.. Mac?
Alson: (Leans over and french kisses me)
Everything happened in a flash. He lied on top of me, pulled down my bottom at one go, exposing my bare pussy. With his other hand, he took away the stylus in my hand…
Alson: Sorry dear… I’ll buy you another stylus tomorrow k…
With that, he ran the stylus at the lips of my pussy.. up and down. Until it went fully lubricated. I purred at how creative he is…
Bit by bit, he pushes the stylus into me. In and out.. Then he pulled it out and held it facing me.
Alson: Look at how wet you are.. See this? You look so sexy and wet.. What should I do with you?
Just then, I felt a sharp pain at the left side of my chest.
Oh no.
My face twisted into a weird expression.
Me: Dear… bag.. (I held onto my chest tightly)
Alson: What’s wrong dear? Are you okay?
Me: Bag…. please.. there.. (points to the bag)
And this is the first time I let him see my most vulnerable state… The first time he saw my heart attack relapse, something he has no clue at all.
Temptation - T for Transition
*****
I chose not to let Alson know about my condition partly because we are just together, I do not want him to know of it yet. That was the biggest mistake. Because of that, Alson became more and more paranoid, and was afraid that there are things that I hide from him.
We are in a relationship, but there are constant quarrelling because we were both afraid. The more we love each other, the more he is afraid to lose me. The deeper I love, the sadder I am. Eventually, I couldn’t take it and left. That was when Thomas came into the picture again. He knew of my condition when we were together, and he approached me, wanting to be together again. I agreed. He then took me overseas, and proposed to me then. He didn’t mind about my illness, he was very forgiving towards my family status. He loved me.
Deep in my heart, I know I loved Alson. But I couldn’t carry on anymore. So I moved on. I accepted Thomas’s proposal and prepared for my wedding.
I stopped contacting Alson for awhile (I had since left the company) and so naturally he did not know about the news that I’m getting married, until Reb told me something…
Reb: hey, are you still contacting Alson?
Me: not really.. Why?
Reb: you should. You are getting married and you did not invite your best buddy?!
Me: oh.. You know right.. Me and him..
Reb: yup, that’s why you should tell him. Do you want to lose him even as a friend?
Me: No.. Okay, i’ll think about it.
Before I left Alson, I had told him before - if I am getting married but have gotten over you, I will invite you to my wedding. If I haven’t, I won’t.
And I didn’t.
After much consideration, I decided to tell him about it. It was a casual conversation, to just inform him that I’m getting married so lets meet up for a meal after that. His reply was short and sweet.
Me: hi, when will you be free to meet? Still busy with work?
Alson: hey! Ya busy.. Should be free next month, wanna ask the others along?
Me: next month I’m getting married, should be quite busy. After that?
Alson: oh, sure. We arrange again next month then
Unspoken words. Intense emotions.
It shall all be over soon, or so I thought.
**
The wedding preparation was bad. Thomas and I had alot of disagreements. I wanted a simple affair, but his parents were demanding. I still pat myself on the back for being able to endure it all. Deep within me, I know my feelings towards Thomas is gratitude, and warmth. But we have an underlying problem.
We could not have sex.
I was a horny bunny. And Thomas being a traditional man, rejected me several times when we were dating because he believed in only after marriage sex. I got tired of being horny but not getting what I want (he is always tired due to work, and I’d thought there was something wrong with me until I was with Alson). And so I remained a virgin till my wedding night. Although I was with Alson for awhile, we never ventured that far because he was afraid that the intensity might give me another attack again. He took care of me well… But sadly it didn’t last.
Finally, my wedding day arrived. I was happy, but I know that Thomas and I would have to settle our problem after tonight - somehow. Everyone was happy for us, but a part of me know that Alson is thinking of me, because our common friends would already have pasted my wedding photos all over our walls.
I was exhausted after the whole day and by the time everything was over and money counted, it was already 5am. I crashed onto the bed and slept away. Thomas did the same. But before I slept, I saw the blinking light on my hp from the corner of my eyes.
It was a message from Alson.
Alson: wei… Congratulations. You have told me before, that if you haven’t get over me, you would not invite me to your wedding… Just to let you know, that tonight will be the last time Im messaging you.. I let you go, not because I want to but because I have to. I love you too much to hurt you… I thought the person who will take care of your heart is me… But i have failed to do so. I hope he will take care of your heart for me.. I saw the facebook photos, you looked really pretty today. I love you, Maybel. Goodbye.
I burst out crying, on my wedding night.
Temptation - I for Inside
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~Flashback~
Reb: Alson and Maybel, time for meeting.
Me: Coming!
It was a meeting with the director about our design ideas, and at the same time a discussion to solve some of clients’ complaints. But I was very much distracted during the meeting. How to when Alson’s running his feet along my feet up my calf when I was speaking?
I shot him a ‘stop it!’ Look and he returned with a ‘you can’t stop me’ smile.
That was it.
I stood up, walked to the projector and presented my idea. while speaking, I walked towards Alson’s side slowly and paused just behind him. Just then, I stopped my presentation at the perfect timing and asked ‘any questions?’. I hqd ‘accidentally’ dropped my pen beside him at the same instant. While colleagues start to raise question, I bend down for my pen.
Alson knew what I was up to. I smiled seductively while looking at him as I bend down, picked my pen. giving him a generous view of my cleavage (I’m a C) and brushed my palm on his ’tent’ before standing straight up. Luckily the table was high enough to shield whatever I had done.
When the meeting was over, I received an email. It was Alson, my boyfriend.
Hi sexy,
That was damn sexy back there. I’m hard for you now.. How?
Love you, A
I replied.
Hi handsome,
That was damn teasing back there. I’m wet for you now.. How?
See you this evening.
Laughing, M
~/flashback~
We were so in love. That weekend, we booked a room for a couple getaway.
And that weekend, I gave myself to him.
I let him, inside.
Temptation - O for Ouch
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It was my first time going to a hotel with him, and I was so excited… That will be the first time we could have some intimate times without disturbance. As I had prior appointment, he checked into the room first.
I arrived at M hotel that evening. He came down to fetch me, partly because we’ll need the room card for lift access. I could sense the tension in the lift. Once in the room, I was fascinated by the mini couch near the window.
Me: (moves to the couch) wow! Got couch! This is comfy! Good view from here too. (Stands at the window looking out at the scenery)
Alson: yes, pretty view.. Pretty you. (Standing behind me and whispers into my ears)
He hugged me from the back and i could feel his warm breath. He is so near me. We stood in silence for about 10aeconds before he shifts his hands upwards slowly.. And finally stopped as they cupped my breasts outside my silky blouse. I turned my head to meet his eyes and we locked in a passionately wet kiss. Alson then turned me to face him and he laid me gently on the couch, still kissing me.
Alson: shall we move to the bed?
Me: (nods sheepishly)
Alson: i gonna eat you tonight (grins)
I smacked him playfully on the chest as we moves to the bed.
Alson: darling, remove your clothes so they won’t be crumpled..
Me: you want to see ah? (Blushes hard)
I gestured him to the bed, and i stood beside it. Slowly, i began to strip. I loosen my bottom and stepped out of it. Alson gasped. I had
this
on…. I removed my top and he saw a matching bra… From his reaction, i think he like what he saw.
Alson: come to the bed dear..
I crawled on the bed and moved to his side under the blanket, blushing. He took my chin in his hand and planted a soft kiss on my lips, while he’s on top of me.
Alson: tonight, you are mine…
Me: (kisses harder in reply)
His hands roamed up and twirls his index finger around the outside of my black laced bra. I moaned softly and hugged him tightly. I felt him pulling the top of my bra down, and touched my protruding nipple. I shivered and moaned.. This feels good..
I slide my hand down and rubbed from the outside of his shorts. He groaned.. I’d missed his groaning so much.
Me: i want you..
Alson: what do you want? I can’t hear you.
Me: i want you in me..
Alson: really? You want this in you? (Rubs his penis outside of the laced panties)
Me: (nods gently and moans..)
Alson: im so happy u r willing to give your first time to me.. (Kisses deeply)
In a single motion, he pulled my panties down, revealing my most inner secret place. I blushed, as he ran his finger up n down.
Alson: you are so wet.. (Kisses me while unclipping my bra. In no time, my boobs sprung free.)
Me: you like..? (Tries to cover my breasts w my hands)
Alson: (holds my hands) don’t cover.. They look delicious.. (He inched in and suddenly flicked his tongue on my right nipple)
Me: ah….. I want.. (In a tiny voice)
Alson: (suckles harder and making a hmmmm sound) i want to fuck you so hard..
Spreading my legs open, he looked at me with such loving eyes. I bit my lower lip as he positioned his penis just outside me.
Alson: i love you…
He pushed in a little.
Ouch.
He pushed further..
No.. Its painful..
He attempted another push.
Me: no!!!! Pain….!!!!
Alson stopped. I stopped, with tears in my eyes.
Alson: darling u ok..?
Me: cannot.. Pain.. Very painful…
Alson: ok… (Strokes my hair) poor thing..
I sat up and guided him to lie on the bed instead. I gave him a mindblowing bj (as described by him) and we both cuddled each other till the next morning..
~/flashback~
After 20mins, I am still crying. At my wedding night, on my wedding bed. Thomas had already slept soundly beside me. I looked at him, and sighed. I am sorry.. I do love you but sometimes in life, someone will always stay in your heart and mind. They might not be the one we end up with, but definitely one we will never forget.
The room was dark, save for a tiny light coming from my hp. With tears, i typed.
Me: Hi… Thank you for the wishes. I remembered you once said too, that it is wonderful to be looking at the night sky with me. Remember the orion belt? You mentioned that i am the one on the left, and you are the last on the right. But you sigh when i asked ‘what about the middle star?’ You knew that Thomas is the middle star, don’t you? I am looking at the orion belt now from the window, and thinking of you. Sometimes in life, the person you loved the most might not be the one you will marry. Those memories, i will keep them in my heart. Those days when I’m with you, i was really happy. As long as you are happy, i am happy too. You once said that to me as well. I wish that you will find another sun in your life, for I have no more sunshine. Alson, me having heart problems is the only thing I did not tell you. Because I fear to lose you. I love you… I am sorry.. I am in no position to love you anymore. Goodbye… I do love you.. I really do.
With a click of the ‘send’ button, i broke down once again. I felt guilt towards Thomas, grief over the loss of Alson. I blamed myself for wrecking my own life, why do i have heart problems.. Why can’t i be a normal person without serious illness? Why can’t i let go of Alson? why am i hurting Thomas too?i am a terrible, terrible girl……
Lights flashed across the room. I peeped at my phone.
Alson: Maybel.. Let’s meet when you are free. Our relationship is complicated. We should talk about it. I won’t force you if you don’t want to. It just pains me to see your msg. You have blamed yourself so much., please don’t… Just be happy. Be happy ok?
Next update.. The last part of my story, my true story.
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koebshaq0_0
Finally the installment arrived. Thanks Sis!
Thank you for your support
Its comments like these that made me motivated to write on.
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Originally Posted by
cocacola2012
It sounds romance to say in life the person you loved the most may not be the one you will marry to, but why creating this kind of complicated stuff? Life is just once, you should go after your dream one, always.
I would love to have a simple life too..
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digdug
Great job, great writing..
I love your story! *fan girl*
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SeniSeis
wa so fast last part liao ?
Good story sister.
Actually there r more stories but im not sure whether to write down or not..
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coolcam
Wow sister that is some good writing! As i can really feel the emotion.
Yes, That is what make life so interesting… If not this website will also not up.
Hope all is well for you!
Stay cool!
Thank you for ur support
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Overweightgal
I like your story…. And I can understand the feeling that you got that time… I can feel it…..
We girls feel it more I reckon.
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best_exp
this was awesome story I never read here before and true sometimes we have to let go the most thing we love for some reason because we still have long to go in our life and need to learn how forget our pass.
Ladies are more emotional I supposed. Keeping the past in our hearts, we can let them go, but we don’t need to forget them
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stoked
I know exactly how you feel. The one woman I love with all my heart and soul, whom I could give everything for…I can never be with her again.
Yap, sometimes that’s life.
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eeemen
Thanks for sharing such a moving story. So real that I can relate to them! Thanks again, cheers, ……………………
Thank you for liking it
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Rickey
Like the latest instalment so sensually written n posted by TS tgt wif a little pic….so is tat really the end of the story ??
I’m still considering whether to continue with this story…
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highspeedtrain
TS, I cried reading your story. I think it’s really brave of you to be able to write about it.
Yup, it isn’t easy penning down the memories. Still very clear in my mind.. Anyway, thank you for ur comment
Temptation - N for Never
*****
Holding hands, we walked along the beach. It is near evening, and we are just relaxing and thinking of what to have for dinner.
Me: what should we have for dinner later?
Alson: I want you. (Giggles)
Me: (hits his arms playfully and grins) weiii! The restaurants here are really expensive! Let’s have cup noodles later?
Alson: Miss, what you expect? Bintan leh.
After dinner, he held my hands tight as we walk back to our resort. The sky was clear, and the stars were bright. I will never forget what he said to me.
Alson: You know, its been a long time since we star gazed. (Holds my hands even tighter).
Me: (smiles) I would like to do this with you forever.
Alson: i would like to do you forever.
Me: weiii!! Hahaha!
Alson: (strokes my hair gently) Nothing can break us, don’t worry. I will be by your side.
‘I will be by your side’… Echoed as I stared at the blank walls. In my right hand, I had my phone with me. I scrolled through the message again.
Alson: Maybel… I love you. I tried to forget you these few months but I couldn’t.. I am sorry I said this, esp when you are already married. Its a mixture of feelings for me too. I have never love someone so hard before. You have been avoiding me ever since your wedding. Are you okay? You know I won’t force you to do what you don’t like. I will be by your side. Just one word from you and I will be out of your life.. You know I will do it for you.
A teardrop lands on the phone. I took another 10mins before i reply.
Me: Tomorrow. Vivo. 7pm.
Alson: thank you. See you.
Fact is, i wasn’t avoiding him. I was in and out of Sg for operations. I was resting and could not answer calls or msg. I was basically just weak and recuperating. But im ok, and is ready to meet him.
I reached earlier so I queued for seats first. After being seated for about 10mins, he arrived.
Alson: Hi.. Ordered?
Me: nope, waiting for you.
Alson: Come I order your fav chicken. (Big smile)
Me: (after ordering) how have you been?
Alson: (ignoring my qn) you look damn pale. U alright?
Me: yup.. (Manages a weak smile)
He placed his right palm on my left cheek and sighed. He used to do this to me alot when we were together. My tears ran down immediately.
Alson: (taking his hand away) sorry.. Please don’t cry. Don’t cry anymore okay? Be happy.
Me: (hands phone over to him, with notes app turned on) read this.
‘Wei… I think I have no courage to tell you face to face so here goes. I did not avoid you, I was overseas for operations. Thomas paid for them, i am eternally grateful towards him. But.. U know what? I had missed you.. There wasn’t a second I ain’t thinking about you.. What we had gone through.. I thought our bond is stronger than that. I left you because I don’t want to burden you. I know I am selfish. I had done Thomas wrong.. But i could not control my emotions… The feelings I had for you.. I am supposed to keep them in. It takes a lot of courage to tell you things, simply because I don’t know how you will react. And I care about how you will react because I realized.. That I really love you. Saying these will not help anything.. But for me, be happy okay? Deep within me, i still feel you are part of me, and this will not change..’ (I omitted some private words)
I looked at him as he read the msg that took me 2 hrs to write, and he took 1min to read.
Me: (trying to loosen up the mood) wei! I took 2 hrs to write and you read so fast!
Alson: (reached over and hugged me.. Tight) you silly girl… Silly..
He brought me to a hotel he booked the previous night when he knew he will be meeting me. He got wind that Thomas was overseas and that we were already applying for annulment of marriage (We did not in the end, but that’s another story). It was M hotel again.
As we stepped into the room, Alson hugged me from behind and whispered,
Alson: remember the couch?
Me: yes… (Walks towards it. He had booked the same room as our getaway).
Alson: (starts to undress me) I miss you..
Me: (closes my eyes and hugs him tighter in reply) hmmm…
Alson: (circles his fingers around my nipples and kisses my ears) i really love you.. You are still so sensitive..
Me: (kisses his lips) Love kissing you..
Alson: then i’ll let you kiss me for the next 10mins (grins)
Me: you are so naught…ahh!
Alson: (tunes my nipple) who is the naughty one here..?
Me: (moans softly) i am wet…
Alson: is it? Let me check.. (Hand reaches down and pushes a finger in) someone is very wet… See? (Raises finger up to his lips and licks..) you taste like honey.. Darling.
Me: ahhh.. (Blushes) i want…
Alson: (bring ear close to my lips) what you want…?
Me: you… Please…
Alson: i can’t hear you..
Me: please dear.. Fuck me..
Alson: (whispers) good girl… Spread your legs for me.
Me: (spread legs a little, lips biting my left index finger, right hand covering myself between my legs) hmm..
Alson: (sweeps my right hand away and positioned his manhood down south.
Alson: (planting kisses over me) i just want to let you know, that I am never gonna let you go.
Never.
-End of ‘My Wedding Night, the Start of it all…’
Thank you for reading.
*****
Epilogue up next.
Epilogue
To get married to the one you love… Is it that hard?
Why are we struggling so much?
Why can’t I forget you?
I stared blankly out of the window… And shook my thoughts away.
It has been a couple years since the day I’m married. I’d thought our relationship has ended on that fateful night when I said sorry, but little did I know that my wedding night is the start of it all…
I leaned my forehead against the cold window glass. We were in a triangle relationship, and now.. We are in an affair. How long will this last? How far can we go? How much more can I take?
On and off, we met up. There weren’t much that we did, but the physical and emotional chemistry are still there. He would poke fun of me, I would be laughing at his jokes. We are still close friends, but perhaps.. perhaps.. only by name.
I couldn’t forget him. Soon enough, I isolated myself. I deleted him off all social media. I am not active on facebook, twitter, etc anymore. I was dealing with my own illness, and guess what..? Because of the things I couldn’t share with him anymore, I started a blog about him, got to know someone who has the same story as me, only that he is a guy. And.. we fell in love.
He was the reason for me to get over Alson. I added Alson back on Facebook, we started chatting again, and we met up. One thing he said to me which I’ll never forget, is this.
“Its a rebound. You are falling in love with him because he is like me.”
I didn’t realize he was right.
After that affair ended (that’s another story), I was back to square one.
So if you ask me now, what’s my epilogue? I would say..
I’ve been there, done that. Once bitten, twice shy. Temptation doesn’t hold much meaning to me anymore. I won’t want to ruin my marriage anymore. I still miss Alson, but perhaps I’m just missing the him back then, the Alson that gave me undivided attention, the Alson whom loved me with all his heart.
That Alson is gone.
Due to the lack of love in my marriage, I turned to another source. Will I do it again? Perhaps yes, maybe no. I’m only human.
Thank you for reading this story. Only one who had went through this will know exactly how I feel, morals aside.
And I wonder if you are reading this. Of course, names were changed, but you will know I’m talking about you. In any case you ignoring me recently is due to you knowing about this thread, don’t worry. I will always be around you, as a friend, a confidant, a companion. I know you do not love me anymore, I am fine with that. I treasure our memories (i’m sure you too) and that is enough.
Next life, promise?
The End.
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Sis, thx for sharing with us yr life story and concluding it with a heart-breaking epilogue.
If Alson were to read what you wrote on this thread, I’m sure he would be touched.
I also hope that all goes well with yr marriage. You did mention that yr husband is a very good man who treats u very well, but u also said that yr love for him lacks that fiery intensity.
I have one question for you tho: do u think u can live with that kind of marriage for the rest of yr life?
There is no right and wrong answer. I have met couples who continued to get along like good friends even w/o wonderful sex, and I’ve met couples who have great sex lives but quarrel and fight and end up in divorce …
I just met a girl last night who is trapped in a loveless marriage and she broke into tears a few times while sharing her story to me. Deep inside I was thinking, why don’t you just divorce him already … but I didn’t manage to say it out. There are so many unhappy couples all around me. I can’t possibly be asking all of them to just break up. It’s simply more easily said than done …
Sister, whatever yr decision might be, remember that it will affect the lives of at least 4 people: u, yr hubby, Alson and his partner. I do hope u take care of yrself and yr health. God bless u!
Thank you for reading and leaving a msg
Interestingly, I dreamt yesterday that my husband betrayed me for another lady and I was all upset and etc in my dream.
I guess this dream will answer your question.
I reckon that there is no absolute in this world, and that one day he might be the one who wants to divorce me first. Marriage comes with much more, and love is only part of it.
Some people feel that love is everything in a marriage, while some think otherwise. Either way, like what you’ve said, there is no right or wrong. Our perspective change with time as well, so I might tell you now yes I can, but one year later I couldn’t. That’s life.
I loved Alson deeply, which is why this comes back to me once in awhile. But I came to realize that love/sweet talks are all just a passing phase, temptation is the root to all evil.
That said, I am no saint. Which is why I succumbed to temptation. There are so much more I have to learn.
I wish Alson all the best, and that he will be happy.
And thank you, for your well wishes.