Ok bro.. I try la ha.. Habitual leh.. hahaha….
A bit on J.
Well, how 2 put it? She’s not dat ugly, but definitely not 1 2 turn heads when she walks down the streets.
No big watery eyes like Jap comics characters, she has not so big eyes (normal la.. smallish but not that small), single eyelids, untrimmed eyebrows.
No fair white creamy smooth complexion, she’s kinda tanned n has the usual blemishes of gers in the tropics, but nothing like the pus-oozing acne-filled faces la.. hahahaha…
No fancy saloon cut n set hairstyle, jus the good old neck-length squarish neighbourhood cut.
No curvy figure 2 set men drooling over her, neither is she fat like a baby elephant (I had that in later part of my life. Heh! I kinda like it leh… SICK! I know.. hahahaha…), jus a sporty frame. No part her is of spectacular proportions (well, 2 a certain extent, i wld say ‘I drop my spectacles’, ther r still hidden treasures. hehehe…) Seemed good height for a ger, well, at least 2 me, around 1.6-165?? (I short ma!).
1 thing bot her that failed 2 attract guys’ attention is her lack of dressing sense. (the other reason oso cos she always hang around my ex gf, wa lan eh.. of cos by comparison she looked bad la..) Most times in 1-size bigger dull coloured T-shirts, jeans n track shoes. Nothing revealing or trendy. No fancy body-hugging dresses either. No 3 inch heels. In fact, can say her dressing is OBIANG! Totally lack of sex-appeal. To young guys in their early 20s, they’ll nvr set eyes on a simple ger like her.
Well, jus a simple word 2 summarise. PLAIN.
Wa lan eh???!!! How com so many ppl?
Shhhhh… I mus concentrate.. Old man liao.. memory not dat goot..
hahaha… but very encouraged by audience turnout. hahaha..
Soon things between me n my ger got so bad. I began 2 sense dat she doesn’t luv me anymor. She was cold 2wards me. Gone were laughters n fun in bed. We hardly hav any mor luving times. Everytime we meet up, always ended up quarrelling. Perhaps all those rumors I’ve been hearing was true? Dat she is seeing some NUS ah xia liao? Not 1 who can turn a blind eye 2 such betrayal, I decided 2 find out 4 myself…
Took a day’s leave, n i set out 2 find the truth. I kept mummed about my mission even frm J. But i sensed that she sensed somthing brewing…
I stake out at the campus, with information gathered from J n some old schoolmates who r oso undergrads there. Waited n waited whole day, then thinking 2 myself it was going 2 b an uneventful trip, I’ll jus go back n cool off n think of a solution. And then, jus as i was walking out, there in the distance, some1 familiar caught my eyes. It was my ger. N wait! who was dat beside her?!!! They were getting in2 the guy’s car!! Jus the 2 of them! My blood boiled!! I ran 2wards them, wanting 2 catch up n confront them, find out wats going on??!! NB.. 2 far away.. on-lookers wondering who is this Mister FLASH running past them.. Then, they jus sped off..
I stopped. Now totally confused! WTF going on? I wanna killed dat fella! heh wait, may b misunderstanding leh.. jus friends giving a lift 2 her? But wait! wat about the rumours?.. ARGGHHHH!!!!! Very LUAN!!!
I jus walked aimlessly out.. My mind just blank..
N then unknowingly, I ended up at my ger’s neighbourhood.. Should I jus go 2 her hse n confront her?
I went 2 a nearby payphone n called her hse. Ring long time, no 1 answer. KNN, tu lan liao. Is she back hm? I picked up enuf courage n walked 2 her hse. Walking down the street, BLODDY HELL!! Saw the same car outside her hse, n CB she getting in2 the car. Fuck! dressed so nice go where???!! KNN I run again after it, trying 2 catch up! n they jus sped off, without knowing a crazy man chasing behind (or may b not??!!)
Damned! missed 2x.. Wa lan, now stomach got butterflies, blood boiling..
Anyway here liao, press the bell, her maid came out. Asked where my ger off 2? She shake her head. Asked who was the guy she went 2? She shake her head.. KNN.. She knew I was the bf, although i seldom go 2 her hse anymor since meeting her parents n they weren’t 2 fond of me. CB maid oso help keep secret frm me… Ultra Tu Lan!!!! Not wanting 2 bump in2 the parents when they come hm.. I went off.
As I walked down the streets, I suddenly felt my heart pain!! Sourly feelings, n dunno y, i started tearing up (I’m not those emotional type 1s n hav difficulty crying even when I’m sad).. I couldn’t breath.. OMG!!!!!
Couldn’t think straight, i know I NEED 2 confront my ger n find out the truth. How I’ll react, I dunno. May b wallup the guy? Or kill the bugger? or kill the both of them!!! Or jus walk away??
Unknowingly, the 1st person dat I want 2 look 4 then was J. I NEED 2 talk 2 some1..
I went 2 payphone n called her, not hm yet. SHIT! Dunno where n what 2 do.. Shld I stake out at my gers’ place n wait for her, catch her red-handed?!!! Yes! I’ll do that!
Time jus slowed down. minutes like hours. Wondering around the neighbourhood dunno wher 2 go n wat 2 do. Jus waited n waited..
Called J again, finally she hm.. told her wat happened.. she tried 2 calm me down.. Knowing that I’ve found out the truth liao, she rushed out to meet me n tried 2 keep me in checked…
Haiz.. +++ about sad stories (Pai seh, drifted away)
Ok. Let’s jus say what happened that night, I was not proud of la. Big hoo ha.. My ex-ger was cheating on me (haiz.. later in life i realise this jus the 1st of my many heartache..).
Following the days of my heartache, life seemed like no meaning leh. I was wallowing in self-pity. At times angry with every1 around me, but at times angry n ashame of myself. I jus wanna b alone. Frens gathering, dun wanna go. Colleagues gathering, dun wanna go. Dun wanna know new frens, dun wanna cheong. Jus wanna b alone. Wake up, go work, attend lessons, go hm sleep… same o same o.. Like a zombie.. I felt the whole world crushing down on me. Nobody cares bot me.. Haizzzz.. Ko Lian AH!!!!!
Only J. She called me. Asked me go out. Asked me go lim kopi. or jus called 2 chat. In some ways, I was angry wif her as well, 4 not telling me something going on liao. But, I dun blame her. I treasured loyalty as much oso.
Since that incident, she grew apart frm my ex. U know la, in heated arguements, we will sometimes say hurtful words.
She called me every other day. Asked me out on weekends 2 join her schoolmates outings (if any), or jus plain go walk walk.
I turned her down everytime. Well, I turned every1 down. Just wanna live in my own miserable world. She asked if I ok, oso few words.
But she was patient. Slowly, I began 2 chat with her more. But never mention anything 2 do wif my ex. She already dead in my heart.
We talk about any topics lor. TV show la oso can chat dam long.
Sometimes come hm late liao jus talk 2 her on the phone oso shiok. So comfy..
But 1s she asked me go out, I jus turned her down. Not running away frm her la. I know she meant well, want me 2 get out of my cocoon. But i jus din feel i was ready 2 face the world again.
Yo bros,
pai seh pai seh.. I think I really drifted away..
Sorry bros. Gtg 2.. See u guys on Monday ya.. Have a nice weekend! TGIF!!!!
Cheers!!
Hi all, sorry 2 keep all waiting..
tis getting out of pt. Apologises. Jus a sad episode during younger days.
Ah bros, the length of the thread beyond my control, all r welcome 2 tcss. Tis is a free forum. Pai seh ah.
Ok. Where was i? Hmm… Well, as it goes, i was a heart broken man (or boy for that matter).
U know la, when u heart broken, the whole world jus comes 2 a stand-still. J was the oni connection 2 sanity 4 me. Come 2 think of it, I shldn’t hav written bot her. (Oni wanna write bot inconsequential flings, gers who dun mean much 2 me) Ah, but wtf, she sort of fell in2 the ‘grey’ areas. hee..
So after 2-3 months or so of ‘healing’, I finally plucked up enuf courage 2 face the world again. So when she asked me out 1 weekend 2 celebrate her completion of the course, I gladly accepted the invitation. Well, at least it was a special occasion. Afterall, she was ther 4 me during the bad times.
So we met up with her schoolmates as well, on the pretext of celebrating their end of school term n stepping in2 the society. Ah! Oso remembered was oso 2 hitched me up wif some of the schoolmates as well.
(Sidetrack a bit, there’s tis unspoken practice dat the undergrads will try 2 get hitched during the Uni days, those who still have not do so by the end of their uni life, they’ll try 2 do so 2 meet the deadline. Dun ask me y, I’m not frm NUS. tis can be another dicussion. :P)
So met at the famous cafe joint for dinner (go-dutch). Nothing much cos i was like a gong gong so sianz n all the grads tcss. Nothing interest me (ya, not even the gers, 1 of which rem was quite sweet looking but the kwai kwai type.) So i jus sat there n smile like an idiot.
J saw I was quite bo liaoz. Tried 2 bring me in2 their discussions. Mus say most of them quite nice n try 2 chat me up by asking me qns like how’s working life like la..etc.. I jus give simple answers n thus the conversation din carry on 2 any length. Though much of the attention was centred on me (macem a little lamb in a pack of hungry female wolves. hahaha…), I felt like an outcast.
That nite, ther were guys in the group as well. And later I found out dat 1 of the guy was actually trying 2 court J (the lingo then was ’try 2 go steady’ wif her). Whether i was a ‘shield’ 2 J or not for dat nite, I hav never seek confirmation.(Well, told u I was not interested at all liao lo.) Rem the guy 2 b a nerdy fella, n the whole nite was trying 2 wrestle for J’s attention. However, J was simply not interested in him n was trying 2 make me feel easy. Rem, it was a damn bloody long dinner. Till I almost zzzz.
As the nite wore on, I was getting very bored. N as the place started 2 pack-up wif the ‘clubbing crowd’, I decided 2 move around. Excused myself n proceed 2 go for a long ’toilet break’. I stayed downstairs 2 enjoy the live band (amuse myself wif the faggot lead singer.. haha.. those were the days..)
I was soon immersing myself in the jiving music and lost track of time. I awakened by a tap on my shoulder. Ah! It was J, simling 2 me. Until then, I’ve not really taken note of her for the nite, she actually looked different n i was a little puzzled at 1st cos din recognise her! (hahaha.. I’ll explain later) She told me dat her frens were splitting up liao. Some r moving 2 the other ‘hip’ joint (the 1 at jiak kim st.), asked me 2 join. Erhh.. that place not so much my kinda joint (I’m ‘rocker’ then ma….hahaha..). Told her 2 go ahead n that i wanna stay put. Assured her that I b fine. She asked me 2 wait for her while she go check wif her frens’ plans. Ok lor. I’m not bothered at all.
She came back with a smaller group. J, the geek (chasing her 1 la) n his sidekick (equally geek), n 3 of her gfs. 1 ah pui, 1 ah san, n a ‘stoned’ ger who always look ‘Blank’ (no not on drugs, she jus hav the blank look. But heh dun larf, she’s a top student k!, going 4 her honors year 1 hor. So i was told)
So ther I was, KNN wif a gang of misfits hanging around. Damned! I actually frequent the place since NS days till my self-enforced ‘hibernation’. TMD, really dun wanna b seen wif a group of ‘un-cool’ geeks leh, how 2 put my face when I bumped in2 some1 I know? (1 of the bouncer recognised me, so I was trying not 2 walk pass there.. haha..)
I know i know, I should nvr look down on ppl like dat. But young time thinking not so matured ma. Probably i was feeling inferior 2 them academically, so ’this’(I’m a ROCKER ma..) was the oni thing I was feeling superior lor.. Ya childish, i know..
Anyways, ther i was, trying 2 b ‘cool’. I was in my ‘hip’ attire (Levis 501, black T, n doc-marts.. ya, dat was cool wo… hahaha..) dan I see the ah pui, ah san, n gong gong queen, (the 3 musketeers), wif the ’laurel n hardy twins’, Ahhh!!! Boring Leh.. So I tried 2 keep my distance (i know i very swei la.), with J acting at the ‘buffer’ between me n them.
Ah, abot J, hmm….. she looked different 2nite. Until then I wasn’t paying much attention 2 her. I was still living in my own world. 1st thing met up wif her I oni noticed her new hair-do, shorter but funkier, n something mor dat was different. I put it down 2 overall dressing, not paying particular attention 2 individual areas. Now, I hav the luxury of time n start 2 take notice of her.
Under the glittering lights, i started 2 admire her in detail (ah, jus in case u were wondering, i was not under the influence of alcohol, erm. well drink beer but certainly very very sober, n the illumination was enuf 2 see clearly)
Gone were her baggy Ts, 2nite she put on a black halter-neck top, revealing her well-toned n tanned arms n back n nice shoulders (nothing like a body builder la, jus sporty), can see her tanned lines (not bikini, 1 pc swim costume type). Hmm. see her arms her complexion not bad leh, but the face can’t be said the same… but wait! eh? did she go 4 make-over? hmm. better liao, less pimples ah or was it the make-up (ha? make-up?) Wa…. I was really missing out something here. OK OK .. mus pay attention liao. N Mr. laurel was almost drooling the whole nite.
I stood 1 corner, bottle of corona in my hand. (they dun drink. u see wat i meant?). Look at them dance, correction, look at J dance. ha.. not bad sial.. she got learn? I asked myself. (She was in her sec dance troop.. later i know.. then oni know she’s black belt in TKD
hahaha..)
I’ve never seen her in make-up (well, the most was a dash of lipstick from my ex.. ah that bitch! ok ok shut-off her..) nothing fancy b4.
2nite, not oni she done up her hair, (shorter but got some styling, better looking), she put some eye shadow, mascara, a bit of blusher, ah.. those lips… never notice she has such nice full sexy lips… which was brought out by the red lipstick.. (not the bright red like gorilla lips la.. very nice 1, right choice). Overall, she gave a really very refresing look. No more the or or (dark) n dirty image.. (not really dirty la, but more of sloppy..)
Ah! the dressing, hmm.. tight jeans. Nice butt! Never notice cos always hidden by the tuck-out over-sized T.. + loose jeans don’t accentuate her curvature. N…. hahaha.. she’s wearing heels! (I was wondering how come .. she grew taller liao? or I become shorter..).. Nvr seen her in heels, always track shoes n sandals.. ha! those pointed toe boots somemor.. (not the pretty woman 1 la, mid-cut type covered by the jeans).. very nice..
Then, being a boobs man, I started 2 take notice of her bosom. Last time oni know she got a bit ’liao’ (from my ex.. gers!). But was skeptical oni. Previously assessed to be a full A-cup or may b the most a half-B.. Hmm.. with the top having a lower cut, occassionally revealing her ’longkang’ a bit when she danced, ah….. slurp slurp..hahaha.. she noticed me staring at her n she adjusted her top 2 hide them away.. Shld be at least a full-B if not more… Haizzz.. how come nvr notice her leh? too bad the top not body-hugging enuf 4 me 2 examine more.
The group really semmed 2 be enjoying themselves. May b after all these years of stressed out studies, they jus wanna let loose. Well, J was certainly enjoying herslf.
My eyes were fixed on J. Though there were many pretty hot things around, I wasn’t in much mood 2 make any moves (me still a ‘relatively good boy/green horn’ then. hahaha..well, in the picking up of ONS at least..). As the nite wear on, every1 was losening up. I got jugs of beer n started 2 coxed them in2 drinking (drink alone boring ma..). The gers din take 2 beer that well. It was the 2 jokers who tried 2 act garang n try 2 jio me drink. Well, though I was still not a very good drinker then, I still know how 2 control my drinks. Moreover, I’ve ‘seasoned’ myself up with earlier drinks. (U know la, u drink slowly at 1st n the body start 2 get accustomed 2 the alcohol, u can hold more later on.) BUt the 2 kuku bird, haizzz.. dunno wat 2 say.. really an embarassment man! 1 glass each down n they started 2 ‘high’ liao. Under the influence of alcohol, the guy trying 2 tackle J became bolder. J was like trying 2 siam him, but his sidekick was trying 2 make way for his fren. The gers were of not much help either. So J a bit tu lan liao (but she mild-mannered type, so jus oni walk away, not confrontational). She came up 2 me n join me.
Asked her y she dun carry on. She jus said tired.
We were like shouting over the loud music, so we got tired of conversing n jus keep quiet. She got my hint n jus stay by me.
Because all this while we been chatting wif each other, we’ve built up a pretty good rapport. Thus we tried 2 communicate thru’ a combination of facial expressions, sign language n eye contacts..
For a few times, I noticed J staring at me (I saw thru the corner of my eye) and when I turn around, she jus tried 2 masked it away by looking at the floor or elsewhere. Hmm, she looked as if she had something 2 tell me? Or she bothered by something else? the joker on the dance floor? May b….
I was jus laying back n enjoying the music. By now, the band was up 4 their final gig for the nite. So those jokers were back frm the dance floor 2 watch the live band play. The 2 guys were again making moves on J. She was like sort of hiding behind me instead. So I sensed that she was trying 2 avoid the guys so jio them finish the drinks la.. KNN the 2 chaps though a bit buay song wif me, they still drink up 2 show they r ‘man’ enuf. (Of cos la, I bought the drinks wat, jus grad they oso not so much $, though I dun make much dat time, but still can affort occassional jug of beer la.)
I was planning 2 go after dat jug n go off after the gig so din get mor drinks (Crowded oso, damn diff 2 get drinks) So jus stand there enjoy music. Once the band finished, the DJ played n the jokers started 2 dance 2 the music again. I told J I wanna move soon n if she wanna stay on wif her frens? She look in2 my eyes n froze 4 a moment.. Ha! dat ’look again.. What was that?
Like telling me not 2 go kinda look.. But I was done wif my ‘relaxation’ n see no point hanging around any longer, certainly not wif those jokers. She asked me 2 wait a while. Ok, i wait outside. Went 2 say hi 2 the bouncer. Stood outside smoke while I waited.
She came out, with the troop of jokers behind her. KNN the guy (after her 1) really buay sai liao.. almost tripping down the stairs. Haizzz.. So ended up all balek kumpung la.. Robin sent Batman go hm. the 3 musketeers (ah pui, ah san, n the blur queen) decided 2 catch 1 cab go hm (cos 5 o us ma..) they jio J but J asked them 2 go ahead, she’ll go wif me. Stealing glance at me, as if waiting 4 my acknowledgement. Not thinking 2 much, I of cos ok la, fren ma. So there we were, 2 of us finally alone. Like almost telepathic, we jus took a stroll instead of hoping in2 the waiting cabs.. chatting along the way, like long lost frens….
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i’mscrewed
Errr…can you tell us what happened after you waiting for your gf to come home?? sorry…i know you are trying to tell us the bedding story…but as i read…my heart went out to you and was beating furiously to find out how you finally discovered the betrayal and what kind of excuse your ex gave you…
Thanks bro 4 your concern.. Haizzz.. but it was a dark period o my life.. made me grow up.. I dun wanna t o k abot it (like the Rod Steward song…)…
Appreciated.