What should I do?
I realised after that night, that no one has made me feel so loved before. I wanted to be with him.. And he expressively said that he would want to brace through all with me. I was touched…
Time passed and a few weeks later, we are behaving like secret lovers. We will meet for lunch with the excuse of doing work - but actually it is just to see each other and yes, colleagues were suspicious but did not really say anything much. I was confused, and he was in bliss (I guessed haha).
One night as he walked me home, we decided to sit at a nearby open space basketball court chatting. Anyhow, it was dark, at this not-so-secluded place. He is always so daring. Makes me scared but gets me excited as well.
He kissed me.. for a whole good minute. I wished time stopped at that moment. Slowly, he moved his hands up to my blouse and stroked gently at my cleavage. I moaned softly into his ears… He was very horny, so was I. He started to peel his pants down.. Unzipped, he took out his dick and showed me. Again, it was very dark and so I couldn’t see very well. But its the first time I touched his dick.
It was warm… hard.. and very sexy.
I whispered to him and asked him to stroke himself.. I love seeing him touching himself… We were both lost in our world.. And did not realise we were at a public place. Up till today, I do not know whether anyone saw us that night.
There are much more rendezvous moments with him.. which I will pen them down here eventually… Every encounter with him is like peeling one petal off a rose, one petal at a time. The events were kinky, fun, but coupled with a bittersweet after taste, knowing that we will never be together.
Stay tuned…
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Originally Posted by
KingEros
We were all young once … so it’s normal to make wrong decisions.
Just pretty sad … when such wrong decisions are based on how others think.
At the end of the day, it should always be a case of “人不为己，天诛地灭”
Assuming that this should not be too distant a memory for you, any chance of rekindling something & making it more permanent with this nice guy?
He’s a very nice person no doubt, I believed so even till now.
But it is not possible for us to be together anymore…this lifetime.
Up till today, I do not know whether anyone saw us that night.
During the ‘relationship’ with him, I created a blog penning down our lovely moments (the blog is now deleted but I kept some entries with me). This is why I reckon some of you might recognise me from my nickname as you might have bumped into my old blog before. Below’s one of our fun moments not long after that night at the basketball court.
Washroom Deed
I’ve forgotten how the topic came into the picture, but before we knew it, we were already exchanging text messages about each other’s fantasies in the office… at the office. Soon after, I texted him, “Go to the gents now and call me….”.
And so being the good and sweet boy he is, or probably too horny to resist, he called me shortly after, announcing proudly that he is in one of the loo’s cubicles.
“You know what to do.” I said professionally. Obviously I couldn’t let the colleague beside my cubicle hear. Then I whispered, “rub and stroke yourself..”.
“Ok..” He whispered and soon I began to hear soft groans.
My mind went wild with thoughts of his pants dropped down to his knee level, his undies pulled down, revealing his hard manhood and him pleasuring himself against the cubicle door. How I wish I could be by his side now… stroking him… licking and sucking his hard throbbing manhood…
Its torturing, because I can’t do anything except for listening. I was all wet, and I remembered shifting uncomfortably at my seat, preventing my wet juices from flowing.
If I could, I would LOVE to dash towards the ladies. Unfortunately, I had work to do at that point in time and moreover, there are only 2 cubicles at the ladies and its very, very echo-y and you can even hear a pin drop inside. So I dropped the idea.
Suddenly, he stopped and blurted “Hold on.” My lover chose a bad place to be. That particular Gents (My office building has plenty) has loads of gentlemen going in and out and its just not his day. So after a few “Hold on..” and “Wait.. Someone’s coming in”.. He gave up and went back to work.
My poor lover…
However, I told myself secretly, I’ve decided that I’ll compensate him with something else next time.. Something even better…
However, I told myself secretly, I’ve decided that I’ll compensate him with something else next time.. Something even better…
At work, we were just very normal colleagues, but whenever we meet outside working hours, we will behave very much like a couple.. but it has to be in private, and till today I am still sorry about this… Those were wonderful memories. These blog entries copied were written quite a long time ago.. when we were still ’together'.
Blog Entry - Cinema
I love watching movies at threatres without much people. Because in that way, I can quietly enjoy the movie, and at the same time, fondle him without much worries.
It was a kinda interesting movie. But of course I wasn’t paying attention to it. My attention was all on him. He was naughty, brushing his arm touching my breasts… His touch was so soft..
I brought a shawl because I knew that particular cinema is kinda cold. He made use of this opportunity perfectly. Hands reached over to fondle my left breast.. his finger touched my nipples and they erected almost immediately. I just love the way he can make my body yearn for more…
Then he moved his hands over to the right.. This time my nipple was already hard.. He whispered, “so hard already..” into my ears and I went crazy…
Slowly, he slides his hands down between my legs and rubs outside my pants… It made me so excited… I hesitated awhile before I reached my fingers down and unzipped.. giving him access to the secret place…
He was excited to learn that I was allowing him in.. and after a couple of brief rubs outside my panties.. he daringly pulled my panties aside and starts to stroke my wetness…
Man, it felt so good…
I was nearly moaning but luckily I remembered I was in the cinema. So the fondling continues…
Next, I slide my right hand over to his thighs.. strokes a little and proceeded to tug his pants a little. I wanted him to let me touch his hard dick.. I’m longing to touch it.. to rub.. to stroke and make him so high…
Wish I could give him a blowjob but its impossible in the cinema then.
But at the end of the day, I got him real hard (without cumming) and he got me real, real wet.
And guess what? I wasn’t watching the show afterall. =)
Looking back, we were really kinky huh?
And guess what? I wasn’t watching the show afterall. =)
To be honest, I can’t really pinpoint exactly when the events occur because it was really quite long ago. But here are some of the entries that still stir some emotions in me as I read them again. Like I’ve said, its not always sexual, but very true..
Blog Entry - Ways to Give Up
It must be the love we had for each other, the bond that is so strong, that until now, nothing separates us.
Why? Because we tried many ways to give each other up.
I told him not to contact me, we tried writing letters to each other, we talked about giving up over the phone, we even met face to face to talk about it…
But we just couldn’t let go.
The whole time, I was struggling. Nothing actually happened but everything happened at the same time too. Nothing happened because we ain’t together. But we were very close. Closer than normal friends. We were touching each other.. a whole alot.. and each time it happens, I crave for more. This constant desire is driving me crazy.
Anyhow, many things happened at the end of last year. My family went into a crisis. And right after, it happened to his family. We decided to shove this issue apart and focus on settling everything. But in the midst of it, we were exploring each other.. Loads of touching involved, and our encounters will be blogged here.. I haven’t complete our adventures… But I will do my best to write down while they’re still fresh in my mind…
Blog Entry - Thank You
I was feeling very down today.
I had a hard day at work, and everything wasn’t smooth for me.
So I texted you, asking you to meet me up.
You agreed without hesitation, knowing that I needed a listening ear.
Upon meeting, I told you I was really tired.
You could see that in my eyes anyway.
You stroked my hair gently, ocassionally massaging my neck.
Then we went to get some drinks at the 24/7 mart.
I told you when I’m feeling down, I just needed ice cream.
So we, like two big happy babies, bought Cornetto ice creams.
We sat at my void deck. I spoke, You listened. We ate, I spoke, you listened again.
I don’t know if you were listening, or simply staring at me.
Because I caught you looking at me in a strange way.
But it felt so comfy, just to sit and rant about my life.
Its getting late, and I need to go home.
You sent me up in the lift, smiling at me.
Doors closed, you moved closer.
We locked lips. We hugged.
Before we part, you plant a soft kiss on my cheek.
Thank you for coming down.
Thank you for giving me comfort.
Thank you for listening to me.
Thank you for the hug and kiss.
Thank you for tonight.
Blog Entry - Sweetness
We were sitting around, waiting for the train.
You mumbled some words I couldn’t make out.
So I leaned closer, asking you to repeat.
Suddenly, you kissed my right cheek gently.
Then you smiled, looking at the blushing me.
My heart is smiling. So am I.
Blog Entry - The day you held me… in my dream.
Yesterday, I dreamt of you.
You were smiling at me happily, and walking towards me.
Once we’re at arm’s length, you rushed forward and hugged me tightly.
Gently, you traced your fingers down from the side of my cheeks,
Bringing my chin up.. Your thumb traced the outline of my lips.
Then, you leaned closer and plant a soft kiss on my lips.
I prevented you from pulling away by placing my right hand at the back of your neck.
I wished this kiss was eternal.
As you break away, tears were streaming down from my cheeks.
Your eyes went red, and I hugged you a while more before I turned and walked away…
The dream ended, and I woke up staring into the blank air.
The heart is crying. So am I.
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Originally Posted by
deludedgal
so this guy is single? or “single”? haha
sorry missed your msg, he is still very much single.
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Originally Posted by
missybd
He’s a very nice person no doubt, I believed so even till now.
But it is not possible for us to be together anymore…this lifetime.
why is that so? you are single since you broke up with your bf and he is single right ?
Blog Entry - Adventure
I was dying to meet him, and so we arranged for a meetup to watch a film somewhere at the heartland area.
I didn’t care what film it was, I just know I need to be hugged and caressed…
After getting out and while waiting for the train, he called.
“Hey… Don’t need to arouse me later, I’m already wet. Hahaha!”
He meant the rain that was pouring chickens and ducks then.
I gave him a wide smile as I met him at the ticketing counter, and we proceeded to the theatre.
He got us a couple seat right at a back corner so no one could see us. The cinema was fairly filled, as it was afternoon, but our area was ‘cleared’ - no one beside nor in front of us.
Sweet him offered to buy food for me as I did not have my lunch. And so we enjoyed the first 20mins of the movie with his arms around my shoulders, me munching my burger and feeding him with french fries ocassionally. Being the naughty me, I made him suckle on my fingers that were coated with salt from the fries. I enjoyed while he swirl his tongue around the tip of my finger, flicking his tongue quickly while looking at me with lustful eyes.
My lover is hot.
After my quick lunch, it was getting cold and so I took out my jacket and covered it gently on me. He pressed closer and started to kiss me and I felt his hand sliding into my blouse…
I shifted slightly so that his hand is able to cup my bosom gently from outside my blouse. He started to fondle through the clothing for a little while before deciding to do more. I was wearing a fairly low cut top with a lacy demi bra and it was definitely a wise choice, because soon after, his hand found its way to my half erected nipples.
“So soft..” he whispered into my ears as he continued with his caress, and was satisfied to learnt that my nipples were already fully erected and hard from his touch.
By then, my hand was rubbing him from the outside of his jeans. I miss his manhood so much…
After a good few minutes of massaging my breasts and stroking my cleavage with his finger, he decided to pleasure me even more. Soon, his hands reached down between my legs and began to stroke me gently and slowly… I was breathing so hard into his ears, I wasn’t sure whether anyone else heard me. I managed to stop his hand in time, pushed him away, and placed my hand between his legs instead.
Frustrated with the thick clothing he was wearing, I began to tug at his zip. He understood me perfectly and gently held my hand and places it on his thigh while he unzipped… Immediately, I can feel myself getting wetter as I rubbed his hard dick from outside his undies. “Naughty girl..” was all he said before closing his eyes a while, indulging himself with my stroking… (obviously not watching the movie already).
Few men have managed to make me so horny just by looking at his expression. And it made me glad knowing that I’m by far the only one that can make him this way. One day I’ll want to see him unleashing the animal in him.. hmmm…
Meanwhile, we were oblivious to the movie and surrounding, and to be honest, a few times I’d wanted to grab him and just leave the cinema for some place where I could pleasure him… I wanted him so much…
By then, I could feel my wetness flowing a little out… And so I unzipped my pants and sinked into the seat, spreading my legs a little wider… My wetness is longing for his touch….
Gently, he slide his hand into my pants and immediately he gasped.
“You’re not wearing panties……”
I’m sure many of you out there have your fair share of experiences at the cinemas. Because we could not be a ‘normal’ couple, most of our rendezvous moments were either during trips, at hotels, or cinemas.
In the midst of all these fun happenings, I was diagnosed with cancer (as for which type/stage, I would like to keep it to myself, sorry) and indeed, it made me lose my life balance for awhile. I chose not to let him know, but I secretly knew that I had to leave. He had some family issues back then and I do not want to add on to his burden though I know he will want to stick through the tough times with me.
It was then when I knew, I loved him. Only when you truly love someone will you be able to understand the meaning of letting go for his own good…
A sudden turn of events here! Hope alls well now? Take care n looking forward to more, cheers, ……….
Sorry to hear that Sis Missybd… take care…
Nevertheless, no hotdog poking abalone??
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Originally Posted by
missybd
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In the midst of all these fun happenings, I was diagnosed with cancer (as for which type/stage, I would like to keep it to myself, sorry) and indeed, it made me lose my life balance for awhile. I chose not to let him know, but I secretly knew that I had to leave. He had some family issues back then and I do not want to add on to his burden though I know he will want to stick through the tough times with me.
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