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Originally Posted by
acidicavex
How true my dear kitty nth is certain sometimes you thought u already hold on tightly it is in your hand. But just to realize it slip out btw your fingers.
Example like I am posting something now this min than next min I get a heart attack and die on the couch lol.
Anyway if u are reading hope u cherish and realise u have a gem in your hand don’t regret losing the gem till it is too late already than your realize u wake up and when you realize how valueable She is it all too late already. such gal are hard to come by.
Ah Choy!! Dai kah lai si (those familiar with canto shld understand)
师父Is 寿比南山k! Lols
姜不愧是老的辣
But still, thks very much for e encouragement!
Come come..in return I help u scratch ur back..hehehehe
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Originally Posted by
curiouslala
Woah.. I agreed with this..
If he skipped his chance, I dun think that he will come across someone as good as my lovely kitty jie..
Who like to tie u up n rape u.. lol~~
Hard to say wor sis….
For eg. Maybe he got other “options” out there..gang rape him leh…
T times as I call them, are very precious to me.
Because of our current situation, the time we have tog is rather limited, and perhaps at the expense of incurring the ‘wrath’ of some of his kin.
We do try to make most of it by doing stuff together like dinner. We both had to eat didn’t we?
I was also mindful not to monopolize his time. He had other friends too, and I felt it was important he spent time chilling with them too. For his life is his own to lead, and does not revolve ard mine.
Anything else, is a bonus.
Then the real test came.
The time of festivities drew near. Christmas was fast approaching.
But my heart didn’t feel the same cheer that everyone else did celebrating.
In fact, it felt lonelier than usual.
T was busily preparing for celebrations with family, for certain reasons I couldn’t be part of.
Nonetheless, he made the effort to text, send pictures over, whilst on my part, I struggled to control what I felt,would overwhelm me.
That which they called the grinch.
Maybe it was part loneliness, but another reason was e reawakening of a certain past event-Ethan.
During the same period, a childhood friend of mine was getting married and had extended an invite to me.
I declined to attend
Not because i didn’t wish to share in her joy, but the event with Ethan had caused some strain with other friends in our circle, who would be in attendance.
We,simply couldn’t agree on how certain things,were,done/handled during the whole affair.
As I wished to avoid any possibility of any heated exchanges or icy atmosphere when we crossed paths that days, I chose not to attend but still sent my wishes to the bride-to-be.
The awakening of the unhappy memories of Ethan was further stirred by the simple fact that 25/12 crossing over to 26/12 was the day it began with Ethan.
As the members of my household had other commitments, I was left to replay those unhappy memories in my mind at home. Alone.
The house had never felt quieter, never felt so big.
I wished perhaps Santa had popped me a surprise Christmas present in a form of a warm hug
In the end, I spent the night curled up in bed, tasting the familiar saltiness as I cried myself to sleep.
While most people awoke the following day, buoyed by the still present Christmas cheer, I awoke to what seemed to be a dreary day.
I shouldn’t have let myself been so affected I guess but anyone who has,ever been alone will understand, how everything negative. Insecurity, worries, etc are magnified.
I had accepted that t this current moment many,things had to be kept “under wraps” so as to speak.
At times, this distance hurt, it really does.
How can someone so close feel so far?
Bt maybe, we can enjoy abit of Xmas together, a nice meal, a simple gift exchange…and then I learned he didn’t like receiving presents.
So much for my plans.
Which was why I was greatly surprised and elated when i was “chained to my owner” figuratively speaking.
It could have been $10, it could have been $100 but it was the gesture really that made me
In a way, my plans came through, though not in the way I had planned.
It also gave me the much needed boost to carry on despite everything.
Cos sometimes, I daren’t say too much either, being aware that he has a lot on his plate to handle.
And interestingly, all this developed in the absence of sex. Well, until that day I was “chained”….where he shamelessly seduced me
Occasionally I do wonder, given the context of how and where we met, how did,T view me? Especially after reading my story. Someone gullible? Too open? Easy/loose?
I’ll probably not know for sure. Neither am I the kind to probe. And T being who he is…well….
Anyways…Perhaps we didn’t start off the usual way, but, the beginning isn’t as important as the process and the ending.
But will it be the happy ending wished for?
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A big THANK YOU to the shoutouts from shifu, sis Lala, kopi kor…
For ur words
And for being part of this continuing journey with me
*hugs
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Originally Posted by
Cdistributor
wow.. this is quite a good read
going to find 2nd story
so sorry that your first R/S ended in this way
Thanksfor dropping by &the support
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Originally Posted by
Coffeecans
I’m really looking forward to a grand and happy ending here.
*Kits hope you don’t mind my kapo ness heeheee, just writing my gut feel*
Nah..it’s fine. (: sometimes it helps getting additional insight from a third person to it things into perspective?
As for the grand and happy ending…well
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Originally Posted by
BMW69
Every cloud has a silver lining. Focus on yours
things seems to be getting better. Gullible definitely not. In love perhaps. It’s a nice feeling.
Hm..read on…
Be happy
Enjoy the time we have together
Don’t cry, don’t be sad…
The phrases have so often been repeated to myself that I am numbed towards it.
Even though I understand the circumstances very well, that my existence in T’s life poses a potential problem if not managed well, sometimes, its heart over mind, and emotions take control.
This kitty succumbs to that monster in every woman.
Every woman has,her own definition of happiness. But some things are universal.
Every woman has a tendency to be jealous,
Every woman wants to be #1 in her man’s life
Every woman wants to be able to go out hand in hand with her man with little cares and worries…
Etc etc ..
I do enjoy my time with T when we’re out together.
Yet there are times it feels tiring, when extra thought has to be taken on selection of locations. It feels stifling having to restrain myself.
This “sneaking around” actions make me feel very much like a 见不得光的恋情。
Maybe cos its not sanctioned, it does feel that way.
I don’t mind if T’s work takes precedence over me.
Perhaps I’m traditional in the sense that I believe a man’s duty is to provide for the family- thru work, so it comes first, while the woman’s duty is to oversee the welfare of the family.
As time passed, I wondered how long would this go on for.
Could my emotional state endure what seemed to have no end in sight?
And if I was weak emotionally, how could I expect to in turn give T the “positive energy” he so needed?
T asked more than once, about the first time we met.
How from then things progressed to how they are now.
He questioned why I decided to sleep with him.
Up to now I honestly do not have an answer.
Not everything has an answer tagged to it. Not every emotional or behavior can be explained.
But if it bothers him, maybe time should be able to rewind and have nothing happen then.
Maybe it would be easier on him?
Sometimes, we get caught up in what we want, can, should do, and neglect how it affects others, their feelings, their thoughts, wants, needs…
…The mighty powers that be…grant me the strength and empathy to get thru all these, with patience, kindness and serenity..
All that melancholic and wild thoughts aside, I still endeavored to enjoy what time we did have to spend together.
Of late, T has been a little under the weather. Despite my nagging at him to just take a break and have a good rest….well…. Maybe he is the kind like a mischievous kid who just can’t sit still for 2mins. Remind me to ask him of he was indeed one…
Nonetheless, he still made time to have dinner with me. His philosophy-已毒攻毒.
But he disallowed any sharing of food after he touched it, or kissing cos he didn’t want to spread it to me. It was also that reason he was reluctant to stay over that night. I assured him I was stronger than that.
Somehow even tho his body wasn’t 100% well, the horny monster was tho.
And what he couldn’t do with his mouth, he made up using his hands.
Leaving out the fact that he made,himself pretty comfortable,by stripping down to his boxers once we got to my room, i was ‘assaulted’ pretty quickly too with T’s hands grabbing at my boobs as we fell onto the bed exploring each other’s bodies, still fully clothed, not unlike 2 curious and starved teenagers.
T’s experienced hands soon found their way to my sensitive bits, teasing them just the way I liked it, eliciting sharp drawing of Breaths from me as I shivered with both excitement and pleasure from his touch.
Reaching out for T’s growing monster which had already begun leaking onto his boxers, I grabbed it with my hand and began stroking it, wanking it a tad bit but not to the extent cumming.
I was determined however not to,do anything that night cos he wasn’t well and I didn’t want to tire him out.
“Let’s go shower okay?”
I suggested to T, and went to pick out my sleep wear- a simple tank,top and shorts.
T stepped behind me and from caressing my body, began lifting up my dress, pulling it over my head and then removing it totally, leaving me standing in only underwear, of which he further proceeded to remove my bra as his hands continued roaming all over my body as i did his, as we nuzzled against each other.
Every touch of his broke down the mental reminder I set myself…and then I found myself saying..
“Im so gonna rape u”
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Originally Posted by
BMW69
Hohoho Kitty. Mr T the rape victim
i hope it don’t end up like this
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Originally Posted by
acidicavex
Jeez wish someone would tell me that
Lols.. I can help u advertise?? Hehehe
Cant guarantee e quality of it tho…
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Originally Posted by
BMW69
Hohoho Kitty. Mr T the rape victim
Very willing victim as always
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Originally Posted by
acidicavex
i hope it don’t end up like this
http://www.funshion.com/video/play/90305/
Erh.. Hehh. U’ll see XD
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Originally Posted by
kittymae
Lols.. I can help u advertise?? Hehehe
Cant guarantee e quality of it tho…
Very willing victim as always
Erh.. Hehh. U’ll see XD
Hahaha not bad. Kitty setting up advertising agency here xD
Hahaha I doubt he’s a “victim”
he probably enjoys it more than you do xD
Hahahaha waiting for your update xD
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Originally Posted by
acidicavex
i hope it don’t end up like this
http://www.funshion.com/video/play/90305/
Hahaha eek!