thank u all for ur support & bringing ur camping gear along as well…despite non-notti stuff…haha… but i promise i’ll get to that
aiming to end off part 1 at least tonight…
what happened next still remained quite hazy to me till today, and what i relate next is really what SH told me following that
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I suddenly pulled away from SH and stormed to K’s room, to be ‘greeted’ by the sight of A lying sideways beside K, and sucking on K’s cock- i believe he CIM and A was attempting to suck him clean AND dry (which SH later told me, nothing much to shout about..haha..) and K was lying on his back, eyes half closed, enjoying the service A was giving, and caressing A’s rather fleshy butt.
A’s eyes widened in shock as she saw me come into the room, and from what SH told me, unconsciously bit down on K as his let out a cry pain and “WT..” and froze as he saw me (and SH) there.
According too SH as well, he never saw me move that fast than when i threw my purse, keys and phone at K whilst simultaneously slapping A.
Once relieved of my belongings (by throwing them at K) i used both hands to push A onto K who was attempting to get up, but then fell back under A’s weight… and before kicking K about thrice before he managed to pull himself up from under A’s weight.
At this point, SH got worried and caught hold of me to restrain me but not before i felt his hand contact with my cheek.
Tired, dehydrated, and with that slap, i kinda fainted then
SH later told me that A was suitably embarrassed and couldnt get her clothes on false enough to make her escape.
K however incensed at what I did and was cursing and swearing at me alot, threatening all sorts of things, but SH assured me it was all settled. Guy to Guy. He never did and still refused to tell me how.
But he did tell me however, he returned the favour to K n my behalf.
He was also the one that sent me home that night.
That was how it ended between K and me. My first relationship to end like this. The memory of the sight i saw, what i heard still remains in my mind till today. In the beginning, I experienced ‘withdrawal symptoms’ not having K around. as i said, he quite spoilt me in many ways. SH also took the extra step of erasing K’s contacts, texts and pictures from my phone that same night. He explained later that it was the best way to forget. It was’t easy and i was really mad at SH for quite awhile, but he was right. eventually, it became easier…
Shortly after this, I heard K tendered his resignation,and months later, I too resigned and started at a new job. I also never saw A again.
But in the financial industry, circles are small and we were bound to bump into each other, especially given the scope of my new job. it was then that i bumped into K again.
He looked more tired than i remembered him.
After an awkward “HI”, we exchanged polite pleasantries about jobs and the usual stuff.
It was clumsy conversation really and both of us couldn’t wait to end it. except..
me: K, can i ask u something?
K: ya?
me: that night, when that happened, what i heard, was it true?
K: erhh… what thing? (he has a very short term memory for certain things, good for him)
me: when u said about u not being able to do that kinda thing with me…u know, sexual stuff..
K: oh. that. (hesitation) ya la…i also got my own needs…but at the same time, I couldn’t do it to you… to take away your virginity.. (more hesitation) u were different from the other girls I knew. that’s also why i called u princess.
me: oh. (i never expected that answer)
K: because u were different, i wanted to cherish u, and treat u like A (he shot a worried look at me upon mentioning A’s name)
me: ic…i dont really know if i should be flattered..
K: u should.
me: ok. thanks…. can i ask one more thing?
K: go ahead
me: was A your only…fling?
K: (hesitate) she was my last fling… there were others before. but that time with A, i really intended to end it after that and be faithful…but…
me: ic. thanks for telling me all that…ive gotta go now. c u.
i never bumped into K again since. and we didn’t exchanged contacts then either.
from this experience, i began to wonder. what about me was ‘different’?
and somehow in my mind, the idea began to form… what was life on the other side of the ‘good’ fence? from playing the good, to playing the bad…hmm
that will be retold in Part II
thanks again all who have lent their support thus far
pls bear with me as i dig out those buried memories, altho Part II should be quicker as it happened not too long ago…
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Originally Posted by
Reoxy
The last part was very heartbreaking…
i was quite upset at that time. and like any girl would, would find reasons to blame selves. especially it was my first relationship
girls are always emotionally insecure.
i’m just thankful for friends that saw me thru those times and will make me stronger than before
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Originally Posted by
astcrsv2
Nicely written. Waiting for more
thank u!
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Originally Posted by
curiouslala
Wah sis..
I just cant imagine what would I do if I’m in the your position, caught my bf having affairs outside..
i sincerely hope it never happens to u or any other girl.
actually he had more in between, one of them even being his cousin, and he even convinced one girl to give her first time to him then dumped her after that. im just thankful, that i ’escaped'
but dont see me too high up yet. Part II might just changed opinions about me…
good night folks, continue tomorrow when my thoughts are more lucid
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Originally Posted by
francined69
at times it is good to let out your own feelings.
Yup, quite agree with this… Otherwise, one days might just exploded w/o knowing why.. Too much stress on brain & heart? Hehe
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Originally Posted by
curiouslala
I’m no angel sis.
But then, dont u ever wondered why?
U said he convinced a gal to give him her v. Did he ever try to convince u? If he never, that’s the question. Why he never try to convinced u? And both of you have 2+ yr rs.
But then, what ur friend said is right. The best way to moved on is by deleting n removing everything related to ur ex.
Will wait for your continuation ..
Lols… Well thens, we can be devilishly angelic sistas
Hmm..it was more like hint or make passing remarks only.nothing pushy..
I did question it and it was at the tip of my mouth to ask him when we bumped into each other later on. But I never did.
What’s past is past, and I guess I decided to let sleeping dogs lie.
Yep, I’m thankful for my fren doing that, I actually ignored him for 4 myths after that! Lols…but now I’m really grateful to him. He in turn in believe is being rewarded in a way by finding his own happiness..I’m waiting for their red bomb actually
that’s also I believe in karma, and what my next actions will bring…
“女人独有的天真和温柔的天分，要留给真爱你的人。不管未来多苦多难有他陪你完成＂
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Originally Posted by
queeniegal
Sometimes a gal change from simple naive to suspicious, wild totally not to person who she was is because of the hurts she went thru..
She may seen tough move on however everything is just registered down inside their brains..
Maybe nt gals perhaps for all living thing ba.. Once bitten twice shy..
That IMO
TS - yolo!!! Enjoy
i so agree!! where is the “Like” button? ?? lol
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Originally Posted by
drslump99
He is now worth it, treat it as a nightmare that ended and u woke up, although shaken a little, dun have to live under his shadows anymore.
Go karaoke and sing out the frustration and kick him out of your system
Like Margret Lee said in “master of the seas”
“Crush him, crushed him like a cockroach, that u should!”
how u know i went to sing out my frustrations?!?!
did u stalk me?
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Originally Posted by
queeniegal
Nice! Bank scandals lol.. I like (:
haha… maybe i should contribute some i heard as side stories huh? hmm..but better not…the circle really is that small only, altho i did hear sthg about a certain banker that drives a Maserati…
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Originally Posted by
curiouslala
To sis kitty:
Ya, u shouldn’t question it anymore.
And I really hope that ur ex healed himself first before committing with his new gal. As a playboy thing isn’t something that a gal can heal or changed.
He must have to healed or changed himself to be back to the right track. If no, I just can wish his gal is okay. Not broken hearted or maybe faced same unpleasant event as yours.
yes dajie lala!!
the last i heard, he is still working in a bank, and a swinging bachelor…
Interestingly, many of his exes ii heard, are now happily married.
Haha no like button here la….
Yeah.. I just sorta sorted my thoughts I put my changed me on someone who I like ha I think he can’t breathe now. Feeling I’m too demanding at times. I miss the old me sigh but another side of me always said cannot have history repeats haha torn apart sigh
I used to work with bankers wahahahahahaha
Lol If the banker drive xxx car change to yyy car lol value ard same can le ha.. See I can remember some to contribute ornot ha
But is really small maybe we might know each other or hv common friend wahahaha
Laugh Out Loud, is there a chance I stalk you?
We dun even know each other, except in SBF.
When I am down and out, I like to go sing my heart out.
It helps a little.
After the tears stop flowing, so will the pain.
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Originally Posted by
drslump99
Laugh Out Loud, is there a chance I stalk you?
We dun even know each other, except in SBF.
When I am down and out, I like to go sing my heart out.
It helps a little.
After the tears stop flowing, so will the pain.
Haha agreed with u.. Sing out will help..
I does it too. Always late night I sing haha..
since i can’t sleep, i might as well continue with Part II.
Numero Dos: Falling, falling into the darkness
My growing up years were in a predominantly female and/or Christian environment. 10 years in all-girls schools, then in JC i elected for the Arts stream (maybe my class had more guys 9 out of 23, maybe due to the combi of econs+lit+history), and then again when i chose to study business in Uni.
thus from young, it was inculcated into me the values of keeping chaste thoughts, no sex before marriage, etc
keeping these ’teachings’ in mind, and also because i had brothers and many male cousins, i got along with the guys pretty easily, to the point they referred to me as one of their ‘bros’
perhaps this was why i seemed ‘different’ to K?
Cos i was caught in a unique mix of 2 worlds? I’ll never know.
After that incident with K, i was apprehensive of getting into a relationship for a long time. You could say it left a scar on me. I also found myself constantly wondering, what if, i was just like every other girl K knew. Would it had turned out differently?
Then I met Ethan at a mutual friend’s gathering over Christmas. We clicked pretty quickly and by the end of the night, had exchanged numbers, with Ethan agreeing to give a 2nd opinion on my existing insurance policies (he did some part time insurance work. he was an engineer by profession).
If K is described as a typical yuppie beng, then Ethan was the opposite. Fair, bespectacled and of average build (perhaps leaning towards to slimmer side) and abt 1.8m tall with signs of a developing tummy (something i would grow to appreciate..haha). My initial assessment of him was- nuah nuah kind. no way! up till then, my preference was towards more athletic, tanned guys or the other extreme- the intellectual kind.
Anyway, as Ethan & I lived pretty close to each other (ok, so maybe not that close. about 15-20 mins away), we decided to cab back together. Can split the midnight charge mah. It was pretty interesting exchanging pointers n investments, insurance, manga we both enjoyed, and i found out he did play a sport- badminton. Oh. he wasn’t local. he was malaysian by the way.
I alighted first and waved goodbye to Ethan, thinking that I hadn’t had an enjoyable conversation with a guy for quite a while.
The beep tone from my phone signaled an incoming whatsapp message.
Ethan: safely in the house?
Me: yep, going to take a quick shower then sleep. u hm yet?
Ethan: Ya. going to shower too. k, have a good sleep. good night.
Me: Nites!
this casual whatsapp message gradually became a norm for us. every morning whilst on the way to work, when we got off work, and sometimes even chatting through webcam on msn before going to bed. over the next few weeks, our conversations became more intimate and I began to think, perhaps this was the breakthrough following the what happened with K.
One day, whilst on webcam, Ethan seemed to have received a text on his phone and after typing “BRB”, quickly logged off.
I was mystified. did something urgent crop up? Was all ok?
20 minutes later, Ethan was back on line, on regular msn, no webcam this time
Ethan: I’ve got something to tell u
Me: (thinking- damn…wat now…cant be anything good) okayy, what?
Ethan: Erm… actually i’m attached, and planning to ROM sometime later this year. I’m sorry. I never meant to hide it from you, but i really enjoyed our conversations alot. Just now my gf msg say she was coming over to pick up sthg from me so I had to log off in a hurry. Sorry. really sorry…
Me:
WHAT?!?!?!