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Originally Posted by
callmebad
I look at your title about your 2nd Love, so is S your wife now?
Have to wait & follow my journey…all will be reveal soon but i do apologize for not tellin you now
1996 is drawing to a close & our UK trip is just months away…We plan to celebrate New Year by spending time together…We booked Miramar Hotel to usher in the new year…We have also made reservation at the karaoke at Safra Bkt Merah…
We sang our fav songs & later went back to our hotel to countdown to the new year…As the clock strikes 12am,we hug & kiss each other…The mood was so perfect that we make love aft that…For once,I bought a condom to experience how would the feeling be…S didnt find any diff but for me the sensation on my cock is just not there…
I told S tt the feeling is just not tt nice wz a condom & S pull off the condom fm my cock & we continue with our love making…Told S I wat to try sthing diff today…I wanted to try anal…S seem shock…She said tt would be very painful…I told her we try first & if the pain is too unbearable for her,we stop…
True enuff,S couldnt take the pain & I stop…And we continue our love making the old fashion way…Aft I hv cum,S ask me if i’m angry abt the anal thingy…I told her “No”…I just wanted fo try stuff tt I see in porn…Mayb not all things porn stars do can be done easily by any tom,dick & harry…
1997 came & we are counting down the days to our departure for Heathrow…But b4 tt,I got a pleasant surprise in the mail…My application for Spore PR is approved…I was so happy…No need to worry abt work permits & can change job easily…Told S abt this & she shared my joy…
The day for departure is upon us…We would take a flight fm Changi airport to Subang airport for our 14 hrs flight…We reached London & our dream has been realised…The weather is just as we expected…cold…All our accommodation is bed & bfast style…Very english feel…
Stayed in London 2 days & the we took a train fm Euston station to Lake District…It was the most scenic place we’ve ever been to…Big lakes,mountains & friendly folks…But the best of all was Birmingham…Finally I get to realised my dream to see Aston Villa @ Villa Park…It was against Everton & we won 3-1…
Everything went perfectly according to plan for our trip…Having S with me thruout the 8 days made me realise I am truly bless to hv found such a wonderful girl…After the trip,it was back to the daily grind of work life…I tried my luck in the stock market but it was not to be…
Played contra in the stock market & got my fingers burn…Though the lost is a few K’s but I have used up all my savings on the UK trip…Initially didnt wat to let S know abt this but I was left with no choice…Told her my predicament & S says she will try to help me out as she still has some savings…
Told S I would be paying her back in instalments…She just nodded her head…Luckily S was there to help me ride thru this storm…By the time I need to pay S her 1st instalment by cheque,we meet up…Gave her my cheque & she took a look at it…Then she tore away my cheque…Ask her why she did that…She paused for awhile & said “Yr problems are also my problems…We must share the burden together…My money is also yr money”…
TBC…
S says whatever burden I have,she will share all the burden with me no matter how big or small it is….
A year have past since S helped me out in clearing my stock market loses…I knew S would be the woman for me…Not bcoz of her financial help but for her personality & love for me..Wz my finances beginning to stabilize,I know the next step in our relationship is to make it legal…
I’m no romantic by nature…It’s just not my personality…But I want to pop de question to S…But it wont be down on one knees thingy…We were at Bugis Junction watching the movie “Twister.,,The movie has not started…I turn to S & ask her sthing…
“What abt we apply for a flat so we can spend the rest of our lives 2gether”..S grab my hand & whisper “Yes”…We hugged…People beside us must be wondering wth happen…The movie was ok but our mind was not focus on tornadoes but how our love nest will look like…
We bought newspapers to look at suitables flats…We are looking at resale flats as we want to move in ASAP once we are married…We called up a housing agent & after 2 weeks of viewing potential flats,we finally found one in de north…Its a 5 room flat…We rack our brains on how we want to renovate…
We got married in Apr 99…It was a low key event…Just cloze friends & family members…I was thinkin to myself that I came to Spore in 1991 who would have thght I would married a Sporean girl…Nvr in my wildest dream…And I also wished M would be as happy as I am now wherever she may be…
Within few mths of blissful marriage life,we got the happiest news we could ever wat…S is pregnant…We were overjoy…During her pregnancy,I took good care of S…During the early mths of her pregnancy,we still had sex…De doc advise us its still ok to hv sex during the early stages…But as her stomach grew bigger & bigger by the day,sex is no more on de menu..
I do hv my “needs” but I resisted in going out “to eat”…S ustand my needs & she would give me a blow job or hand job..This gave me opportunities to CIM & COF…Somehow doing all these acts brought us closer together…I’m sure every newly wed couple would be very lovey dovey during the initial stage of marriage…
Our baby boy came into this world in Apr'00…He’s a dragon baby…We were so happy & have plans to have one more hopefully in a few years time…The next 4 years flew by with many good memories of our young family…S changed job soon aft giving birth & hv remain at her present company till today…
I was in my job for 6 years now & got to know alot of kakis…We would play football & badminton together…A few of them patronize ktv often & so far I have resisted in joining them…Then one day I was introduced to the world of online betting…Williamhill…Betting online is as easy as ABC…Just provide credit card details & the amount we wat to bet…It was the starting of a downward spiral for me personally…
TBC…
Hope the internet gambling stuff is not real….Anyone touching this will be a nightmare……end up with broken home and Ah Long…..Bless you.
if the betting is real, i hope you have woken to reality and your wife has stuck by you.
if you are still betting despite knowing the consequences, then you dont deserve her.
for your sake, i hope its the first one.
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Originally Posted by
BMW520_M
Hope the internet gambling stuff is not real….Anyone touching this will be a nightmare……end up with broken home and Ah Long…..Bless you.
It’s a real life story….
I started off betting $50 on NBA games & as in all cases of gambling…I won & I was hooked…Winning odds of 1.90 & $95 was in my betting acct…Slowly I increased my stakes to 100’s…There are so many kind of bets that I can play…Number of corners in a football game!!!…1st quarter of a NBA game more or less than 45 pts…
Soon all I was thinkin day & nite was betting…Winning slowly turned into losing…When I lost,I just deposit thru credit card from my computer…Soon my credit card debt grew & grew…All this time S knew I had gamble online but I always told her its only $20,$30 bets…
I couldnt concentrate on my work & I resign…I told S I needed a change of environment but in actual fact I wanted to stay at home to gamble…I did once in awhile won $1k & spend it on my family…But after a few days,end up losing it again…Soon the banks kept houding me for payment as I have not paid even the minimum amount required…
Soon lawyer letters are delivered personally to my doorstep…It was how S found out about my addiction to online betting…All I could say to her is sorry…She have some stern words on this but she says we will ride thru this storm as a family…I was grateful to her…
We started to pay back to the banks but another bank will sent us demand letters…Now we are depending only on S salary to feed 3 mouths…I was a total wreck…Didn’t muster an ounce of strength to look for job again…Our son which is being looked after by S aunty is now being taken care by me full time as I was not wrking…This saves us $400++ each mth…
We manage to negotitiate with the banks on repayment…S would continue wrkin without making a fuss out of the whole thing…She would just encourage me to find a job when I am mentally & physically ready…After repaying each mth to the banks,we would just barely survive each mth…I was so down one nite tt I was considering ending my suffering…It was too much for me…I really wanted to take my own life…
But each time I look at S & our 4 year old son,I couldn’t do it…For 3 years I was not wrkin & was suffering fm depression…Without S moral support,I know I would have ended my life…Not once did she blame me for our family predicament…How could I just leave her like tt!!!…Those 3 years have taken a toll on our sex life…What was our plan to have another baby was now in tatters…
I know S badly wanted another child…Mayb due to my stress we couldn’t have one eventhough we tried…I woke up one day in 2006 & I was telling myself I got to get my life back on track…I looked for jobs…S was encouraging me…Without her encouragement,I wouldn’t have pull thru this hurdle in my life…
After mths of searching,I finally found a job…It was tough going back to work after 3 years but I was determine to make it work…I was lucky coz my colleagues were friendly & that helps me to settle down quickly…S told me she was proud of me…I told her without her love,I wouldnt be here now…I told S I was thinkin of suicide a few mths ago…S look at me & slap me gently on my face…She said how can I ever consider leaving her & our son to face the world alone…But I told her it’s all in the past now…She made me promise her never ever have thoughts of suicide again coz no matter what happen we will always be together as a family…
I promise her I would not think of suicide anymore…I also promise S no more online gambling…I know S is angry with me the last 3 years but she didn’t show it infront of me…I was thinkin wat would happen if I have married another woman & would tt woman have stuck by me thruout my ordeal??…I really cant imagine living without S…
TBC….
I am lucky coz after the ordeal of being jobless for 3 years,the woman I married has stuck by me…If S would hv gone,I know I would not be alive today…She gave me encouragement to carry on even though the chips were down…
Our lives now are back to normal…My son is sitting for his PSLE this year…Our sex life is normal for a married couple although the frequency of sex is significantly down…We tried to have another child but till now is unsuccessful…We have decided not to try anymore due to our age…
Sex with S is not what it use to be…Nowadays we just do it one position only per session…Usually i would initiate it when I’m horny…S would start off by giving me blowjob & then I will lick her pussy & then follow by doggy or she would ride me…The passion in love making is not what it used to be…
In 2005, I started to visit massage parlors….Firstly it was those small shops in Chinatown…Initially I would only go for hj for the sake of tryin…Then as I frequent the same person more, she would ask me if I want fj…I didn’t hesitate & went along with it…It was my first time having sex with another woman after marrying S…It wasn’t that great but the experience got me hooked…Soon,I began patronizing massage parlors with facilities such as sauna,etc..
The experience here is much better…The girls here are also better in quality…The fj are also much much better…I began to visit these places more frequent bcoz the fj I got here is more passionate then with S…I guess after been married for so long to the same woman,the sex has become stale & routine …
Although I visited massage parlors at least twice a month, I still have sex with S at home…Sometimes I feel very guilty towards S but I just couldn’t control myself…Sometimes even when making love to S I would think of a certain massage girls…I know it’s all wrong but I can’t help it…
I wanted to stop but it was so difficult when all my friends also visited massage parlors…Hearing them talk abt their “conquest” makes me go back there…I have kept this secret from S until now…I don’t know if she knew I have been unfaithful to her or she’s just pretending not to know..
Thankfully with the AV cracking down on vice activities in massage parlors, I have totally cut my ties to it…I don’t want to be caught with my pants down & then my secret life will be known to S…But with so many lobangs such as FL’s, it’s very difficult to quit 100%…But now it’s like maybe once in every 4 or 5 months I do “eat out”…
It’s been a roller coaster ride in my marriage to S…We were down in the pits during my depression period but thankfully I manage to dug my way out of the pit…I know I wouldn’t be able to do it without S…She is my rock…She is my true love…She is my saviour…& most importantly of all, she is my wife…I’m no saint & have no right in telling people what to do but if you have a wife that has stuck by you, tell her “I love you” everyday coz those 3 words means a world to them…
The End.
after reading this story, ive decided to chase that one girl that has been by my side since the start of this year. all this while ive been debating whether i can actually love again. after reading this, i think its best i give things a chance.