The next few days after our talk in the pub, we didnt meet. She still went online once a while and i just took the chance to ask about her progress in her studies and nothing else. I felt something amiss and kept thinking about J. I just wanted to see her. And what better way than facebook. I was never a regular on facebook but during those few days i started going to J’s profile as she was always on fb.
I just wanted to know more about her. What she likes, what she thinks abt, who are her friends (esp guy friends), her fav songs… I wanted to discover her past and know everything i can about her. Its funny how this was slowly developing almost into like a courtship. Except in reverse order.. we were intimate before I even got to know more about her.
I thought hard about what to buy for her and after surfing facebook for hours, im still clueless. Then i had an idea. i called my mother in law.
I: mother, R (my wife) is working late today. Can you cook my share for dinner as I miss your cooking leh. (sweet tongue again)
MIL: Always ask you two to come but everytime wanna eat out. Come come. I will cook extra for u.
I: ok, there by 7.
I didnt want to tell J that Im heading to her place and was hoping she is around. I reached her place at about 7 and MIL opened the door and asked me to watch TV while she continues her cooking. She went back to her kitchen and I slowly walked to J’s room. Door closed. confirm at home with air conditioning on.
I slowly turned the door knob and saw J with her back facing the door reading her notes, her radio on. She was wearing a blue spagetti strip tank top and I could see a pair of ultra thin bra straps running parallel to it. Her hair was tied into a pony tail. I tiptoed behind her and covered her eyes with my palms. She was startled and jumped from her chair, letting out a shriek.
J: idiot! You scared me!
Her hands was hitting my chest repeatly and I was fending her off.
I: is this how you welcome your guest?
J: I didnt invite u into my room! u r an intruder!
By then, J’s initial shocked expression had turned into her usual smile. I was laughing and starting mimicking her “idiot you scared me!” shock expression. J continued hitting me and I was avoiding her within the small room. I then had enough of running around and caught both her hands and pushed her unto her bed. We both landed on the bed. I guess that was the closest I have been to her ever since that faithful night at my place. I looked her in the eyes for a good 5 secs or so.
I: I missed you.
J kept quiet and turned her face away. I knew I crossed the line and quickly changed the subject.
I: Hows your studies coming along? I thought I saw u dozing off when I came in just now.
J: No I did not! i was reading my notes.
I: good. pls continue. I will just sit here and see you study for awhile.
J: by the way, why are you here?
I: have dinner. i miss your mum’s cooking.
J: my sis coming?
I: No. Now, stop talking and hit the books.
J returned to her notes and I was busy scanning her room. What the hell would I need to get her for your present? My favorite perfume? nah, too cheap.. dress, clothes? I cant choose for nuts. Then I saw something. Ok, I knew what to buy already.
My MIL called out to us and we went out for dinner. I left awhile after that.
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thanks to all the readers of this thread. your postings do encourage me to write more. I was thinking of summarising the remainder quickly but your interest gives me reason to provide a more detailed account. i will try not to be too long winded. cheers
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And I seriously thought getting her present would be easy. Turned out to be a bloody difficult task. Went several places, made several calls but still couldn’t get it. It was out of stock everywhere. Tried pulling some strings through my contact but still, it was not available. Damn, i thought i wouldnt be able to buy it in time for J. Then, 3 days before her last paper, I got a call that my present is available and would be ready for collection anytime after 1pm that day. Perfect.
The next day on the eve of her paper, I sms J to wish her good luck and asked her what time would she finish. 1pm she said. Just nice as I have already applied for 1/2 day leave to celebrate with her. However, I didnt wanna tell her as i wanted to give her a surprise. And of course, to give her something she definitely had been wanting. I wrapped up my gift the night before and went to bed thinking how happy she would be seeing the gift and spending the day with her. It really calls for a celebration to finally finish one’s education and to step out into the working world. I went to bed, having in mind what to do with J, where to bring her to have a nice meal and some private time together. I guess I slept really well that night in anticipation of the next day.
I was a time watcher that day as I couldnt wait till 12pm to be off work. I left the office at the dot and rode my bike to J’s campus in the western part of Singapore. I knew the place rather well as my ex years ago was from that uni as well. I sms J to call me immediately once she saw my sms. At slightly past 1pm, J called.
I: hello! hows yr paper?
J: I think I did pretty ok.
I: good to hear that. where are you now?
J: im just outside the main hall.
I: really? its such a coincidence, I also happen to be passing by your campus on the way to meet my client.
J: ya, stop your bullshit.
I: im serious. What if I appear before you within one min?
J: wait.. dont tell me you are really here?
I: dont move. stay where you are.
I could hear J’s voice sounding a little excited and happy. We were still on the line as I was making my way to where she was. I ran a little, present in my hand. Then I saw J standing there, grinning at the sight of me. We both hung up the phone and walked towards each other.
J: Hey, you are meeting your client nearby?
I: Bluff you lah.. actually I came to give you something i promised earlier. Ta da! (handed her the present.) Open it.
J: you kept your promise!
J unwrapped the gift eagerly like a child but was careful not to even tear the wrapper. When she saw what it was, she also overwhelmed and extremely happy.
J: How do you know that I want an Iphone?!
I: I can read your mind.
J: Quick, quick! tell me! I am really aiming for this for awhile and thought of getting it soon but its out of stock everywhere.
I smiled and didnt want to tell her. Her hands were tucking my shirt sleeves and almost begging me to tell her. She was very curious to find out as she had never breathed a word about her interest in an Iphone to me before. After a good 1 min or so, I decided to solve the ‘mystery’ for her.
I: I saw a printout of the specs of this iphone when i was in your room the other day. No one would print out specs of a phone if they are not interested in it right? Knowing your current phone is already quite old, I kinda put two and two together and guessed with a 99.9% accuracy that you are aiming to buy this.
J: you are cocky! 99.9% accuracy? pls, dont flatter yourself.
I pretended to gesture with my hands for J to return the phone to me but J quickly hugged her present close to her chest. she was still smiling.
J: This is mine now..
thanks! I really love it.
I: you are most welcome. So, can we go now?
J: where to?
I: I took leave for the day to celebrate with you. Lets have some nice sushi at cuppage.
J: oh shit.. I am sorry.. I cant go with you. I already promised my classmates for go out with them.
I: how about dinner?
J: uhhmmm.. no. we are going for a buffet lunch and karaoke later. Im really sorry..
I: its ok. no worries. you go enjoy yourself ok? you deserve this. I see you another day. Bye..
J was quiet. She appeared a little guilty that the entire surprise from me ended with such a dampener. I was very upset and i guess couldnt really hide my disappiontment. It was then that J turned to her right and waved to a group of guys and girls to wait a while for her. I guessed they must have been watching us all along, unknowingly to me.
J: Im sorry. you should have called me up earlier to tell me.
I: its ok. not your fault. go, your friends are waiting for you.
J: bye.. I’ll call you later ok?
I turned and left without another word. I actually felt awful. I had planned the entire day for J and was so looking forward to the day. Only for it to end like this. But who can i blame? Why should she reserve the day for me? Im not even her fcuking boyfriend. I was beginning to be pissed with myself instead. i felt really lousy. As I rode my bike out, I was venting my frastration and anger by speeding. I must have clocked at least 120-130 km/hr at one point. riding around aimlessly, I ended up in Changi airport. this was the place i always go to whenever i am out of a relationship in the past. today, i came by accident. was it a sign of things? I dont know. I sat there, dazed and aimless for at least 5 hours before heading home at almost 7pm. I finally cooked a packet of instand noodles for my lunch. It couldnt have been any worst i thought.. My wife must have thought i had a really lousy day at work and left me alone for the entire night. Not a single sms from J.
By 11pm, my wife had already gone to bed but I was still watching TV in the hall. then I received an sms from J.
J: you still awake? at home?
I: yes home.
J: can you open the door? im outside.
I almost jumped out of my sofa. quickly put on my t shirt and opened the door. J was standing there, smiling to me. I closed the door behind me. I was pleasantly surprised to see her and returned a smile.
I: what r u doing here?
J: is my sis at home?
I: she is sleeping.
J: ok.. no.. i came to say thank you and sorry. thanks for the phone and sorry for not spending the day with you.
I: its ok.
J: no, i can tell you are not ok. thats why i wanted to come by and see you.
Both J’s hands came and grabbed mine. We were standing face to face. Her big bambi eyes were looking deeply into mine. Not a word was spoken for awhile. Then as if in slow motion, J’s lips inched alittle towards me and gave me a peck on my cheek. I melted and at that point, i must have already forgotten the uneventful day.
I smiled and asked: is that all?
She returned a smile and held my hands even tighter. J then moved towards me and this time, her lips went forward and pressed against my lips. We must have kissed for 10s or so. all the while, J’s eyes were open, looking right into mine at such a close distance.
J: i missed you.
I: i missed you too.
J: can i buy you dinner as compensation?
I: when?
J: tomorrow night?
I: let me check with my secretary first.
J broke into laughter the moment I said that and hit me on my shoulder.
I: but im afraid dinner is not enough. you have to make yourself free tomorrow afternoon as well.
J: why?
I: i am going to the car showroom to buy a car. you wanna come with me?
J: you wanna buy a car? how about your bike?
I: I may sell or keep, depends.
J: why the sudden change?
I: not sudden. my boss has openly hinting to me for months that im the only guy in the commercial dept that doesnt drive a car. although we dont really have to be chauffeurs to our clients, but there is this corporate image thingy. Tell you what, I pick you up at 4pm tomorrow?
J: ok
I: let me send you home. its rather late.
J: No.. you better go back in case sis wakes up.
I nodded and kissed her goodbye on her cheeks. She waved to me and left. I went home that night feeling really happy. the day didnt end that bad afterall.
The following afternoon, I picked J up and we went to a showroom in Leng Keng road. I went straight to the sales guy whom I already spoken to 1 week ago and told him I have made up my mind on the model.
J: get the white color one. its really nice!
I: no, your sis wants the black one.
total silence.
J became totally quiet after that. The salesman settled some documentations and chatted with me for quite awhile. After we left the showroom…
I: Why are you so quiet?
J: No, nothing.
I: come on, i know u.
J: Seems like u already been here before and made up your mind.. didnt think u needed me to accompany u or help u decide anything.
I: hmm… yes.. i was here with your sis last week. Sorry.. u ok?
J: of course im ok. (managed a weak smile).
We left for dinner and i didnt think much of it. Since dinner was on J’s account, I chose a reasonably cheap restaurant along Alexandra Road. We settled onto a table right at the end of the restaurant and ordered lots of food and a bottle of wine. We were chatting and eating at the same time. I filled her up with things that happened in the last 2 weeks that I didnt see much of her. She was also giving update about her day yesterday and how her friends made fun of her ‘boyfriend’ giving her a gift in school.
J: they asked you to join.. but i know you wouldnt want to. Right?
I: i dont think its appropriate and besides, u guys sure have lots of things to talked about and i would be sitting around looking dumb. Anyway, so, what else did they say about this boyfriend of yours?
J: they said you are so sweet and nice. asked you to join next round. can you pls join us next time? these are my buddies in school!
I: we’ll see how.
Somehow I was smiling to myself that she actually referred me as her boyfriend in front of her close friends. But I wasnt prepared to meet her friends. Its not as if ours is an ‘above ground’ relationship.
An sms came in from a friend. “Bro dont be late. 8pm at xxx (pub’s name).”
I: shit.. i forgot that i’d already agreed to meet my friends for drinks tonight at a pub few days back. you wanna come with me?
J: hmm… ok.
We arrived at the pub and my friends were already there. I intro J to them as a friend of mine. As I was the only guy who brought a female friend, the guys began talking among themselves and it was just J and I alone. We chatted alot and J informed that she plan to take up the offer from a bank that she did internship with. I encouraged her to do so and gave her my opinion about her career. We also started playing drinking games. Of course J was no match for me. After awhile, J said she wanted to sing. She left to choose one song and waited for her turn. Within mins, the waitress took the mike over and handed over to J. It was 愛, 很簡單,a song by David Tao. J then moved close to me and whispered,
J: this song is specially dedicated to you. listen to the lyrics ok?
Truth be told, I knew this song and like it, but as with any other songs, I only enjoy the melody, never a lyrics person. I decided to listen carefully to the lyrics for once. It goes like this:
愛, 很簡單
忘了是怎麼開始
也許就是對你有一種感覺
忽然間發現自己
已深深愛上你, 真的很簡單
愛的地暗天黑都已無所謂
是是非非無法決擇
沒有後悔為愛日夜去跟隨
那個瘋狂的人是我…喔~
[— Chorus —]
I love you
無法不愛你baby
說你也愛我
I love you
永遠不願意baby 失去你
不可能更快樂, 只要能在一起
做什麼都可以
雖然世界變個不停
用最真誠的心, 讓愛變的簡單
愛的地暗天黑都已無所謂
是是非非無法決擇
沒有後悔為愛日也去跟隨
那個瘋狂的人是我…喔~
Chorus
如果你還有一些困惑
Oh no~ 請貼, 我的心傾聽
聽我說著 - 愛你, Yes I do
I love you, Oh yes I do
一直在這裡陪, 一直在愛你
I love you
永遠都不放棄, 這愛你的權利
I have managed to loosely translate this into English in case there are some who cannot understand Chinese. I hope no meanings are lost in translation although it appears very corny in English.. but.. you get the picture.
Simply Love
I’ve forgotten how it started
How I started having feelings for you
And I suddenly discover
That falling deeply in love with you, really was very simple
Being completely lost in love doesn’t matter anymore
Because whether right or wrong, Im not longer able to judge
I do not regret being in love with you every day and night
That crazy person is me…Oh~
Chorus:
I love you.
I’m incapable of not loving you baby
Say you love me too
I love you
I’m not willing baby, to ever lose you
There’s no way to be any happier, as long as we can be together
It doesn’t matter what we do
Although the world keeps changing
We’ll use our most genuine heart to let love becomes simpler
Being completely lost in love already doesn’t matter anymore
Whether right or wrong, Im not longer able to judge
I do not regret being in love with you every day and night
That crazy person is me…Oh~
Repeat Chorus
I love you, I’ll always be with you
Always loving you
I love you, oh yes I do
I’ll never give up, this right to love you
If you still have some confusion
Oh no~ please rest your head on my heart and listen
Listen to it saying - I love you, Yes I do
I love you, Oh yes I do
I’ll always be with you, I’ll always love you
I love you
I’ll never give up the right to love you
A chill went down my spin as I listen to J sing. She was an ardent vocalist, and this made it even more special and romantic. Never once has a girl sang a song for me with such emotions. Throughout the song, she switched between looking at the screen and into my eyes. I was very touched. this song didnt only represent J’s feelings for me.. the lyrics well represented my love for her as well.
It was slightly drizzling when we decided to leave the pub before my friends. And once they were out of sight, I slipped my hands into J’s and we slowly walked off.
Dear readers, I would like to thank u for following this thread. Especially to those who have posted here, I deeply appreciate even thought I do not reply to every single post or tks each of u personally for willing to hear me out. I am also humbled by so many silent readers as this thread has garnered more than 200k hits since I started. Thank u.
To those they r giving out advices to me, thanks but all these has already happened. What’s done cannot be undone. I appreciate many of ur concerns and for the record, I have not been caught by my wife… for those who thinks I’m a bastard and were hoping I would be caught, I am sorry to disappoint u. However, u may be happy to know that the emotional pain that I have gone through still hurts and haunts me till this day.. I have been punished but probably not the way u want it.
I guess I can probably summarised everything in another 5-6 postings. Bear with me for those who cant stand it anymore.
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Spanner
Hey bro… great writing of your story…. hope u can handle it well as i was once in a similar situation… but with my wife best friend….found out by my wife’s other friend n almost cost me my marriage…. but glad my wife forgive me…. all the best to u…
Bro, sorry to hear u r in a somewhat similar situation but I m glad u n yr wife reconciled. All the best to u too. Cheers
After that day at the pub, I was meeting J almost everyday except those days my wife wasnt working. J’s birthday was coming soon and I wanted it to be the best birthday J has ever had, especially since its her 21st birthday. I lied to my wife that i had to attend an overseas conference and will be out of town for a few days stretching over the weekend. I asked J to reserve the entire saturday for me. I was getting really excited to finally spend a weekend with J and I intend to make it one she will never forget…
J kept pestering me to let her know how I was going to celebrate her birthday but I kept mum. I only asked her to dress casually and to bring along her swimwear. I had planned the entire day to be in areas which are not really crowded and unlikely to bump into familiar faces. I checked into a hotel in Marina area on Friday evening and spent the night just chilling alone. I brought along 2 bottles of red wine and a bottle of Dom Parignon champagne I bought several months back but never had the right occasion to drink it. This was the perfect occasion i thought.
On saturday morning, I was up early to tidy up the room and ‘decorate’ it a little with rose petals over the bed and the table. I got dressed up and drove to my regular florist to collect my flowers. I reached J’s place slightly early but was surprise she was already at the void deck waiting for me. J was dressed in her usual casual t shirt and shorts. I got out of my car to give her a kiss and wished her happy birthday. She was all smiley. I then walked to my car boot and took out the bunch of flowers. There were 98 red roses and one white rose. J was stunned and admired the flowers with her mouth half opened for quite a while. then she finally spoke.
J: These roses are lovely! thanks! How many roses are there?
I: there are 99 roses..
J: whats the meaning?
I: you go find out.
I pinched her lightly on the nose. She was still smiling and gave me a hug.
I: quick, lets go for breakfast. Im hungry and that place dont hold reservations very long.
We went to a famous breakfast place at Demsey Rd. I ordered for J as it was her first time there. Food was piping hot and good. J enjoyed it. We had our fill and sat there for coffee, chatting away and people watching. After awhile, I settled the bill and J asked..
J: where are we going now? I had such a filling breakfast that I feel a little sleepy now actually.
I: haha.. me too. But its ok. the next place may make you fall asleep anyway.
J: a boring place?
I: a relaxing place. Come, lets go.
I grabbed her hands and left the restaurant. We drove to sentosa. I had made reservations at a well known spa place in a hotel. Upon arrival, I gave my name and we were ascorted to a holding area. The place has a balinese-zen kind of feel and we were already soothing into a very relaxed mood. I have ordered for a 2 hours couple spa. Our masseurs came and led us to the room. We were asked to remove all our clothes in the toilet and to wear only the disposable undies provided. As J started undressing, I realised I havent seen her naked for a quite long time. I must have gotten carried away and J saw me looking at her breasts.
J: hey! can you stop looking at me like that?
I: im sorry.. cant help it.. (laughed)
J quickly wrapped a towel over herself and left me still in the toilet. We started our massage shortly and the masseurs were truly skilful. Once in a while, I turned and looked at J. Her eyes closed, she must have enjoyed it too. By the time we were done, we felt totally refreshed and recharged. We showered separately and were given some refreshing ginger tea after that. It was really good. When we left the spa, it was already almost 4pm. I went to my car and we drove to a carpark near Cafe Del Mar. J already knew it before we entered. She had been there once and love the place. We parted as J went to change to her swimwear. When she emerged, I was rather stunned. Her bikini was obviously a little revealing and tiny and the side of her boobs were showing quite a lot. Its funny how guys like to look at girls in revealing outfits but when the girl is their own, they dont want others to see. I am no different.
I: hmm.. dont you think this is a bit revealing?
J: ok lah. anyway, im with you so why are you worried?
I: im not worried. just that..
J: just what? then you make sure you stay by my side while we are here.
She grabbed my arms and we took a deck near the pool facing the sun. It was still slightly glaring but sun was almost setting by then. She ordered a Magarita while I order a ram and coke. We were really enjoying ourselves. We soaked in the pool for a while and just laze around, relaxing. There were lots of good looking ppl around and i must say i do feel a little out of place without my abs and youthfulness, both lost over the years. some guys were also looking at J but i guess they didnt approach her bcos of my presence. J didnt want to leave the pool but I was really hungry by then.
I: come, lets go for dinner. Im starving.
J: actually, me too..
We reluntantly left. I had already plan to bring J back to the hotel room for a room service dinner. We proceeded back to the hotel. J was surprised that I booked a room. Other then keeping the whole day as a surprise, I didnt want to tell J about the hotel room because ever since the night when we last made love at my house, I didnt want J to feel that I only wanted her body. Booking a hotel is very suggestive but I didnt have a choice as I had lied to wife I was out of town and needed a place to stay.
J: why didnt you tell me?
I smiled but didnt want to explain myself. When we entered the room, J was very touched that I made the effort to decorate the room. I told out the red wine and served us both a drink. We ordered room service and food was served within 30 mins. I popped the champagne. We watched tv, ate, drink and chatted at the same time, totally at ease with ourselves. It couldnt have been any better except that the day was ending soon. I decided to ask J..
I: can you stay with me tonight?
J: I didnt tell my mum i wont be going back.
I: I can send you home and we can come back again.
J: hmmm.. I think not. I wanna go home.
I was really disappointed that J couldnt stay. On hindside, maybe I should have told her in advance that she has to prepare for a stayover. Fcuk. I thought everything was perfect that day and this was the only glitch. And perhaps a very big one at that. I reluctant sent J home, trying hard to conceal my disappointment. When we reached her place, she thanked me again and gave a long kiss on my lips.. I took that as a consolation and went back to the hotel alone.
It was already 11pm when I was back. I took a shower and sat there watching tv. It must have been almost 12 when I heard a click on the door. It swung open and J appeared.
J: Surprise!
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multiverse
Something I’d like to ask you, it sounded like you developed feelings for J. You’ve mentioned that it’s not that you don’t have a good relationship with your wife, if so then why would you develop such feelings for J? Was it due to loss of love in the relationship with your wife?
Hope you don’t mind the questions, it’s just something I’ve been thinking.
Bro, I don’t mind, no worries. I don’t know if u have read all my posts as I have been very long winded.
I guess it all started with lustful thoughts having a chance to turn into actions bcos I was given a chance. When I realised J was hurt, my worries and wanting to protect her slowly turned into feelings. Also, I reckon another major reason was bcos I felt really comfortable and happy as I spent even more time with her. Even though we have a big age gap, I was infatuated by her bubbly and cheerful character I guess.
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Originally Posted by
Taisho75
Interesting take on your part. I have been following all your posts and I think you are playing with fire. You will know in due time(if the story is real).
It’s good for you to share with us your Affair with SIL, but you must know when to stop. I had an affair with a married woman before I was married. I had the same feeling and thoughts like you the last time. It started as lustful thoughts, but later turn to feelings. It was only after a while, I realised what I was doing will cause more harm to her, that I made the painful decision to let go.
I can tell you that it was a good decision and I heard she now has a child and loving her hubby more.
i was not only playing with fire myself but somehow also led my SIL into it. i was planning to go thru the turn of events in sequence but since u mentioned, then i will tell u that the relationship is already over. i must admit i dont know when to stop. u will know the details in my following few posts.
sorry and pardon me if i sound a little blunt, but let me ask u a question. why did u go into a relp with a married woman in the first place?
i believe most men are the same. we can tell, by and large, what is right and what is wrong. i knew it was wrong but i went ahead with this affair and its something i regret till now. from bystanders’ point of view, it is always easier and clearer to judge. just like u can clearly advise me about what to do and i thank u for that.
u obviously made the right choice to leave a married woman. and i honestly believe that if u really love a person, u will be happy when u see her leading a happier and much more fulfilling life.
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multiverse
Thanks for the reply…but did you lose any feelings for you wife because of this? Or do you still love her?
Anyway please continue the story!
waiting for more~
i dont think i have lost feelings for my wife after this. in fact, during and after the affair, i felt guilty and treated her even better than before. i love her and i still do. it may sound ironic after all of u have read what i have done.
some details abt my wife: perhaps being the elder child, she is a very independent and pragmatic person. she is not the sort that will ask for branded bags, bling blings or demand vacations. although i earn a decent living, she still prefers to work and not take a cent from me. She is one that can be depended upon and i am sure that she will stick with me, in good or bad times, in sickness and in health.
i know u may be thinking: then why the hell did i do it??
She makes a good wife, no question about that. but as a lover? honestly, i may not have the answer for myself, even now. i cant emphasize enough that lust got the better of me. but probably the other reason is herhaps the lack of spices, surprises and sparks in our relationship. i am doing something about it but it also takes 2 hands to clap.
I shudder to think if one day my wife were to grab my shoulders, ask me to look into her eyes and ask: am i the person u love the most in your life?