We looked at each other & chuckled. As we slowly strolled along the corridor towards her house, I knew the night was coming to an end. But this end marked a new beginning. A fresh start for the both of us.
Our footsteps came to a halt right outside the door to her home. We lingered there, not wanting to let go of each other. I turned her around & held her other hand. We looked deeply into each other’s eyes. I was still at a loss for words.
D: Even now you have nothing to say to me?
I could tell from her eyes that she was crying out to me to say something. The butterflies in my stomach morphed into giant moths. I was utterly speechless, perhaps still overwhelmed by everything.
Me: Goodnight…
Goodnight??? That’s all I can say after all that has happened??? Gees…
D tiptoed towards me with her eyes half closed, pouting her lips at me. Those lips of hers were yearning for reciprocation from mine. I leaned forward & shut my eyes, not knowing when our lips will meet.
The moment our lips came into contact, I could feel the tenderness of it. We froze again, with our lips just barely touching each other. Just then I felt her tongue shot out, pushing my lips apart & into my mouth.
I immediately withdrew & stared at her in disbelieve. She actually blushed.
D: I’m sorry. Did I scare you?
I am such a wuss. Standing in front of me was the girl of my dreams (she still is) & all I could do was shrink & curl up like an armadillo. I never thought I’d say this
Me: No. I’m just not ready.
I cannot believe what just came out of my mouth! I rejected a tongue fight with her! D just smiled back.
D: It’s ok. We should take it slow.
I flashed a smile back at her & watch her open the door before shutting it on me but not before we bade our goodbyes.
It took forever for me to make my way down to my bike. My mind was in a total mess. Unable to decode all that has transpired in such a short time. Too much data to handle for a brain that was seldom used since young.
I squatted near my bike & must have puffed out at least 3 or 4 sticks while trying to collect my thoughts when someone called out to me.
Man: Eh bro, your bike ah?
I turned to see who was hanging around the car park in the dead of the night. Car park attendant…
Me: Ya. Going off now.
I rode off with my thoughts still fragmented. I only knew that I can’t wait to see her again.
I couldn’t get to sleep that night. I tossed & turned in bed like frying a fish, unable to find a comfortable position. I was too excited. My heart was still beating rather fast even in her absence. My thoughts gathered back to the final moments before she stepped into her house. Those lips were delicious! I yearned & craved to taste more of it.
As the night wore on, my body & mind eventually couldn’t take the beating anymore & I drifted off to sleep. I had a dream that night. It was a dream that I found uncomfortable with but yet I couldn’t remember the details of it. I only know that I woke up in cold sweat. Since I had no memory of it, I just simply brushed it aside & continued the day. A changed man I was then. I had D and that was all that mattered to me.
What happened the next few days made a big change in my life. I waited eagerly at the coffee shop for her return from school. My eyes pinned at the bus stop, hoping that she would alight from the buses that had stopped. 4pm came & passed. I sent her a text message asking where she was. No reply ever came. Then I remembered that her cell phone had drowned. So all I could do was to sit there & carried on waiting.
5pm went by unknowingly. 6pm came & the human traffic started to get heavier. Plenty of office men & ladies. For once, none of the office ladies caught my eye. I only had eyes for D & no one else. I guess I had really fallen in love with her.
I had upgraded from coffee to horse urine. It never tasted this bitter before. By 7pm I was worried sick about her. I had contemplated on knocking at her door to find out her whereabouts but decided otherwise in case her parents recognized me. I had been sitting in that coffee shop for a few months & I was pretty sure most people knew what I did for a living there. I wouldn’t want to shock her parents about this nor get her into any trouble.
The beer auntie sat down with me at 8pm or so & flooded me with questions. My ears had unintentionally filtered off her voice & I just ignored her presence. Even a tree would have uprooted itself to move somewhere else & so did she. Eventually she moved on to pester other old men for more beer.
I think I stopped after 3 or 4 bottles. I was starting to feel nauseous. I realized I had not taken dinner prior to drinking. I just carried on waiting till 1130pm when the coffee shop closed. Where was D? Did something happen to her? Or was she avoiding me knowing that being with me would do her no good? I only got more confused than ever. I stuck around till about 1230am before deciding to leave for home, since I did not believe that she would appear.
Just as I was making my way towards the car park, I saw D stepping out from a taxi with an older man. I stopped walking & just stared at them. That man was tall & stout with rough arms. The shirt that he was wearing seemed too small for his muscled torso & arms. He had a thick moustache & looked very stern. He looked like a police officer to me. I hesitated to approach D but when she saw me, she started running in my direction. I could see her starting to tear & I just opened my arms to her. She buried her face into my chest & just cried away. I did not say a word but just hugged her & stroked her hair, all the while not breaking eye contact with that man. He stared hard at me as he walked towards us, stopping only a few feet away from D & I. He glared hard at me for a few more seconds before turning away & walked towards the lift. I had no doubt that was her dad.
We stood there for god knows how long with her still crying away. When the crying turned to light sobbing, D finally opened her mouth.
D: *still sobbing away* Doc said my grandma will not wake up anymore!
Oh! Not that I was being insensitive, but death itself is part of life & it is inevitable. Everyone has to go through it eventually. I was worried what came out of my mouth next would only hurt her more & thus decided to keep my mouth shut & just hugged her tighter.
D: I talked so much to her but she can’t hear me! I don’t want her to go! I don’t want to see her go!
There was absolutely nothing that I could do. For once I felt totally helpless.
After a long while she calmed down & we sat down at a table outside the now closed coffee shop. She explained to me that her grandma fell down when we were out merry making the night before. D did not know how long she was lying in the toilet until she was home. I later confirmed that her dad was a police officer & he was at work during that time. The doctors told them that her grandma was already brain dead & put her on life support. They also said she would not hold out for long due to her frail condition.
Just as we had embarked on a new journey in our lives, another life had to come to an end. This is just how unpredictable life is. How life was never meant to be smooth sailing throughout.
No words of consolation came from my mouth for I knew none. I could only offer my company & she gladly accepted that. She carried on telling me how she grew up with her grandma, sharing a room with her till date. I realized just how attached D was to her grandma & losing her at that moment was equivalent to losing everything. I had wanted to ask about D’s mum but thought it was a bad time to do so. D never did mention about her that night.
After crying her heart out till her tears dried, she had to go home to rest as she wanted to be by her grandma’s bedside by morning. I offered to accompany her through this & that was the only time I saw her managed a weak smile. We hugged one last time with a light peck on the lips before I sent her home.
I spent the next 4 days with D at her grandma’s bedside. Most of the time we just sat there watching her grandma in deep sleep. At times, D would wet a towel & wiped her grandma’s face & arms. Other times D would just be holding her arm & cried. Her dad would appear from time to time for intervals of between 30 minutes to a few hours. We never exchanged a single word.
It was also during these few days that I stopped my work. Boss was understanding enough to relief me of my duties. I handed over the accounts to him & he said not to worry about it & that he would get someone else to takeover from there. I was told to take my time & to accompany D through this.
The day finally came when even the life support could not keep her grandma going. D totally lost it & was screaming & shouting away while tugging at her grandma’s lifeless body. I had to restrain her & pulled her out of the room while the doctors attempted to bring her grandma back.
The attempt was futile. I knew it. Her grandma had left. D could not bring herself back into the room to face her grandma. We stayed outside till her dad arrived. For the 1st time I saw her dad cry. D rushed to him & hugged him & I felt very extra just standing there.
We eventually left the hospital with me going back on my own while father & daughter took a cab back.
I found myself laying flat on my bed staring blankly into the ceiling. I could understand what D was going through but why did it had to happen when we just found happiness with each other? I knew I was being insensitive & selfish to even think that way but I couldn’t help it. I did not get to go through the honeymoon period with her. It all started with a kiss & it just stopped there.
From the way D unfolded her life with her grandma to me, I knew it would take a very long time for her to let go. The upcoming days would only be filled with sorrow. Most probably months, hopefully not years though.
Next to come would be the wake. I wondered should I even stick around there. But what the heck! I decided to just go through with it & should her dad wanted me to get lost, I would just leave.
I woke up very early next morning. I looked at my clock & it showed barely just past 7am. For the 1st time in my life, I jumped out of bed straight away. No lazing on the bed. I quickly washed up & left for her place. The tentage was already up but no one was there yet. I sat myself down at the coffee shop while keeping a lookout for D & her dad.
It wasn’t till about 10am that D appeared. She joined me at the table & said her grandma’s body would be arriving soon. I refrained from speaking unnecessarily & we just sat there waiting.
Just as the body arrived, her dad emerged from the lift too. D left me alone at the coffee shop to see to the receival of her grandma with her dad. I stayed put, not wanting to intrude on her family affairs as I found myself to be in an awkward position to do so.
D spent the next few hours just sitting beside the coffin burning joss papers. I kept her at vigilance all the while from the coffee shop. Her dad was on the phone most of the time & people started flowing in at a slow pace. I found out much later those were their relatives.
By evening, most of the tables were filled with friends & relatives. My brothers had joined me at the coffee shop & Ah Koon passed me an envelope that contained their contribution together with Boss’s. I thought that was not the time for this & so held on to it first. It was around that time that a group of men about 7 or 8 of them appeared, all bearing striking resemblance to D’s dad although some were of different race. 1 by 1 they passed by us & stared long & hard at us. We returned the glare & our defenses heightened, knowing who they were & ready for the worst to happen. It never came but we still did not let our guards down against them.
I then told Ah Koon and the rest that they should make a move first as staying around might invite unnecessary trouble. Besides, I found out the books were in Ah Koon’s hands. My brothers agreed & left but not before advising me not to stay too long either.
I cannot make it anymore. My mind is shutting down on me. I still have a few more days of drinking ahead. I will continue again soon. Good night all & again I give thanks to all for the appreciation of my sex-less story.
D stepped out from the wake & joined me at the table in the formal attire. Even then she looked so good. Sigh… But then my senses signaled me to something more alarming behind her. I saw the group of men with moustache all staring at me. I ignored their looks & set my eyes on D instead & saw how frail she had become in such a short time. Her beautiful eyes were red & swollen. It made my heart ached for her.
D: My grandma had passed away.
Obviously I knew that but I did not retort her.
Me: Don’t be sad. At least she left in peace & not in pain.
That was the only condolence I could manage & I thought I fared well. The next half an hour was spent in silence. D was staring into blankness while my eyes were alternating between her & those men with moustache. Her dad joined them & glanced in my direction before they got into a conversation. They were too far away for me to hear anything but I knew it was about me, for a few of them looked in my direction from time to time.
My 6th sense told me a storm was coming my way anytime soon but I couldn’t bring myself to leave D at a time when she was feeling most vulnerable. I believed my presence could help to ease her sorrows but my thoughts were also occupied by the impending trouble with the law.
Suddenly her dad called out to her. She turned in his direction & saw him waving at her to go over. She stood up & left me without saying a word. My eyes were kept on her as she spoke to her dad. Not long after she disappeared into the lift. I presumed she went home to get something for him.
That was also when the group of men stood up & walked towards me. I set my eyes on 1 of them & kept the contact until they stopped before the table.
Moustache man 1: Stand up & come with us.
Me: Why should I go with you? Who are you?
Moustached man 2: Don’t fool around with us anymore. Get up now.
They spoke monotonously. No emotion & certainly did not raise their voices. I think it was in respect of D’s dad & her grandma’s wake.
I slowly stood up, not wanting to create a scene & followed them. They did not put their hands on me as we walked.
I got into 1 of their cars & was seated behind, in between 2 of them. It was really uncomfortable & I could feel my balls shrink up. I knew it was going to be a long night ahead.
We ended up in Police Cantonment Complex car park. I was led out of the car with 2 of them holding onto my arms each. They left me alone in an interrogation room with 1 arm cuffed to the chair after I had surrendered my belongings to an officer sitting at a large table outside. Time seemed to had come to a stop during the entire period I was in there. I did not know how long had passed before 2 of them returned.
What transpired in that room later on certainly did not relate to what I saw on Crime Watch. They weren’t angels but I was determined by them to be the devil. After what seemed like hours, I was led out of that room & transferred to a detention cell for the rest of the time. Some time in between I was given a chance to make a phone call but I declined. I didn’t want to let my parents know where I was & I certainly did not want to call my boss either.
During those 48 hours, I was brought in & out of the interrogation room countless times. Each time it only got worse. I was also questioned about the envelope of money. I only found out it contained $1,800 from them. $1,000 was from my boss while the rest was from my brothers.
Moustache man 1: What are you doing with so much money? ( Or something like that. I can’t really recall)
Me: Singapore got law state cannot bring that much money out ah?
I received 1 tight slap for that. My face burned. My eyes automatically stared back at the man who slapped me.
Moustache man 1: Why? You jin pai ah? (Meaning am I very bad)
He awarded me with another tight slap. It went on & on until my eyes teared uncontrollably. I will never forget that long moment. It was the first time in my life I was hit & had no chance to retaliate. I also realized I had joined the wrong trade. I should have aspired to be a police officer instead.
They eventually threw me back into the detention cell where I spent the rest of the time until the 48 hours were almost up I think. A uniformed officer released me from the cell before returning my belongings. I stepped out of the complex in darkness. There was still no sunlight. I never knew the absence of sun light for a long time had such devastating effect on a human being until that day. I was feeling very weak & sore at my face.
Just as I was flagging down a taxi, a patrol car stopped behind it & the front passenger alighted. The police officer walked towards me & arrested me again. I got into an altercation with him as I kept repeating myself to him that I had just been released. Furthermore, my mind & body needed to get away from that place. I tried to struggle free from his grasp not before he took me down to the ground & cuffed me. I was led back into the complex again where I surrendered my belongings again before throwing me into the detention cell, again. This time though, I was not interrogated. They just locked me up & forgot about me. During some time, I was given a chance to make a phone call & I declined yet again. I fell asleep & woke up many times but each time I awoke, it only made me more tired. I cried a few times too. Seriously, there was only that much I could take. Whoever said that crying doesn’t help matters cannot be more wrong. I actually felt better & was able to sleep a little after each time I cried.
Finally I was released again. This time I managed to get into a taxi without obstruction.
I dropped dead in the cab & the driver had to shake me hard to wake me up upon reaching my house. I could hardly peel my eyes opened but I managed to see myself home & homed in directly to my bed. I thought my dad spoke to me but I didn’t care. I just wanted to sleep.
I didn’t know how long I slept but it was still dark when I woke up. I felt a terrible headache the moment I sat up on my bed. My stomach was growling like mad too. I did not eat the biscuits but only drank the milo that was given during the time that I was detained & I was starving now! (Don’t ask me how I survived without water in the cell. My pride took a beating & my self-esteem plummeted to the lowest during those 96 hours)
I crawled out of my bed & headed into the kitchen. I found myself some left over bread & gorged it all down, choking on it. In the process I also gulped at least a litre of water down my throat or else the bread wouldn’t have made it in. Feeling contented, I walked like a zombie back into my room & fell asleep again.
There was daylight streaming into my room when I woke up again. The headache was gone. My hands reached around for my mobile phone & I found it still in my pocket. The battery was flat by then. I pulled myself together & crawled out of my bed to charge it up. Almost immediately, my phone beeped none stop. Smses were flooding in. There were at least 30 of them. I ignored most of them & only centered on those originating from D. Almost all were of the same message asking where I had disappeared to.
I dialed her number but the call was rejected. A sms followed soon after. It was D
D: I’m in lecture now. Where did you go? Why did you not return my calls & text?
I didn’t really want to tell her what happened to me but I knew I had to tell her something. But what? My mind raced to find an answer but alas, I couldn’t come up with anything & so I decided to tell her the truth.
I had never wanted to tell her what I did for a living but I also knew I could not hide it from her forever. This day had to come. I just didn’t thought it would be so soon.
Me: I’ll tell you about it after school. See you at the coffee shop later.
I looked at the clock & realized it was 2pm then. After checking & confirming the date, I also realized I had disappeared from her life for close to 6 days. With 4 days spent in detention & almost another 2 days dead asleep.
It was then that I found out I had not washed nor changed out of my clothes for 6 days too! I smelt myself & I almost threw up. Yucks!!! I made a dash for the bathroom & took a long deserved shower. I had not scrubbed myself so hard before I think I peeled off a lot of skin while doing so.
Feeling fresh & finally clean, I dressed up & left home, I spent a few minutes searching my car park for my bike, wondering has it been stolen before I remembered that my bike was still at her place!
The taxi driver was driving like a mad man. Cutting in & out of lanes like a professional racer (as if). I just fastened the seat belt & closed my eyes, praying I can reach my destination in 1 piece. Not wanting to get into an argument with him because deep down inside, I wanted to reach there as soon as possible too.
The tentage for the wake had been removed. After 6 days, naturally it had to be over. When I saw my bike, there were at least 6 tickets on it. I was surprised it hadn’t been towed away! I just pulled them all off & dumped it into the bin before replacing with a fresh coupon. I also found that my helmets had contained a pool of water in them. It must have rained quite heavily the past few days to have collected that much water. Maybe the heavens were crying for D’s grandma. Or perhaps the heavenly tears were for D instead. I carefully removed my helmets from the lock by the side, not wanting to drench my shoes. The water did not seem to be clean & I also wondered if there were any mosquito lavas breeding in it. After pouring away the rain water, I left my helmets at the coffee counter to dry as it was warmer there.
I saw Ah Koon seated at the usual table playing with his mobile phone. As I sat myself down next to him, questions started pouring out from him. I only told him the bare necessities but skipped all details. I also warned him not to keep anything on him & that we were on watch list, no thanks to D’s dad.
Just then, Ah Koon froze & his eyes looked hard at something behind me. I turned around & saw D’s dad. He motioned for me to go over. The confrontation had to come & it finally came. I stood up & walked over to him in big steps, standing firm before him.
D’s dad: I will only say this once. Leave D.
He spoke while pointing a finger at my nose. I did not like that at all.
Me: Why should I listen to you? I will leave only if D tells me to.
I defiantly retorted.
D’s dad: I will not repeat myself again.
With that he walked off into the lift. I watched him till the lift door closed before making my way back to the table.
Ah Koon: Eh, what he want?
Me: What else? He wants me to leave D.
Ah Koon: Siao ah? He think he mattar really big fuck ah?
I kept quiet, deep in my thoughts. Had he spoken to D yet? Had he warned her to leave me? Was D agreeable to it?
I cannot recall what else did Ah Koon said. My mind was in a complete mess. I just wanted to see D. I just wanted to hug her & feel her beside me.
I ran over to hug D when I saw her alighting from a bus. We embraced each other just short of the bus stop & held it there for a very long time. I did not bother myself with those disapproving eyes that passed by us for the public display of affection. They were of non-existent to me.
Me: Let’s go somewhere else.
D nodded & just followed me back to the coffee shop where I retrieved my helmets. They were still pretty wet so I had no choice but to borrow Ah Koon’s for D to wear. Since he only had 1, I had to put on my still dripping wet helmet but I didn’t care. I just wanted to take her somewhere quiet where we can be alone.
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Gosh … you’ve had too much to drink BRO !!!! It’s a note book … Find someone
I’m still quite new to this entertainment thingie. Everyday it is only meetings followed by drinking. I think I need a new liver before I can get my bonus. Well, not that I don’t have company, but it’s rather political. I have to send the girls off to play on their own.
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blohsg
hmmm the first kiss … you went 90% and she came in the last 10% … lips and tongue … wooot !
I was fooled by her demure looks. She ain’t as innocent as thought her to be. But I’m loved each surprises that she pulled.
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Thanks for the story update, keep me moving today despite a raging storm in my office…
You are welcome. I’m glad my miserable life serves as a motivation for another. Thank you in return
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waiting for u to update
I’ll try to write later when my head stops spinning.
Damn! I overslept! Have to cut down on the drinking tonight & get myself some well deserved bonk too! I’ll try to update a little if I can come back to hotel in the evening.
Last night was at a micro-brewery restaurant called Hoa Vien or something. The layout was pretty german styled. They had light & dark beer. I’d say the beer wasn’t that bad but the crowd was boring.
Time to rush!
Fellow bros & sis, I had to cut short my trip & returned to SG yesterday night due to some family issues. I will update again when the time is appropriate.