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Originally Posted by
kittymae
Bro Sen5e, 越描越黑 u know? Lols!
She most prob wanted to same thing u couldn’t offer to either Jenny/ Shirley in the end. Offer her a way out her dilemma (one moment saying almost resolutely want to divorce husband, then later changing mind and consider giving him another chance) but since u didn’t, she would be disappointed (thus explaining perhaps the sadness u sort of saw in her) thus, her final choice to try again…
I don’t think I played any part in her final decision. Maybe she was sad that I had to leave so quickly? Maybe she wanted more sex… Haha…
I was not expecting her to contact me again, especially since we stopped messaging each other so frequently.
I was minding my own business doing absolutely nothing when my phone beeped.
I checked it not expecting anything important.
R: Hi. How you been?
Now that was surprising. We did agree to stop SMSing like a couple.
Me: Fine. You?
R: Not good.
Me: What happened?
R: I followed him the other night.
Me: And?
R: He went to meet a girl.
Me: How do you know it wasn’t his friend? You meet your male friends too right?
R: He told me that he was going for supper with his friends.
Me: Ok…
R: Are you free to meet?
Me: I guess so. Time and place?
R: Pick me then we go to the same place?
Me: Ok. Give me 20 mins.
I took a quick shower, got dressed and proceeded to pick her from her place.
She was wearing the same tank top as she was the previous week when I met her in the hotel. But I almost could not recognize her as she had cut her hair. It was really short now, a pixie cut.
She got into the car.
Me: You ok? By the way, nice haircut.
R: Thanks. I’m not ok.
Me: What’s wrong?
R: He told me he would change. He didn’t.
Me: He was only meeting a girl.
I pulled out of the car park and drove towards the expressway.
R: They checked into a hotel.
Me: You saw this with your own eyes?
R: Yes! I followed them!
Me: Calm down. A guy and a girl can go to a hotel and do other things what. Like chat?
R: Don’t be stupid.
Me: Ok. So he did it again. Then what?
R: I’m numb.
Me: Why did you decide to follow him?
R: I don’t know. Suspicious I guess.
Me: So now you’ve confirmed your suspicions. What’re you going to do?
R: I don’t know.
Me: Are you even happy now?
R: No. I can’t find any reason to smile anymore. I thought by giving him a chance he would change.
Me: Why are you still around then?
R: We’ve been together for so long.
Me: How long has he been doing this?
R: I don’t know. I never asked.
Me: And you can tolerate it?
R: No. I can’t stand it.
Me: Wait a minute. I thought you said we shouldn’t meet anymore.
R: I needed someone to talk to.
Me: Talk only? Or do you need something else as well?
R: Maybe your hugs.
Me: Anything else?
R: No.
Me: You sure?
R: You want me to cut off your cock?
Me: Er… No.
R: Then stop asking. We are not fuck buddies anymore.
Me: I don’t think we were even fuck buddies to begin with.
R: Whatever.
Me: So seriously, what do you want to do?
R: I really don’t know. I don’t know what I’ll do if I leave him. He was really nice to me all those years.
Me: What about me?
R: What about you?
Me: Am I nice to you?
R: I guess so.
Me: You did say you were happy with me right?
R: I see what you’re trying to do.
Me: What?
R: You’re trying to get me to leave my husband and be with you.
Me: No I’m not.
R: Then why are you saying all this?
Me: I’m just trying to say that even if you leave him, there will be other guys who will treat you well,
who will take care of you.
R: And you are trying to make me see that you are one of those guys?
Me: Maybe.
R: We hardly know each other. What makes you think I’ll fall for you?
Me: I don’t think you’ll fall for me.
R: Then?
Me: We can get to know each other better.
R: You already seen me naked. Slept with me. What more do you want to know?
Me: I don’t know.
R: I don’t know if I can handle another relationship. Definitely not right now.
Me: I know.
R: Even if we don’t have sex, you’ll still be my friend right?
Me: Yeah.
R: You seem disappointed.
Me: Maybe I am.
R: Is sex so important to you?
Me: Not really. But I felt we had something going on.
R: I don’t have that kind of feelings for you.
Me: Fuck buddies are not supposed to have any feelings for each other.
R: I don’t want to sleep with you now.
Me: I know. I’m not asking you to.
R: Then stop talking about all this.
We reached our destination and headed to an empty bench facing the sea. She snuggled up to me without asking and I wrapped my arms around her.
Me: You really like this don’t you?
R: I said before, your hugs give me a sense of security.
Me: Ok.
After some time, she slowly slid down and lay on my lap, curling her legs to her chest.
Me: You tired?
R: A little.
Me: Ok. Sleep then.
I stroked her hair.
I stared out at the open sea with her napping on my lap.
I still could not get over the sex I had with her. But right now she needed me more as a friend to show support and concern, rather than someone to satisfy her physical needs.
I hoped that I could be that person she wanted me to be right now.
This, however, was extremely unhealthy. I had not been sleeping well due to all the time spent with her, and I still had to work the next day. But I guess it was all worth it.
Maybe one day she would come to a final decision.
Maybe one day that would be my chance.
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Originally Posted by
kittymae
It might drive the readership up? Lols…
Well, it would certainly generate interest. And may drive readership up. But our rep will drop to the negatives. Haha. But interesting idea. Story on brotherly love… Haha.
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Originally Posted by
Sen5eS
Bro E - You get stringed along but you’re still sober/not hooked yet right ? Everything still in their proper place I hope ?
Actually i’m wondering. How did i get strung along actually? I think we both wanted it, the sex i mean, so i didn’t really get strung right? But i’m hooked of course. Haha.
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Sen5eS
well … i’m just wondering Emotionally how badly are you hooked
Doesn’t look like you were affected in anyway ?
i’d like to think that i’m emotionally unavailable right now. But physically available. But i don’t think there’s any reciprocation of anything now, whether emotional or physical. Hence, nothing much to write about.
I sent her home before heading to work for another day of being a zombie.
Many thoughts ran through my mind.
If she was so unhappy, why was she still holding on? Surely everyone deserved a chance at happiness.
It did not make much sense to me. Or perhaps I had not grasped the concept of love yet.
I started to wonder about what I was really after by being with her. Was it just sex? She was, after all, good in bed, and she made me feel good about myself. Mind fucking aside, there was so much about her that made me want to be with her.
I reached camp, took a cold shower to wake myself up and proceeded to the canteen for coffee. My phone beeped.
R: Thanks for spending time with me again. You didn’t have to.
Me: But I wanted to.
R: Please don’t tell me you like me.
Me: Why not?
R: If you do, then this has to stop.
Me: Why?
R: I’m married.
Me: Aren’t we friends? Can’t friends like each other?
R: Friends don’t sleep with each other.
Me: Friends with benefits do.
R: We’re not that.
Me: Why sleep with me then?
R: I wanted to.
Me: What’s the reason?
R: I don’t know.
Me: You said it’s not really for revenge right? So what’s the reason?
R: I really don’t know.
Me: What are you afraid of?
R: I’m not afraid.
Me: Maybe you’re afraid of admitting that you’ve fallen for me?
R: No.
Me: I was there for you at the lowest point of your life.
R: I don’t want to talk about this.
Me: Why not?
R: I don’t want to hurt you.
Me: How exactly are you hurting me?
R: If you like me, and I don’t, then you’ll be hurt if I dot return the feelings.
Me: And if I don’t like you?
R: Then everything is fine.
Me: Is that the real reason?
R: What?
Me: You think I like you and the feeling is mutual?
R: No.
Me: Then?
R: My life is messed up right now. I need to have a clear mind to sort things out.
Me: So what’s wrong with continuing to sleep together? Does that confuse you?
R: I already said we should stop having sex. Maybe next time when we can do it legally.
Me: Meaning?
R: Forget it. You’re a nice guy. Don’t make me change my mind.
Me: I thought you were happy with me.
R: I was. You treat me well. That’s all.
Me: How about the sex?
R: You torture me.
Me: But you liked it.
R: Yes.
Me: Then what’s the problem?
Maybe I should have stopped when she asked me to stop. She did not reply to that last SMS, nor has she replied to the email I sent to her to apologize.
Oh well, I guess I screwed things up again…
I don’t know why but even though we were not together, it felt as though she had just broken up with me.
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Sen5eS
oops … she called it off. Her game her rulez … hope you didn’t lose too much sleep over it. You’ve got more important things to deal with.
Didn’t think it was a game bro. Haha. Will see what happens if she replies. Maybe i hit a raw nerve…
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Sen5eS
You’ve Got Age Limit ???? You want young toy boys ? You are a bona fide Sugar Mummy Tai Tai ?
pick me pick me pick me !
Bro E doesn’t collect payment in that Kind from Fella Bros
Can you be collateral instead by the power vested in me as Prez of Hello KittyMae FanClub?
Think it’s a game … she needs … you give … you want more she pushes you away … and the cycle goes on for a few more rounds … sounds very much like give&take tug O war fishing.
I’m a young boy too! Pick me! Haha. Don’t think its a game. Perhaps she’s really confused.
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kittymae
Wat sugar mummy tai tai…lols.
百万小学堂? 选我,选我,选我? Lols …
Kitties are not tradable, & not a commodity wor. At least not this kitty. Haha..
Hmmm.. Ure right.. Maybe this is new game for bro E… That’s why he is hooked on it.. Haha like a kid receiving a new Xbox/PS game…oops :/
Ahem ahem, young boy? :x
u need apply mehz? Got R mahz. Hahahah
Sheesh.. I’m getting evil here huh
If she really is confused, ure presence around her doesn’t help at all. U only contribute to it.
I’m looking forward for next update…. Pizza party in the meanwhile anyone? Lols
No more updates for now la. Really. Unless u wanna contribute your story. Haha.
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kittymae
*lays out picnic mat, grabs a pack of chips, can of coke, sits & wait patiently for updates*
=pause=
If I’m saying u should run, I shouldn’t be encouraging by waiting for updates…hmm.dilemma.
Lols
Go find urself a new “story” den got updates already!
Its not so easy to find a new story. You keen on volunteering? Haha.