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lucyfer
Bro,
I also “cross come people”.
LOL, thats a good one…for me it was crisis management after that…stay tune bro!
Special thanks to all those newbies here who tried to up me even without power..giving me more confident and encouragement to carry on writting the other part of this story…will burn more midnight oil to satisfied you guys for the great support
Cheers!
The journey home is also hard to endure..its seems like no ending and we hit red light at every junction, just pure coincident or unlucky! I think its is not my day, I had plan to avoid them picking me at the airport, but it turn out that they are here picking up my aunty and caught me red handed..
DJ: next a song in the 70’s by stylistic..soul….“you are everything”
The lyric of this song scare me…i am worried that she will disappear and it will be the end of my marriage…but that is still secondary to me..I am more worried about hurting my elderly mum when she get the news..I could only hope that all this will not followed..
Next another song that really make her sob..“emotion” by the Bee Gees…I turn off the radio immediately, look like that DJ is against me too..why can he spin some other songs? So i press the CD button ..but worst, i fuck myself again…with Rod Stewart first song..“first cut is the deepest” KNNCCB what the fuck is happening to me??????
Aunty: can you turn off the music?
Finally we reached home after a most torturing drive, my wife and Aunty headed straight into my bedroom and closed the door, i could only sit at the sofa LL waiting to get more dressing and punishment. Told the maid to get me a beer and i started to think of myself.. from a kampong Kid with only secondary chinese education living in an attap house where it leak whenever it rain till living in a landed property with swimming pool and fancy sport cars , i had gone thru so much to reach what i had yesterday…but today, it seems that everything is coming to an end..How i succeed in gaining trust from my mentors and bussiness associates thru the sincere and trust that they had in me… my life had been improving everyday after i completed my national service..everyday is a good surprise and success..everyman that i know in my path is an experience gain that no book can be writes, everthing that i do or invested seems to be blessed for me…but today, just like sailing with those indonesian crews…i hit a storm, a terrible storm that is drowning me..
I must not give up so easily, I had come this far and gain so much, i had never tasted failure in my life..i must regain my will power and have trust in myself that this crisis will be over soon..I need to settle it fast, i need to put all things back in place..the house must be in order and that is a priority to me… but where should i starts from here? Nobody would belief me now, i am a liar of all time..i am a jerk.. a scum…..and yes the family must be in one piece!
I just need one more time, one more chance,…one more blessing for my marriage..Just one more… my son seem to know what was going on inside me, he came over stretch his leg out and lied down resting his head on my lap looking up at me with his naive eyes…
The powerful emotions that you went thru must be torturous mentally. I sympathize with u bro, hope it comes out ok, cheers ……………………..
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Originally Posted by
eeemen
The powerful emotions that you went thru must be torturous mentally. I sympathize with u bro, hope it comes out ok, cheers ……………………..
Bro, thanks for the concern an support …
I just need one more time, one more chance,…one more blessing for my marriage..Just one more… my son seem to know what was going on inside me, he came over stretch his leg out and lied down resting his head on my lap looking up at me with his naive eyes…[/QUOTE]
Time of being alone with my son becomes an advantage to me, it allow me to have a deep tot, prepared myself for the confession, crisis management and worst of all a bitter ending.. recalling seeing the tears in her eyes that flowing like a stream was like a needle poking into my heart…what on earth is on my mind to have hurt her like that.
Finally my son fell asleep on my lap so i lift him carefully and carried him to his light blue color wall bedroom.. the maid came in and turn on the aorcondition for the room as i went back to kitchen fridge to get six pack of ice cold beer and walks toward the pool side, the evening sun set in causing a bright golden color in the blue sky that hardly have any cloud….
As i set on the pooldeck sunbath bench, looking at the last golden ray as the sun set..haiz…i call that beautiful sunset in the hotel room just days ago…but now….is this view resembling my life…sending out my last golden ray before going into darkness..will i be heading to the dark side as it comes…? All those glory days are gone…it is coming to an end…No! I cannot let it happen, i must have hope for myself..i cannot be defeated so easily after coming such a long way.
Darkness set in as i finish my last can of beer, the maid came and told me that dinner is ready and then she walks toward my bed room and knock on the dooor..“mum dinner is ready”..There was no respond from the room, i set down on the dinning tables..but i have no appetite to even raised that chopstick on the table..
Finally i decided that i need to make the move .. i went to the door , Knock on it and ask them to open the door..
Me: please open the door.
no respond for few second
Me; please open the door and let me explaint for goodness sake.
waited for another 2 minutes and finally the door is open by my aunty.
Aunty: why are you doing this? you have such a beautiful, lovely and understanding wife ..you are nut!
I got into the room and immediately close the door as my aunty excuses her self out of the room.
me: dear i deserved to be punish, but give me a chance please
She; what chance? you had blown up all your chance, all these years you think i dont know what you do outside? I am just closing one eye and one ear for the sake of this family and you mum…but you had gone too far this time round..
me: dear i know its all my stupid mistake, but you know i have a weak heart for women..and a strong sex drive..
She: does that means that you can be excuse and be allowed to fuck freely. you treat me like a mei mei that can be sweet talk over..I have decided!
me: decide what? please dont act in a rash, i know i deserve to be dead, but please consider our boys before you make any decision.
she; you know later.
me: please, tell me what you want and i do for you as long as this family is in one piece.
she: now you get out of this room. from now onward, you go to the room at the top of the stairs… i cannot sleep with a dirty man like you.
me: OK.. I will ..but…dont act rash and do stupid things ok..
with that i act like lan lan and walk out of the room..but i am more relieved now..as long as she is willing to engage in the conversation, just need to let her release all her frustration on me and i think it will be fine….i guess Aunty must have put in a lot of good words for me too..
but for now its “room at the top of the stairs”
haha I was wrong earlier. Thanks for the revelation. Bro your story is like a good novel. Don’t get to read cannot sleep! Keep it coming pls!
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KallIan
haha I was wrong earlier. Thanks for the revelation. Bro your story is like a good novel. Don’t get to read cannot sleep! Keep it coming pls!
thanks for the compliment!
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eeemen
The suspense is killing me bro, come on, out with it!!!!
, cheers bro ………………..
Bro reading already cannot tahan being suspense, can you imagine what kind of he’ll suspense I gone thru…. Hehe…. It will become another endurance lession for any bros here that may follow my foot step…. Nothing is free … You get free fuck but will be made to payback in another way…cheers!
sorry tonight no update… too high on alcohol..will write tomorrow when i am sober…
Cheers and good night!