We had 1x in her car, 1x in my office and the rest of our time were spent fighting. So I decided to end the ill fated relationship. To be there is no point in keeping women whom only aced in bed but our personality crashed head on mostly. Truth be told that guilt got the better of me than not loving Felicia, I miss her mostly but don’t forget her husband is living 4 steps away from my door and that’s playing with fire! It’s a real punishment to see the smiling face of her hubby almost every morning, waving Hello to me and I have a secret of fucking his wife.
After what happen to me and Felicia, I really didn’t have the mood to be in another relationship. I found my life blend, dull, monotonous, boring. Is not that Felicia is special but I really could find the missing link to my happiness. Sex…is plentiful, Love is all the more around but to find that One person that is missing in my life, that’s tough! My mind is always filled with Grace, the girl that I think I raped that later gave me the love curse of my life! She leaved me but owns me forever, I know I have to find someone…someone good enough to replace her in my soul or am I just wanting her more. A friend of mine told me she got married recently and is expecting a wonderful daughter, I guess I have to learn to let go and not have everything and anything that I want! The word that is ringing in my mind is Contentment and Acceptance! The is someone inside that refuse to give up, refuse to go down without a fight, refuse to neither give in nor give up!
The frustration, agony and distress are many times difficult to handle which only I will understand why. The pursuit of happiness is more like pursuit of solitudes, I don’t know what is wrong with me. I hate my wife for what she did to me, I hate myself for going behind her back and hate myself for being a father like this. As a young father, I had seen too little of fun and freedom and my wife, never fail to remind me how bitter can life be with the wrong woman. A bitter life was bestowed to be because of a lie by my wife and a promise that I had with my mum. I feel like a bird locked in a cage and the beautiful blue sky seems almost like a mockery. A Wiseman once told me, channeling your sadness into fuel for your dream is an act of Strength and Stupidity. He later explained that it takes an ordeal amount of inner strength to do this. It is stupid because soon you will run out of excuses to fuel your expedition. True enough…I am at the State-of-Mind that he warned and I can’t tell you how many times I feel like ending my life. There wasn’t other greater purposes that my 3 beautiful children. Am I enslaving myself or am I too weak to fight anymore? Am I game enough to seek, find and have what I longed for a long time. What is wrong with me? Have I become a Sex addict or all I want was Grace? Honestly, I dun know the answer only my fate and destiny knows what is of me.
Everyday…I feel a little evil, Everyday…I lose a little part of myself to sex, Everyday…I lose my interest in the passion between a Man and a Woman. It is clear in my writing that I am a one woman man but it is strange that I can’t contain myself. An sex addict or An empty bottle to fill any content?????? I don’t know but every day, I get to discover a little part of me. Every day I get hate myself and life a little more!
I Ravaged Victoria…? Part.5 <<<< QUICK RECAP!
We were like 2 kids in the park where our time was filled in with loads of laughter. We were done with the food and gradually Victoria laid back on my chest while having our conversations under the stars. The whole night was filled to the brim by romance, sheer romance I must say. All went extremely well until I accidentally mis-poured her sparkling wine on to her…I hurriedly used the napkins to clean her top…YES! Clean her top! (Breast) She tried to calm me by telling me it’s ok but I totally forgot that I’m actually touch her breasts, until she held my hands together and said my name in a deeper tone, then I realized what I was doing. I felt rather disappointment with myself and sadly apologized. Victoria gently touched my cheeks and told me it was ok…
A: Victoria, I am totally sorry for what happen and I sincerely apologize.
V: Its ok…Really!
I can never forget the way that Victoria looked at me. I wonder if it is the alcohol or was the soft lightings, She looks absolutely gorgeous, in her eyes I saw nothing more than love. I inched nearer to her as the seconds passed. She didn’t refused me and softly our lips met and we were kissing passionately. I never handed a woman more gently than Victoria and she place her hands behind my head. Her lips are absolutely soft and slippery (Do you know what I mean? It’s as if her lips doesn’t have much cracks), When I felt her bosoms closes to mine, my body was releasing so much endorphins that I could barely cope. My hands naturally went for her boobs and she bit my lips…
A: Ouuuuch….really must like that meh?
V: Who ask you…If you want me then respect me as you prized procession and never do that to me in public.
A: I……am Sorry. I was too carried away.
V: Let me see your lips? Are they ok? Are they bleeding?
A: I think they are fine…
Victoria was checking on my lips and I was rather busy checking down on her boobs. They are some very impressive assets that are nicely shaped, perky but not naturally soft. I was kinda disappointed but I thought maybe I got the wrong spot which is highly possible. Victoria gave me a another kiss on the lips and my oh my, I never let her go. This time round I learned my lesson, my hands was not around her bosoms but I was placing it behind at her perky butt. She didn’t refuse me like the boobs and I was kind of busy stroking her body. Softly, I could hear her moaning while kissing me. I am seriously excited to see what is ahead of me but I guess Victoria is not a woman that I could lead my Cha Cha so I let her lead me.
Footnote: The way to her mind is not the way to her heart. Patience is a virtue! They are different from man, for they only have one head to deal with and we have 2. Cheerios!
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This the the very reason till date I can’t forget Victoria…
Sometimes while taking train in the morning, I somehow wished that I had the guts to hit on the chicks in the cramp
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Reading thru your narration brings to mind so many things of similarity
. Thanks for such passionate narration
. Must take a lot out of you to pour it all out eh bro? Thanks!
BTW, the pic link does not work, any chance of reposting again? Looking forward to more plz. Cheers bro ………..
Hi bro, onlyhuman is only lazy, as he just wants to be served, unlike you who likes to hunt and sometimes be hunted. Its a different kind of thrills.
Also, he is picky in even his other escapades. Dont be offend, onlyhuman not this kind of person, haha.
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ilovebigtits
OH COME ON…what are you trying to tell me??? I fxxxing don’t pick my ride? Huh…..Man you are a total fxxxing jerk!!! Do I look like a begger to you or something Mr almighty “Onlyhuman”?
Ahem…I’m kidding, have fun!
Hi bro,
thanks for the great stories and sorry to see you trying constantly to fight and balance the devils, angels, responsibilities, desires. Life is a balancing game it seems.
Indeed, I believe 2 face is something most bros here are living including myself, 2 lives. In the public, it is something but inside, its totally different.
Have you read the “Heart of Africa” and the movie “Apocalypse Now” or even last samurai, seems both are describing the kind of mental battles you and many others are constantly battling in our hearts. like how we can are do massacre, torture, rape, plunder people we know are innocent and are of no harm to us yet still go home to your kids and wives without remorse.
Perhaps this is where religion comes into play, to give a sense of balance like handing part of our lives control to someone or something greater than ourselves, i.e. buddhist is to the karma of life, christians to christ, moslems to allah.
Take care and I wish you all the best, and yes do please keep writing!
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Sometimes while taking train in the morning, I somehow wished that I had the guts to hit on the chicks in the cramp
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eeemen
Reading thru your narration brings to mind so many things of similarity
. Thanks for such passionate narration
. Must take a lot out of you to pour it all out eh bro? Thanks!
BTW, the pic link does not work, any chance of reposting again? Looking forward to more plz. Cheers bro ………..
Actually Bro eeemen is right, it is difficult to keep the motivation writing in my style because its passion evoking somehow raised the level of guilt, disheartening when no one reads which results in the inconsistency and work caught up on me….Sorry guys!
I Ravaged Victoria…? Part.5 <<<< Recapp!
Packed up and got our ass to Zouk. Victoria called her friends an got me to meet up with them.
V: Meet Fanny, Yvonne and Lydia…They are my sisters (Good friends).
A: *Eye Roll* Oh hi…
Y: You seems to be not to pleased to see us?
A: Ain’t we here for Drinks and Dance? C’mon on, lets go!
Intro on Victoria’s Tree little hens: (Back then)
Yvonne:-
Age: 27
About her: Bitchy, Jealous jar, Self centered, Talk to much shit, busy body…In short, a bitchy bimbo!
Looks: 7/10
Figure: Slim and Slander
Best feature: Her suck cock mouth
Fanny:-
Age: 25
About her: Ice mountain, Drinks a lot and doesn’t smile.
Looks: 8/10
Figure: A bit chubby
Best feature: Cool!
Lydia:-
Age: 40+ (Tells people that she is in her 30’s…Kiddin who?)
About her: SPG, Loud, Wild and Easy going
Looks:6/10 (a bit chubby and lousy dress sense-Like to dress in animal prints)
Figure: BUSTY and BOOTILIOUS
Best Feature: Laughter…I like LOL kinda girl. They are usually loud moaners!
I bet Yvonne was very pissed with the way I spoke to her at the entrance and got back at me every possible way she could! Yvonne is always pulling Victoria from me but we were always looking at each other and smiling at each other. We sat and drink for awhile and got to the dance floor. Yvonne is always pushing me away from Victoria, getting me away from her or coming in between us. It irritates me a lot and I usually don’t hold back my fury. After 2-3 drink Victoria was completely gone…Yvonne taught it was me whom got her drunk, I was wronged! Victoria’s hens sent her back immediately and leaved me at Zouk without telling me that they are leaving. I didn’t bother about what happened and continued dancing and drinking. After about 45mins, Victoria texted me…
Victoria’s SMS:
I’m so sorry, I am so drunk and Yvonne had to send me home. Are you ok?
Alex SMS:
Are you ok? I’m drinking and dancing alone.
Victoria’s SMS:
I’m so sorry to spoil the night. Thank you for everything you had made for me.
Alex SMS:
Can I see you?
Victoria SMS:
Tomorrow when I wake up. I call you!
Alex SMS:
But I am missing you like crazy now and you just leave without saying a word…
Victoria SMS:
Ok…but I am still very drunk, can I see you tomorrow?
Alex SMS:
Nope…
Victoria SMS:
Ok…. (Her Address) and landmark to watch for.
She claims to be drunk…but she could tell me precisely where she stay yeah…?
While driving to Victoria’s house, my heart was racing! I wonder what will happen? I stopped by Geylang to get her some hot Chinese cooling tea and got to her place. I gave her a call to open the door and to my surprise she was pretty quick.
The moment Victoria opened the door, My jaws almost dropped to the floor! She was wearing a red satin see through rope and NOTHING beneath. My heart beats like it’s exploding and my eyes were red hot. I only saw 3 colors, Red, White and Black. Black: Her Hair and her pubic hair, Red: Her rope, White: Her fair complexion.
A mind exploding journey begins, Updating shortly…