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you (& your dar, if you can eventually convince him) should concentrate on LIVING TODAY & BUILDING TOMORROW
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you are best positioned to ensure your child(ren) should & would not have to go through what you went through
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Guilty gal
Can laser off the tattoos but scars still remain. I saw before and it look awful.
I still maintain my original stand that …
Look, it’s not your fault that you were in a position to be used by SS scums … it’s lagi not your fault to believe that brotherhood actually existed.
Fortunately or unfortunately, you were & are not the only one to be used by them under false pretenses … more importantly, your tattoos will serve as a live account of what shitty past your child(ren) must avoid & what you could help them avoid.
Tattoos are unable to wash off cleanly.
Even with laser, you will still have burnt scar after the session and yes it hurts alot and its not cheap.
As for colour-ed tattoo, u can only lighten the colour….
holy shit ok your experience is worse than my wife’s altho i can’t say much more in the forum abt her, I can only relate to you in messages. If your SBF mailbox is full, you can email me at
[email protected]
. But seriously, this is worse than what i encountered when my wife told me certain things that happened (and was still happening when i was with her as bf and almost to the stage of getting married). Not sure if my story would help you or not
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After you see my next posting, pls tell me whether what happened to me did happened to your wife anot if you dun mind.
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I realli hoped to know whether will you all still think that I should tell my dar after you see what happened in my next post.
I think is normal, every 1 make mistakes, nobody is prefect, as long as u admit the mistake change it and look forward to a new beginning that will be well already.
hey TS
if a guy really love you i belive he wont mind ur past…
for me i wont mind my gal past no matter wat it is as long as she tell me..
but if she hide/lie to me and i found out….i mind.
While I was packing my closet to clear all my old handbags, clothing, etc, I accidentally discovered a book. It’s my diary that I kept there secretly not to be discovered by anyone and even myself forgotten since I last writing on it. I flipped thru the last few pages and it brought my memories back to this site, SammyBoyForum, the site that I cursed and swear around 6 months ago.
At that point of time, I was thinking why the hell I came in to this site? Why I listen to strangers and heed their advice so easily? Why I dun just keep things to myself till the rest of my life? I was totally devastated, frustrated and was in the verge of breakdown. I hate everyone ard including myself! I was thinking that I will never come in here anymore!
6 months ago…..
I finally decided to tell dar everything about my past truthfully after much consideration and advice given by fellow “samster” here. I really dunno how to start a conversation that linked to this topic therefore I had waited for a few days but even then to no avail. The content of our conversation had never ever contained such topic before. I was nervous and afraid of losing him at the same time, plenty of thoughts flew in my mind and flooded the whole system of mine.
After mustering up my courage and grabbing the opportunity to tell him my past once and for all during our anniversary on 28 Feb. This is a date that I will not ever forget for the rest of my life. I took a day off on that particularly important day to prepare the necessary, instead of going out for dinner just like Valentine’s Day that happen 2 weeks before, I decided to cook for dar.
I was pretty busy since morning, went to market and bought some fresh meat, ingredients, a bottle of wine, flower petals, etc…. I wanna give hubby a memorable and wonderful nite. I wanna him to understand that I am now a wonderful and faithful wife of his. I told him to come home on time that day and we shall have dinner.
I had my hair bun up, wearing an apron, dar came back while I was in the midst of preparing a sumptuous dinner. I quickly ran towards him, planted a kiss on his lips and hugged him real tight. I then leaded him to sit on the crouch, I removed his shoe and socks for him then placed a pair of slippers for him to put on. I could feel that he was amazed by my unusual behaviors. I then cling ard his arm and brought him to the bathroom with the tub filled with water and petals on it. I told dar to relax in the tub with nice sense of aromatic fragrance that I pre-arranged before he was about to come back and take his time so that we can enjoyed our dinner when he is done.
Dar came out and was kind of starred by the ambience probably because we did not ever have candle-light dinner before at home. We enjoyed our dinner with few glasses of red wine each. Eventually, the cd player was on with a click from my fingers on the controller. In no time, our bodies were attached, spirit and souls combined into one and felt like we were the only two person left in this world, dancing sensationally in the dining room. Next was of cos dar behaved like what normal men will do, got an erection behind his Bermudas. I was then being carried into the bedroom, my head lied on his chest, I felt so protected. I wished I could be in his arms forever and ever. I wished I could be reborn. I wished I had no committed all those sins due to my ignorant. But what I can actually do for dar at that point of time was basically nothing more then satisfying him by all means that I could, I really mean anything! I also got my loudest scream in the highest pitch throughout my entire marriage life, not forgetting to “thanx” the red wine & all the unusual stuffs that were typically prepared for hubby.
I will continue with this……………
Hey finally this post is interesting - jia you.
As for your history - remember to learn it - what’s done in the past may come back to haunt u anytime but take them gracefully, accept all the consequences regardless how diffcult they are and move on.
Ok i camp here for your next post
which i tink more interesting.
- Jia you though -
To: see see only,itsalive & Chinapuss
I try not to look back and accept the fact le. I will look onto the bright side of life de.
I am writing how I actually feels at that point of time……..
I couldn’t control myself for typing down each and every detail for the memorable last night of my romance. That was probably the most enjoyable and sensation night of my whole life. Therefore, I really hope some “reader” who send me private message can try to understand me and just treat it like reading blogs rather than saying that you want to “satisfied me” or “please elaborate on the sexual parts”, etc….
The subject title is “My Personal Bio”
Your understanding is very much appreciated. Thank you!
Continue….
As it was dar off day tomolo (1 day off on week end, 1 day off on weekdays), we decided to go out. Although my legs were slightly wobbling after all the electrifying sensation just now, we still managed to reach the bridge in between M. Faber and T. Blangah hill (forget the name of the hill) that we always wanted to take a look. The ambience and scenery is good enough for both of us to have a good hug with cool breeze gently slapping on beads of sweat on our bodies and sent chill down our spine. I treasure each and every of that particular moment, smelling the aroma of dar’s body, head resting on his warm chest and arms ard a familiar waist.
I tilted my head up, “Dar, I got something to tell you deep in the bottom of my heart.”
…………………………Long conversation…………………………………………
I spilled out everything to have buried deep inside my heart for years. I felt that he should know and hoped that he can forgive me for lying to him since the start. Although I felt relieve after I told him the truth, but on the other hand, I was real sad and was weeping, dar seem unable to withstand the shock given to him as he remained silent thru out the conversation. There were a long pause of silence in between before dar turned over and gave me a tight hug, I was extremely delighted to think that he accepted my sin in the past and when I was abt the placed my hands ard him, he let go of me and left without a word.
I was in no position to be outrageous although he abandoned me right there. I try my best to be his good Be and love him like I always do but all these are to no avail after being frank to him. My heart was like thousands of needles pinning my heart and my breathing became slow and deep, inhaling oxygen bit by bit. It is almost the same when my beloved dad left me. The world becomes so dark and cold, I feel no love and support, I hate my past, current and future, I despise myself!
Looking down the bridge, I saw many cars moving at a fast speed. “Should I end everything like this”, I asked myself. Plenty of thoughts & wonders kept haunting me without giving me any spare time to breath. Passenger-bys probably pondering why I was alone standing there but this was the last that I will bother abt. I seriously despise myself even further when I could not pick up my courage to be the first jumper at that bridge.
Will continue again ya………
Sad , why tell him your pasts. This not a lie when you dont tell him , even he wont leave you , still inside still remains a scar , aiyo.
read thru , your case seem normal. how many of your sis or bro live life better then you ?